Tim

[lil_addict]

Thank you so much for your kind words... when I posted the last few times, I very rarely get replied back to except from Kim (Lizzielou) and maybe a couple more very sweet supportive people on here.  She's been god sent to me.  I've been listening to you the last couple of days (been lurking more now that we have all this drama) and I see that you are havin' a very hard time as well.  I'm so sorry.  Unfortunately, we are goin' to really really wanna do this if we want this to happen for ourselves.  I think that if we all stick together, we can get through this with the help of our online friends  :)    

I hope that you have a better nite tonight.  I feel different this time.  I think that this will be the time that I actually quit.  I actually feel excited about quiting this time... which that has never happened when I try to quit lol.  I am really ready this time.  I wish and pray the best for you.  :)  I want my life back.  I want to start doin' things with my kids again.  I used to study and work with my children with their homework and make sure they had the correct answers.  I didn't do their homework for them or even give them the correct answers but I made sure that I went over all their homework and picked out the wrong ones and worked through each problem with them.  I used to keep the house clean, and when hubby got home used to spend every minute with him til we went to bed.  Now the house is always a mess and when hubby gets home, I'm on the puter til I go to bed.  I'm like you.  I feel so lost.  Let's have a positive attitude this time and have it in our minds that we will do this!!!  

I know I'm just babbling but I'm tryin' to syke myself up into doin' this right this time.  I don't know about you, but with me the physical withdrawals are really bad, but the mental withdrawals are actually worse.  I was wanting to quit before because I was tired of running out.  But this time I actually want to quit.  When I went to the docs yesterday, I actually didn't make a next appointment AND I had them give me 2 less oxycodone 30mg a day.  So, instead of gettin' 4 oxycodone 30mg a day, I'm only gettin' 2 oxycodone 30mg a day but I also get 3 - percocet 10mg and 1 oxycontin 80mg a day.  I usually take way more than that so I figure I should run out in about a week and a half.  So, I'm gonna quit after I run out and never take them again.  I know everyone is prolly sayin' "well why don't you just quit now and flush the rest" but I just want one more "whoohooo" before I quit lol.  I know that's really sick to think that way but I'm bein' honest.  That's the plan, and the more we stay positive and say "we will" and "we are" instead of sayin' "I'm gonna try"  or "maybe" I think the better.  I'm here for you if you need me.  I have an errand to run but I'll be back a little later on tonite.

Take care and you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers,

Lil.  :)

[lil_addict]

Thanks so much u 2... I really appreciate the kind words.  Tim, I'm rootin' for ya.  You can do it!!  You seem like a very strong person and have alot of support from many people here including me.  Hope you both have a wonderful 4th.  My hubby and kids are prolly goin' to do fire works and barbeque.  We do it every year.  I love 4th of July!!  Take care and ya'll are in my thoughts and prayers  :)  Hugz, Lil.  

[TimH2]

You are going to make it. It is sure a tough thing to do and well worth it. I will be here for you and many others. I am feeling kind of rough this morning and we have a group of people coming over. We are doing fireworks on the beach tonight. I just have to make it through this day. I am rooting for you and know you will be back to your old self real soon.

God Bless,
Tim

[K Todd]

Lil,

I replied to you above...don't worry I know Tim very well, he is a very good freind of mine....and he will reply back to you, when he reads this. You don't have to worry about that...just make sure he see's it...if not, I will let him now you posted for him...

That reminds me, I still have to email him - lol

Sorry Tim, just been checken the room out! As you can see I named it the "A-Wall" Room for Addict seeking refuge! - LOL

God Bless

Todd