What do u do

[addicted32]

When you have a 3month old baby to take care of and all you want to do is lay in bed?  My girlfriend called and wanted to go to Kohls and get our little boys some outfits she lives 45 minutes away.  I also have a engagement party today.  Since my withdrawl and having the baby with me and not eating.I don't feel like leaving the house.  I just got out of bed and took a shower and im drinking tea.  It seems l can't do anything without getting a pill first.  I can't even hang out with my girlfriend because i don't have a pill.  Do I need to go to rehab?  I think when i got up this morning and ate a bowl of rice krispies that was a big deal for me then the depression started and some more withdrawls the kind where your hot and you can feel like a wave going through your body.  I took a ambien and recited the lords prayer until I fell asleep.  Isn't that weird all yesterday I kept telling myself to go to rehab but I have the baby.  Nobody can watch him.  My boyfriend just got a job and because it got and its been a year since he had a job  don't want to jepordize it.  because im not working and i don't think i can as a nurse anymore.  im debating whether to flush those pills right now.  or take one and go meet my friend.  what do i do

[kittycat1433]

Hope your doing better and feeling better .Is it getting any easier for you?Glad to see your still here.Igot really mad one nite and said i was leaving te group and then decide i wasn't hurting anyone but myself so i keep stickin around and im glad i have i really like the people here and lot's of good stuff to learn and to talk abt.well hope your feeling better.Kitty

[kittycat1433]

YOU MUST take care of your baby it's not the baby's fault. Ihave 3 kid's 11,7,3, and if i can do it so can you it is very very hardthe rying andeverything that goes with having a little baby try to not think abt the pill's spend time ith your little one it will make you feel good and baby to baby'scan sence when someting is wrong so it put's them on edge to so try like i said and do rehab @home call your doc to see what he/she could do to make youmore confy and hold baby alot so he/ she dosen't cry alot sing take hot bath's cook etc... you will feel better soon don't forget to say your prayer's.my spelling is awful get'ts better the more i use my com lol.

[avisg]

You sound like you are just prolonging the wd and mezry .What your boyfriend said is NOT cool . You  are getting yourself clean you dont need to listen to c rap like that.

[addicted32]

I'm  starting to think hes an *******.  He says you need "tough love"  You begged and lied to get pills now deal with it.  Actually what he said today.  It feels like its the end.  This is tappering down it feels like this???  I had to take one just to eat a hamburger.  I keep fighting with myself not to take any.

[kajama]

Then you get better for your child, your child needs a mother that can take care of them. I know that feeling in fact that is why I went to a hospital about 3 weeks ago. even being clean for months still have feeling of not wanting to be here. The good thing is that is does past.  I think you should probley get a counsler or someone to talk to you need to get your feeling out so then they can give you advice. You can't give up your life just because of stupid pills. think about that are you willing to give up everything because of an addiction?? YOu got to fight through it.

[avisg]

Honestly you just push threw .There have been more and are more moms on here then I can count .I would try to do as much as your can it makes the time more bearable.As  kajama says you know the answer to your own question flush the pills .Keep pushing forward it does get better if you use you are just going to keep doing the same thing over and over and you will still have kids and it will still be hard but you can do it !!!!!

[addicted32]

I understand but when you feeli like dying what do u do when you have a kid here?  

[kajama]

I think you know the answer to that question. do you want to start your withdrawal all over again...We can give you all the advise you want,but you have to decide what you will do. Rehab is good but like  you said no one to watch your baby. as far as nursing, I know I can't go back to nursing but everyone is different.  We care about you and want the best for you but as long as you keep those pills you will take them. You should go out with your friend, I know you don't feel like it but you will feel better the more you move around.~~~~Take care and let us know how you are doing~~~~