Tim - my bud

Hey stranger, long time no talk.  It's your old friend - calijen.  I have been having the struggle of my life and even disappeared for awhile.  I feel like things are harder than they ever have been.  Before we seemed so strong and so determined, I don't know how or why things changed.  But I have missed you, missed finding strength from the forum and from each other.  You are missed a lot.  I had pretty much given up all hope but I found that one little spark that was still burning and decided I'm not ready to give up yet.  Things may seem overwhelming, draining and impossible - but deciding to just live with it can't be an option.  That's why I came back.  I had to.  I want to make it, and I want you to make it too.

I hope to hear from you very very soon,
Jen

[lonote]

I'm not Tim but I'm definately one of your friends out here. Today im working 7-3. I just want to know I feel you reaching out to your friends out here. I feel like I'm one of them so I plan on talking to you when I get back from work thisafternoon. Sweetheart, I'm so sorry to here of your struggle , but you have to know anything is possible. Don't give up/ The fact your out here says alot. I have to jump in the shower, but this afternoon, its you and me. We will be talking. I've put in 27 hrs at work. They haven't been giving me hrs, and this weekend someone wanted to go out and party so I picked up his hrs, then the boss came in and boy did I shine. He's in trouble snd I'll wind up with more hrs. Who said theres anything wrong with a little sucking up with to the boss!!! I'll be back! hang in there sweetie!   Love ya!   Cathy

[road2recovery]

i was worried about you..i sent you a few emails??  I am so sad you are struggling..please stay with us and let us help you..
you were and still imspire me, maybe you just needed to take a break from the forum..
I am glad you are back..
But don't worry me like that again...DO you understand young lady?????LOL
r2r

[IBKleen]

Welcome Back!

We have never chatted. I am fairly new to the forum, but it sounds like you have ppl here who care about you. I know, for me, I have found kindness, strength, hope and friendship in my short time. It almost sounds funny to say that strangers helped me when I reached out, but they did. Now they are no longer strangers. Every time I reach out, someone is there.

Hope to see you post more and get to know you.

Hugs........

[RiseAbove]

lonote and r2r - I have always considered you both two of my closest friends on the forum.  I still think about you all the time.  lonote, I think about your son and wonder how he is doing.  r2r, I have been reading your posts about your health struggles.  I missed you both!!!

IB - thank you so much for your response  You are so right about the people here.  I'm glad I'm back.  I look forward to getting to know you just like I've gotten to know other wonderful people here.

[tzt2lady]

Hey Jen,
Welcome back.  I didnt even know it was you.   Please never, ever, give up.   You are so worth the fight.   If you ever want to talk NA program stuff I am here for you, ok?   We will have to email probably.
hugs
tzt

[lonote]

Okay, I'm back from work, pottied, and napped and ready to talk. Are you around?

[lonote]

One more thing. The woman IBKLEEN that greeted you? She is good people. She is a fine lady and since meeting her I can't say enuf good things. She  will offer you support. Take it. She's like a loyal
pup.  lol.     me  again

[K Todd]

Is this the same Jen from a while ago..????

God I hope so!

Love,
Todd

[K Todd]

Cathy,

I just caught your reply below.....how are you doing sweetie? It seems like forever since we have talked....fill me in I'm waiting..lol  (-:

Love,
Todd

[lonote]

Well I'm still on on suboxin. Maintaining well, still happily married, and staying clean as clean with the exception of subox. How are you my friend? what you been up to?

[K Todd]

Cathy,

Glad to hear your still on the Sub and not the drugs! ~smiles and ((((  Hugs  ))))  

As far as me, doing great! Got my Valium balanced down at the scrip and descending....and waiting for insurance to get my dental work finished..so I can drop these last 3-4 Hydro's! - Other than that, I started a new job last month, and been working my *** off to get got up on bills...So Cal - outrauges! lol

How many days have you been on the Sub. now?

Love,
Todd

[lonote]

I've been on it since May. I'll prob have a little w/d comming off. But it will be okay.I'm going to the doc in the morning. I think I have another hernia. I've allready had surgery on hernias on my tummy twice. I don't want to go thru it again. I quit smoking ciggs. Woohoo!