Hi to all, thank you for taking your time to read my story. I'm 37 weeks pregnant and I'm addicted to OxyContin for a few years now. I DO NOT buy them off the street I had few health problems and had to take them. I will tell you honestly my in tire story, I hope this will be one place where I can just open myself finally in order to get some support, any support. God knows I really need it. My pain stopped, I have no need to take my meds any longer , but over the course of 2 years I got addicted to them. I moved to a different country for my husbands job and I have medication from my doctor with me, he gave it to me just in case for a few months ahead plus he gave me pretty much 3 times stronger dose , so I have it for more then 6 months all together . I got pregnant and I found myself in a situation where I'm pregnant and addicted. My current ob doc knows about my meds, and I don't think he even realizes what it is... All they have here is tramadol for pain or morphing in er. I lived every day with my addiction, growing belly and constant hate to myself for not being strong enough to stop. I lowered my dose to 30mg OxyContin per day in 2 days, then to 5mg in next 2. And today i took nothing. that was hard - please realize that you talking to a person who has almost full bag of pills just laying and looking at you wile you trying to stop for good... And I'm not a bad person, I'm not a bad mother - please don't judge me, I'm an addict and I try to do my best. I'm human, I'm weak when it came down to stoping. I admit it. I eat myself alive enough, I don't need it from any more people.. I just pray to god that my baby will not have withdrawals, I stopped too late, I know..... Today is my first day completely clean off pills. I won't touch it again. Believe it or not and for some people it will be hard to read but I just flushed in the toilet more then 300 OxyContin pills and I left to myself 15 just in case if I get really bad. I'm crying myself to sleep every night for such a long time , I can't stand the fact that I am so weak. And I dragged it for soooo long. All I want right now is a miracle. All I truly want is for someone to tell me that I was not too late and there is a chance for my angel to be born good and healthy. And I want to be strong enough not to touch any more pills and stay strong for my baby. I know there is 1000's girls in the same situation as I am and my heart goes to you.. Thank you again for your support in advance and if you have any advise on what I can do to make it easier on baby or better please feel free to write me, or if anyone goes through same thing - I'm here for you