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Ionote,Shel,Tim,Deb,Tz and my other friends...
Hi guys,
Miss you all so much! I am going through a very hard time right now. As my friends on here know, my dad has level 4 bone cancer. Anyway, he was rushed to the hospital Monday morning for severe pain he is having. He is currently still in there. The doctors, took him off of Chemo today, as it is no nonger working for him. We got him a hospital bed for the house, and Hospice was called to start coming. The doctors told us all today, that the time is very near. He has a matter of a few weeks at the longest. We don't even see that though. I am so sad, and don't honestly know how i am going to deal with this. My mom is such a wreck and seeing her in all this pain is making things even worse for us kids. I love my dad so damm much, and now that we know the time is about here, i am just feeling so heart broken, Lost for words, and severely depressed! I started using the damm pills all over again, cause stupid me can't go through this without them. Ok, i know i can, but i am choosing not to. This is a time that i can't be going through w/d's, my family needs me! Oh guys, here i am once again back to square one. Honestly though, i don't care about me right now, i just need to be there for my parents, and be in good spirits. I can't do this if i am withdrawing. I wonder if things will ever get back to normal for me and my family again.
If i could please get some SERIOUS prayers, i sure would appreciate them all.
Thanks all of you,
Hope
Miss you all so much! I am going through a very hard time right now. As my friends on here know, my dad has level 4 bone cancer. Anyway, he was rushed to the hospital Monday morning for severe pain he is having. He is currently still in there. The doctors, took him off of Chemo today, as it is no nonger working for him. We got him a hospital bed for the house, and Hospice was called to start coming. The doctors told us all today, that the time is very near. He has a matter of a few weeks at the longest. We don't even see that though. I am so sad, and don't honestly know how i am going to deal with this. My mom is such a wreck and seeing her in all this pain is making things even worse for us kids. I love my dad so damm much, and now that we know the time is about here, i am just feeling so heart broken, Lost for words, and severely depressed! I started using the damm pills all over again, cause stupid me can't go through this without them. Ok, i know i can, but i am choosing not to. This is a time that i can't be going through w/d's, my family needs me! Oh guys, here i am once again back to square one. Honestly though, i don't care about me right now, i just need to be there for my parents, and be in good spirits. I can't do this if i am withdrawing. I wonder if things will ever get back to normal for me and my family again.
If i could please get some SERIOUS prayers, i sure would appreciate them all.
Thanks all of you,
Hope
So very sorry for you - you and your dad will be in my prayers. I'm glad you can be with him and all of your family at this time. I wish you the best time today - laugh and have the best Thanksgiving ever.
dear, i will pray for you and your family .. i will pass along to my family also to say a prayer ... i'm sittin here in tears just reading this and if there was anything anyone could do for him, you know they would....cancer is the worst thing to watch someone go thru, i've had 6 family members pass from cancer. i know it's hard!!! enjoy this time you have w/him and tomorrow will be a very special day for you and your family ... you might not realize it now but you will .. you do what you have to do to get thru this hard time right now, don't worry about feeling bad for going back to the pills .. i know i would do the same damn thing .. its a way to cope w/things .. right or wrong .. it does not matter right now ... you take care of yourself also .. prayers are on the way!! peace!
love - traci
love - traci
Thank all of you from the bottom of my heart!
I actually just got home, i worked today (half a day) then went straight to my parents house. They brought my dad home from the hospital today, and hospice was there. My dad is laying comfortable in a hospital bed we had got for him. He is on liquid moraphine and 80 mg oxy. So right now he is feeling ok. Hospice told us today as well as his cancer doctor that they see it happening within a few weeks. We (the whole family) are going to be there tomorrow for Thanksgiving, my dad said he wants all of us there, since it will be our last together. It is going to be hard, but i will get through it. I had to call the cememtary today and get the plots ready, and we are going to the funeral home on Friday, me and my sister to make the arrangements. This just sucks!
I know this is part of life, and i except that, but damm guys this is so hard! We are so very close, and he means the world to me. When the time comes, i am sure i won't be on here for awhile, won't feel like talking much, but there is going to be a time soon after that i will need you. I need to stay strong for my mom, so when i leave there, this is where i will be turning to.
I love you guys so much,
Thanks for everything,
Hope
I actually just got home, i worked today (half a day) then went straight to my parents house. They brought my dad home from the hospital today, and hospice was there. My dad is laying comfortable in a hospital bed we had got for him. He is on liquid moraphine and 80 mg oxy. So right now he is feeling ok. Hospice told us today as well as his cancer doctor that they see it happening within a few weeks. We (the whole family) are going to be there tomorrow for Thanksgiving, my dad said he wants all of us there, since it will be our last together. It is going to be hard, but i will get through it. I had to call the cememtary today and get the plots ready, and we are going to the funeral home on Friday, me and my sister to make the arrangements. This just sucks!
I know this is part of life, and i except that, but damm guys this is so hard! We are so very close, and he means the world to me. When the time comes, i am sure i won't be on here for awhile, won't feel like talking much, but there is going to be a time soon after that i will need you. I need to stay strong for my mom, so when i leave there, this is where i will be turning to.
I love you guys so much,
Thanks for everything,
Hope
Hi.
Bless you and your family. I am new here. Logged on to info for my daughter addiction.
Anyway. I have just been through a similar situation and my heart goes out to you. My sister died a few months ago from a brain tumor and she was in soooooo much pain.
My prayers that your heart will heal are coming non stop. I know from experience that no words can help only to know that people care. Even if it is people you dont know.
Trust in the fact that your father is in extreme pain and when he passes he will not hurt anymore.
I am spiritual and not religious so to speak, I read a book called 90 minutes in Heaven that helped comfort me. My thoughts and prayers are with you.......and my heart aches for you.
~peace and grace.
tammy
Bless you and your family. I am new here. Logged on to info for my daughter addiction.
Anyway. I have just been through a similar situation and my heart goes out to you. My sister died a few months ago from a brain tumor and she was in soooooo much pain.
My prayers that your heart will heal are coming non stop. I know from experience that no words can help only to know that people care. Even if it is people you dont know.
Trust in the fact that your father is in extreme pain and when he passes he will not hurt anymore.
I am spiritual and not religious so to speak, I read a book called 90 minutes in Heaven that helped comfort me. My thoughts and prayers are with you.......and my heart aches for you.
~peace and grace.
tammy
I am so sorry! I lost a very dear friend (only 47) to stomach CA a couple of months ago. It was so slow and we are never really prepared for the day it ends! Just be there for him...I'm sure his family being by his side is all that he needs! My prayers are with you and your family!
Peace.
Marcie
Peace.
Marcie
Hey hon! I'm so sorry about Dad. Boy when it comes to bad luck, and sickness and worse in the family at holiday time, you are talking to the queen of it. 2yrs ago it started at hannukah time in dec with my cousin cindy 46, the day brfore new years they found my brother in his apt, then dad an aunt and finnally my dads brother uncle dave cindy's dad coulden't take it her passing and started falling and stuff and in a 5 month period 5 deaths. Thanksgiving is here cause mom needs to be a guest, and everyone and everything that follows. I've been a crying mess. I'm so sorry for you hon. I just hope he gets thru the year. It sounds pretty bad. You will need to deal with it ay some point of sound mind. As a matter of fact I was pretty f%$--ed up at the time cause while all this was going on I had surgery. The pills give you power let me tell you I don't adv ise it but I was pretty ****** up
at a couple funerals. I understand what you are doing, but think you really are going to need to deal with this stuff someday. You haven't been ready, you haven't been able to pull it off. You still are alot of people's favorite out here and you are cared for reguardless. I don't know what to tell you sweetie but,hang in there. What are you all doing for the hoilday? love ya Cat
at a couple funerals. I understand what you are doing, but think you really are going to need to deal with this stuff someday. You haven't been ready, you haven't been able to pull it off. You still are alot of people's favorite out here and you are cared for reguardless. I don't know what to tell you sweetie but,hang in there. What are you all doing for the hoilday? love ya Cat
you will be in my prayers, sweetheart.
do only what you can do... i can only tell you if i could do it all over again, i wish i had been in "my right mind" when my father was dying.. i would have seen, and felt, so much more... so if you can, then it is good.
if not, then honey - you are simply doing your best. and i know you will be there for him, regardless.
i luv you sweet pea. i know how hard this is... there is nothing i can say, except i am so sorry for your pain.
with all my luv,
mj
ps - and you have my email - if you need to talk, please don't hesitate...
do only what you can do... i can only tell you if i could do it all over again, i wish i had been in "my right mind" when my father was dying.. i would have seen, and felt, so much more... so if you can, then it is good.
if not, then honey - you are simply doing your best. and i know you will be there for him, regardless.
i luv you sweet pea. i know how hard this is... there is nothing i can say, except i am so sorry for your pain.
with all my luv,
mj
ps - and you have my email - if you need to talk, please don't hesitate...
prayers coming your way...I remember you saying he was very young...I am so sorry ..I have never lost a parent and not sure how i would deal with that..
Make the most of the time you have left with him...Wishing your family some sort of peace..
r2r
Make the most of the time you have left with him...Wishing your family some sort of peace..
r2r
I will pray for your Dad................I actually have been for awhile. For you and your family too.
Sweetie, just know that there is no way to say good-bye. I think if I could have realized that when my mom was getting ready to "make the journey" to the spirit world, it would have helped me not feel so restless and like I had to always be "doing" something.
I really believe they don't leave us completely. Just in body. It is cliche but I truly believe this.
Make the most of the time you have with him. Love him, tell him how much. Talk about the great times and how he is a great dad.
Perhaps stay with him while your mom goes and gets a massage or something. She will be trying to stay strong for you and her other kids.
Hang tight. You will get through this. Listen to what the Hospice people say, they are so helpful and the information is so important.
hugs
tzt
Sweetie, just know that there is no way to say good-bye. I think if I could have realized that when my mom was getting ready to "make the journey" to the spirit world, it would have helped me not feel so restless and like I had to always be "doing" something.
I really believe they don't leave us completely. Just in body. It is cliche but I truly believe this.
Make the most of the time you have with him. Love him, tell him how much. Talk about the great times and how he is a great dad.
Perhaps stay with him while your mom goes and gets a massage or something. She will be trying to stay strong for you and her other kids.
Hang tight. You will get through this. Listen to what the Hospice people say, they are so helpful and the information is so important.
hugs
tzt
i am so sorry. i cannot imagine the pain you are in right now. i will put your father and you in my prayers and my church prayer list.
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