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hello fellow adicts. new to the post.. i have been watching and learning so much from all the posts
if anyone wants to listen to my story........kinda hard to talk about because i still use lortab.. i  have been putting off a mri with my gp... i have lower lumber disc bulging.. so he has just keeping on lortabs for the past 2 years. he keeps ordering the mri but i never have done it.. liked the pills just comming he would refill every 2 months.. lately i have major neck pain and my right arm feels like it is asleep like a numbness,,, well i finnaly got to the point where i wanted the mri,,well got the mri last week and went to my gp for the resluts.. turns out i have some major problems with my cervical spine. he has refered me to a neorsergon... at my visit with my gp going over the mri results, i asked to be seen alone, i was worried my gp would tell my husband i was alrealy on lortab. which he has no clue that i use everyday..so after itold my gp  the pian has gotten worse  and i told him my husband was in the  waiting room and wanted to talk to the dr about my mri results.. the dr called him in. to read them.. my dr. told us i needed some surgrey ... at some point after reading the results he said i was on a 8 out of 10 in pain... and asked if i needed some pain pills, well i knew if he looked at my records he would see that i was already on lortab.. so i said no i dint need any,,, so here i am .. husband has no idea  what i take..and i dont want to tell him.   i feel like i can take care of hte family, and keep up with football, softball etc...only if on the pills... i have gone though w/d  and it has kicked my ***... got me in the hospital.   i want to stay on the pills cause they help though life... does anyone on this post want to stay on the pills >>>

[grievingwidow]

Hi there,  so glad you decided to post.  I can totally relate to your story as can the majority of people here.  As far as wanting to stay on the pills, I have noticed only in the last couple of years I have grown complacent about it.  I used to want off them more than anything in the world, now I am afraid it has become such a part of my life that I am willing to settle.  I have been taking some form of opiate though for going on 20 years now.  Gosh where the time go!  It is so hard to believe it has been that long.  Of course, way back then it was just like maybe 1-2 pills a day and that went on for several years.  The last 6-8 years, my usage has really increased.  I do know that I need to get off though, I really do not like the stress of going to the doctor's office every month and always being afraid he is going to decide to cut me off or something, and it is just a hassle in general.  I have to totally plan my life around my monthly visit to the doctor and could not even think of moving out of town.  I don't know, I pray that I have the willpower soon to do it.  I also pray for you - as far as you keeping this from your husband - that has to be so stressful and I just worry about you continuing to do that. Why would he mind you taking the pills after finding out you have a serious problem that is causing you significant pain?  Well, again, glad you found us.  Come back and let us know how everything is going.

Love, Cindy

[desertgirl]

i can totally relate to what your going thru. i have been abusing my meds for a year now. over the past few months i have been taking whatever i can get my hands on. now i am finally able to take my daily amount ONLY when needed, and i feel so much better. i have an mri in a couple of weeks, been putting mine off as well. but it's time to face it and just deal with whatever is going on. i would suggest just taking your daily amount only when needed. it makes a world of difference.