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good morning
I hope you all have a great day and begin or continue to win the fight to be free from addiction. I dont have time to read posts right now but wanted you all to know Im thinking of you and care very deeply about us all.
gotta run, im late to work and car needs gas.........gotta put trash cans out...........feed dogs................etc
ill be on later
tzt
gotta run, im late to work and car needs gas.........gotta put trash cans out...........feed dogs................etc
ill be on later
tzt
Hey honey! I am so proud of your 3 weeks! I am on just over 2 believe it or not. This felt like the longest week of my life. I am so glad work is done for the week and now a four day weekend - I needed this so bad.
I am going to write my emails today and let you know more of what has been going on. Today I have the house to myself. I am not sure what is going on this weekend but I am not sure how much I will be online. If things get tense at home I might be gone a lot. I just don't need to deal with my husband's guilt trips or my stepson looking at me like I am an alien for being an addict. If they do not want to support then they can kiss my a**. Even though my husabnd uses..what a joke! I reccommended alanon for them but they think they do not need it. Should my husband got to alanon or na..then again he is still using. Screw it...I can't worry about them right now. I am still a little pissed by their reactions...can you tell?? lol
Anyway honey I hope to see you soon.
hugs,
shel
I am going to write my emails today and let you know more of what has been going on. Today I have the house to myself. I am not sure what is going on this weekend but I am not sure how much I will be online. If things get tense at home I might be gone a lot. I just don't need to deal with my husband's guilt trips or my stepson looking at me like I am an alien for being an addict. If they do not want to support then they can kiss my a**. Even though my husabnd uses..what a joke! I reccommended alanon for them but they think they do not need it. Should my husband got to alanon or na..then again he is still using. Screw it...I can't worry about them right now. I am still a little pissed by their reactions...can you tell?? lol
Anyway honey I hope to see you soon.
hugs,
shel
OHHHHH!!!! I so wish that I was on last night to talk with you!!! :( God I miss you!! I just get this warm feeling when I read your posts. It's like I have a big sister or something!! For some reason, I just connect with you more than anyone. Maybe because you were really there for me when I first came here or maybe its just because you're the nicest person EVER!!! LOL But I tell my friends and family all about you because you really helped me more than you know (I know I keep telling you that. I sound like a broken record...it's just that I'm so grateful!!!).
I am so happy that you were honest with your doc. Man I bet that felt good and I bet it was scary all at the same time. I am so proud of YOU!!! That was a hard thing to do but something that needed to be done huh? You are so right about the fact that they can only go by what we tell them. They are only human (trust me!!.....I've been around them for 20 years now). I hope the Celebrex works for you (and the muscle relaxant).
I am so sorry tht you are still having mild w/d's. You are so amazing because, not meaning to be insensitive, I ALWAYS FORGET THAT!!! You are so giving of yourself and so selfless that it isn't apparent that you are struggling also. I AM SO SORRY. I am usually the one doing the listening to someone else. So, for me to be on the other side is just plain weird. AND, I just feel like all I've been doing is talking about MYSELF!!! I apologize. I feel like you hardly ever talk about your struggles. It's all been about me!! SORRY TZT!! Like I said, I'm usually the one doing the listening. Please talk to me if your having a hard time and I will be here for YOU!! OK? Now.......shouldn't those w/d's be totally gone by now? How frustrating for you. And.....hardly any sleep? That must be so hard, especially when you have to get up and be a teacher the next day. I was telling someone, I can't remember who, to try Benadryl. That is all that is in all of those sleep-aid medications........Diphenhydramine. You might try that before bedtime. That might help you get some sleep.
I'm so glad you have such an awesome class this year. Too bad about the two that you lost. I'm sure that's very hard for you.
Have a wonderful time with your girlfriends tonight. That will be fun for you! Where did your son go for a week?
My kids actually like ALL their teachers this year. They are, so far, doing really well!! (I'm afraid to jinx it!!!). So far we are having such a good year. It has been a long time coming for us to have some good, happy, easy-going times. YEA!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for writing my back. I hope you see this post. You have a great three-day weekend and I'll talk to you soon ok?!
xoxo
Swany
PS..........Thank you for cheering me on. Actually.......me again!!!!........I really have a delema right now and I would love to get your opinion on what to do. I'M SORRY..........ABOUT ME AGAIN!!!!! I am really high maintenance aren't I........LOL. xoxo
I am so happy that you were honest with your doc. Man I bet that felt good and I bet it was scary all at the same time. I am so proud of YOU!!! That was a hard thing to do but something that needed to be done huh? You are so right about the fact that they can only go by what we tell them. They are only human (trust me!!.....I've been around them for 20 years now). I hope the Celebrex works for you (and the muscle relaxant).
I am so sorry tht you are still having mild w/d's. You are so amazing because, not meaning to be insensitive, I ALWAYS FORGET THAT!!! You are so giving of yourself and so selfless that it isn't apparent that you are struggling also. I AM SO SORRY. I am usually the one doing the listening to someone else. So, for me to be on the other side is just plain weird. AND, I just feel like all I've been doing is talking about MYSELF!!! I apologize. I feel like you hardly ever talk about your struggles. It's all been about me!! SORRY TZT!! Like I said, I'm usually the one doing the listening. Please talk to me if your having a hard time and I will be here for YOU!! OK? Now.......shouldn't those w/d's be totally gone by now? How frustrating for you. And.....hardly any sleep? That must be so hard, especially when you have to get up and be a teacher the next day. I was telling someone, I can't remember who, to try Benadryl. That is all that is in all of those sleep-aid medications........Diphenhydramine. You might try that before bedtime. That might help you get some sleep.
I'm so glad you have such an awesome class this year. Too bad about the two that you lost. I'm sure that's very hard for you.
Have a wonderful time with your girlfriends tonight. That will be fun for you! Where did your son go for a week?
My kids actually like ALL their teachers this year. They are, so far, doing really well!! (I'm afraid to jinx it!!!). So far we are having such a good year. It has been a long time coming for us to have some good, happy, easy-going times. YEA!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for writing my back. I hope you see this post. You have a great three-day weekend and I'll talk to you soon ok?!
xoxo
Swany
PS..........Thank you for cheering me on. Actually.......me again!!!!........I really have a delema right now and I would love to get your opinion on what to do. I'M SORRY..........ABOUT ME AGAIN!!!!! I am really high maintenance aren't I........LOL. xoxo
Hey you. I miss our freinds too! Everyone is still around, just dealing with life, etc. Thanks for the kind words...............it hasnt been easy but its sooooo worth it. Its amazing how much pain is actually tolerable without the pills. Im not in a lot of pain but my back isnt mostly just tense and spasmy (is that a word?). Anyway, please know that I say prayers for us all and never forget to ask for the safety of your boy. I did want to be clean when school started and by the grace of the Creator I am. The further I get from it, the bigger the addiction looks. I didnt realize how much it fogged up my life. Im actually doing things again, now that my tummy has healed a bit from the surgery. I havent heard from Tim for a couple of weeks. I hope he is ok. You take care and I think a womens meeting is a good idea. I havent been able to connect to the people in meetings, not impressed with what I see there anymore but know that if I keep looking I will find a group I can feel comfortable with.
Hugs
tzt
Hugs
tzt
Hey girl! 21 days! that is so great. I was out here with you those first few. I knew you would do it!
You wanted it so bad before school started. I'm so proud of you. I miss our friends.A few are still struggling. I had some urges but I'm shielded by the allmighty suboxone. So why bother. It gets me thru. I've been tempted, but I suppose that where the meetings come in. I know these ppl know what they are talking about. The last couple I went to and it has been a couple months, I was somewhat disenchanted. I know the right one would be more ppl of my age group, not a bunch of kids out of treatment on a fri.night, but thats life in the big city. I'll find myself a womens group somewhere soon here. I'm running out of options. The subox will only do so much, but then again, thats frouned apon some places.
You wanted it so bad before school started. I'm so proud of you. I miss our friends.A few are still struggling. I had some urges but I'm shielded by the allmighty suboxone. So why bother. It gets me thru. I've been tempted, but I suppose that where the meetings come in. I know these ppl know what they are talking about. The last couple I went to and it has been a couple months, I was somewhat disenchanted. I know the right one would be more ppl of my age group, not a bunch of kids out of treatment on a fri.night, but thats life in the big city. I'll find myself a womens group somewhere soon here. I'm running out of options. The subox will only do so much, but then again, thats frouned apon some places.
Swany!!!!!!!! NINE!! OMG! I remember the days of us cheering when you were down to 15 or 16!! This is so awesome, you are making tremendous progress!!! Do you feel ok?
Oh, hun, its fine that you tell people to talk to me. Im only a few weeks clean myself this time but have decades of experience with addiction related stuff (and recovery). Enough to know better than to get myself hooked up with script meds but, oh well.
Im so glad you are still working with your docs and keeping them involved with your decision making. I am so happy to hear this, you have decreased your dose so much!!!!!!!!!!
I am hanging in there. I actually fessed up to my doc, told him I needed to stay off the narcotics. He hugged me, said congratulations. I mean docs are docs and sometimes all they can go by is what we tell them. I mean when I first started taking the meds I told him I probably wouldnt be able to work if he did not give me something for the pain. I just didnt tell him when the pain stopped being so bad. He gave me a non narcotic pain reliever (celebrex) and a muscle relaxer to take at night for my back. It felt good to be honest.
I am still having mild wds, tired but still not sleeping well. Last night I slept for 5 hours straight, probably the longest and deepest sleep since quitting.
My students are awesome, squirrely as heck but awesome just the same. Tuesday one of them made a makeshift "shank", jail style and almost got expelled. Today one was hauled off campus for having pot in his pocket. Other than that, just minor stuff. I just love those kids.
I went out to dinner last night and tonight went out with a couple of girlfriends to an Irish pub. My son is gone for a week so Im going to a party at a friends house tomorrow. Several of the teachers are going, its nice, we sit on the patio and share stories about work and life. Chick stuff.
Do your kids like their teachers? I hope they have nice, caring teachers cuz Im sure they are awesome people, they would have to be coming from a sweet lil mama like yourself (smile).
I havent been on much cuz Ive been just beat by the time I get home. I lurk a bit, post one or two and then lay in bed and rest.
My heart is happy, Swany!!! You are gonna be just fine.
luv ya lots
tzt
Oh, hun, its fine that you tell people to talk to me. Im only a few weeks clean myself this time but have decades of experience with addiction related stuff (and recovery). Enough to know better than to get myself hooked up with script meds but, oh well.
Im so glad you are still working with your docs and keeping them involved with your decision making. I am so happy to hear this, you have decreased your dose so much!!!!!!!!!!
I am hanging in there. I actually fessed up to my doc, told him I needed to stay off the narcotics. He hugged me, said congratulations. I mean docs are docs and sometimes all they can go by is what we tell them. I mean when I first started taking the meds I told him I probably wouldnt be able to work if he did not give me something for the pain. I just didnt tell him when the pain stopped being so bad. He gave me a non narcotic pain reliever (celebrex) and a muscle relaxer to take at night for my back. It felt good to be honest.
I am still having mild wds, tired but still not sleeping well. Last night I slept for 5 hours straight, probably the longest and deepest sleep since quitting.
My students are awesome, squirrely as heck but awesome just the same. Tuesday one of them made a makeshift "shank", jail style and almost got expelled. Today one was hauled off campus for having pot in his pocket. Other than that, just minor stuff. I just love those kids.
I went out to dinner last night and tonight went out with a couple of girlfriends to an Irish pub. My son is gone for a week so Im going to a party at a friends house tomorrow. Several of the teachers are going, its nice, we sit on the patio and share stories about work and life. Chick stuff.
Do your kids like their teachers? I hope they have nice, caring teachers cuz Im sure they are awesome people, they would have to be coming from a sweet lil mama like yourself (smile).
I havent been on much cuz Ive been just beat by the time I get home. I lurk a bit, post one or two and then lay in bed and rest.
My heart is happy, Swany!!! You are gonna be just fine.
luv ya lots
tzt
Just saw your post and had to say.......MAN DO I MISS TALKING TO YOU!! I hope you don't mind, but I tell all the new people that maybe they should talk to you. I hope that's ok. I just tell them how much you helped me to taper down and I tell them that you are WONDERFUL. Hope you don't mind me doing that.
I really do miss talking to you. I haven't talked to you in so long since you've been back to work. You'd be proud to know that I'm down to 9.........NINE!!!!!!! Can you believe it. I know that some people will still look at that and think that is a lot, but I'm just trying to get myself down lower and lower. Can't do it all at once. My husband is really proud of me too!
I think I've come to the conclusion that I can't get all the way off of this medicine. My leg just aches too much, but I'm trying to get down to a safe dosage. I do have a delema of should I take the Oxy or go back to the Norco. I made an appointment to talk with my primary care doctor who is an endocrinologist. I think that she is the more apporopriate person to answer that question......and as to how much. Then whatever she says, I will do.
I feel so much better though, I just can't even begin to thank you for getting me through that horrible time in my life!!! You just can't imagine how much you truly helped me tzt.
I hope you had a wonderful Thurs. with your kids. How's school going? Back in the swing of things? How are you feeling? Hope you have totally healed all the way by now. Bet you look great!!! You should go out and buy some new clothes (at least you have a great excuse!! I would use it!! LOL).
Hope you post tonight! Talk to you soon.
xoxo
Swany
I really do miss talking to you. I haven't talked to you in so long since you've been back to work. You'd be proud to know that I'm down to 9.........NINE!!!!!!! Can you believe it. I know that some people will still look at that and think that is a lot, but I'm just trying to get myself down lower and lower. Can't do it all at once. My husband is really proud of me too!
I think I've come to the conclusion that I can't get all the way off of this medicine. My leg just aches too much, but I'm trying to get down to a safe dosage. I do have a delema of should I take the Oxy or go back to the Norco. I made an appointment to talk with my primary care doctor who is an endocrinologist. I think that she is the more apporopriate person to answer that question......and as to how much. Then whatever she says, I will do.
I feel so much better though, I just can't even begin to thank you for getting me through that horrible time in my life!!! You just can't imagine how much you truly helped me tzt.
I hope you had a wonderful Thurs. with your kids. How's school going? Back in the swing of things? How are you feeling? Hope you have totally healed all the way by now. Bet you look great!!! You should go out and buy some new clothes (at least you have a great excuse!! I would use it!! LOL).
Hope you post tonight! Talk to you soon.
xoxo
Swany
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