here we go again...

[mama_bear_4]

Well, I just took the last of the pills I got on Wednesday....so I'm basically running around trying to get my house in order and hunkering down to do this again....I called the doc and they will give me NOTHING to help...no clonidine, no sleep aids, no muscle relaxers, no reqip, nada....said take Tylenol and Benadryl....yeah, thanks....I did a super fast taper so hopefully it won't be too bad, but I'm sure it will be....anyway....hope everyone is hangin on ok and I'm sure I'll be on in the near future...Please Lord, let this be the last time......


Mama

[Dainbramage]

Hold TIGHT Hon,, It's a rough daggum ride, BUT, the other side is freedom from that **** owning you. You will be happy again..

[lonote]

How are your children?         Cathy

[mama_bear_4]

Thanks....I really don't want to do this again, God...I have NO help w/ the kids and a week of HELL ahead of me...then the temptation of a refill on the 17th.....I am so sick of this and I have only been in this mess for 4 months...I don't know how anyone can do this for years...I would never make it through...


Mama

[mama_bear_4]

Sick....up all night since Monday....thats not making this any easier....every time I would pop off to sleep, one of them would wake up coughing and crying....got 2 half nights sleep (from pills of course) but now it will be back to arm spazz and cold sweats....


Mama

[tautou]

I took them for 4 years or so but didn't think I was addicted until recently. It was recreational, now I'm in hell.

Call and cancel your refill :)

[mama_bear_4]

i should...thats gonna be really hard...

[mama_bear_4]

ok...just loaded up on vitamins...prenatals, B-12, B-6...I have some compazine and I have to get some Benadryl...between the 2 I should be able to sleep some at least....ate a huge dinner cause I won't have an appetite for the next few days...I will probably have to give the baby some formula as nursing is gonna wipe me out...I am already sweating...not cold sweats, but the sweats I get when I hit the time I would have taken a dose....tonight will be ok I think, but tomorrow morning is going to be rough...last time I was ok till about 48 hours...then unbelieveable craving hit...is there anything over the counter that will help the anxiety and cravings...how about the cold sweats?

[Beargizmo]

Can you go to an ER and get clonidine...that's what I did when I ran out and decided I'd had enough.  I went in, filled out the form for why I was there..said I'm addicted to vicodin AND I AM NOT HERE FOR NARCOTICS..I WANT HELP and
walked out with a script for clonidine and an anti nausea med.

Jim

[mama_bear_4]

I could do that... yah....so far today is going really well...sweaty, but not cold....so all in all, I think the fast taper helped....let's hope it stays this way for the duration....my last w/d stared ok then got hellish 2 days in....time will tell..


Mama

[tautou]

Really? I might hear for the ER then (since I don't have a DR) if the anxiety seems like its gonna kill me