Ok, I wasnt going to comment. But, I wanted to share my experience. I dont know your method of partaking in the festivities. I shot my dope. To me any other way was just a waste. I was on dilaudid, heroin, OC's, crack, coke. If it could be liquified, I shot it. I shot dope every day for 3.5 years. Mild compared to others and then more than some. After a year of shooting up I contracted Hep C. Yep, the liver killer. I've had it 2.5 years now. Been to detox in the hospital twice and then to rehab once. 28 day program. Can't say any of that worked for me except made me a text book junkie.
During my stay at the first hospital for detox, the Doctor said "well, you've got Hep C. But dont worry, it wont kill you for 20 years or so." I was 36 then. I'm 38 now. So, I think to myself, wow, by the time I'm 56, I could be dead. Because I am already dying each day until then. I lost everything I had because of my addiction. I lost a great job, family, friends (cept the dope heads), my self respect, my self esteem. The list is endless. Worst of all is I ended up homeless. Yep, living on the streets. Stealing, scamming, anything but selling my body and although I like to think I never would have stooped that far, I know eventually I would have.
I've been to jail around 16 times, give or take a few times. Mostly for misdemeanors. But during my binging, I scored a case. Yep, felony for possession. Oh, dope friends said you'll get probation etc, etc, I got drug court. Which because I wasnt ready to stop cuz I hated being sick. I ignored it. Well, because of drugs and my own stupidity, I am now facing 1-3 years in PRISON. I have been indicted by the grand jury.
I dont know why I feel so compelled to share this with you. But there is no lost causes to me. I do pray and hope for your sake and your family's that you wisen up and get clean. I as of this date have 7 months clean.
Imagine if you continue to go down the dope road, just where you might end up? There are three places that is for the addict who wont listen and those are Jails, Institutions and Death. I've been to 2. Guess whats next?
Please make a "Profound Change" in your life. I had to. But the damage is already done. I waited tooo long.
Peace and love to you,
Carrie