little info for ya!

[Holliee]

Hello all. I know at all of you and think of you as friends and to ones I don't hello and welcome. I have been on site for over a year now, and I have gotten so much from this site. The support, friends, and knowledge is great and I am thankful for it all.
I have now been off benzo's over 6 months and clean off opiates for over 2 yrs now. Yes I am on methadone and doing well. I have a good life, great job, we just bought house little while back, great hubby that supports me, and wonderful friends. Avis left a post one time about methadone didn't save my life I used a tool and saved my own life (pretty much how she said it little different but same meaning) when she wrote that made me think and for that comment I am so greatful, I have a totally different outlook on life and makes me feel a lot better. She was so right when she wrote that comment. All of us save our own life and whatever we use where it be methadone, suboxone, cold turkey, etc. is just our tool it doesn't save us alone. There is so much more than medicine that helps us get and stay drug free. I have found few different things that help me in staying clean.
1.) Good friends, family that support you in what you do.
2.) Don't have a lot free time on your hands, make sure have lots things to do. I have a lot of active's that keep me busy. I take pictures all over place from people, things, landscapes, animals, etc. Scrapbooking, medhelp, groups, and helping others.
3.) Time with my animals (St. Bernards) breeding.
4.) A higher power and looking to him for help and strenght, courage and knowledge.
5.) My job I love it and enjoy going to work daily and I think that is a big plus.
These are all things that when I was on drugs, pills etc I never even thought about and if I did my pills always got in the way. Nice to have a life again.

What's some of things that you use in your recovery.
Lets here them!
God Bless each and everyone of you and your family's.
Holliee

[Texanaddict]

GREAT POST.  Words to live by from someone who went through 4 relapses and 4 wd's I need a reason to keep on moving forward after the pills are gone and your words hit me right in the heart. On the screen it just makes so much since. I am at day 4 I think and feel like I may be turning the corner and besides meetings these things you talk about mean a great deal to me. Thanks   Tex

[Holliee]

Glad I could help. You can do it stay strong and keep up go work, Sometimes all we need is to read a comment just as I did w/one avis wrote it to hit me in face and made me think. I wish you great success and happiness. Hollie

[Holliee]

Just left group and really enjoyed there was a young lady in there that had been battling oc abuse for quite sometime and been on suboxone for year now and instead of going down said that her doctor pushed her to go up even when she really didn;t want to or ask anything about it. These doctors are just plain wrong and if they knew how it truly felt to be an addict they would think twice. She went from 16 to 24 to 28 now has her on 32 she said its way to much for her.

[theeagle]

Hollie - your friends dose is likely way too much for her........ even hard core sob-proponents  (that LISTENED in part of their 8 hr instruction) Most Pro's will tell you that 4mg will cover most circumstances that arise. However - protocol - and deaf Doctor Students dont always catch the drift of sub............Sub has been around Europe as orthonorphine or something...the patch is used for osteoarthritis and the strength is 2micrograms - - -  I have also used the European formulary Temgesic for chronic pain.  I liked M&M's better and they were more effective. Were I your friend I would call the other office and relate that I need a referral to a competent addictionologist and soon.........32 mg of sub is the absolute ceiling dose - - you could take 50 more milligrams and the therapeutic properties would not improve one bit. IMO her sub dose should never have been elevated to that point unless she were knocking off banks and liquor stores on the way to the Docs - - -  And also IMHO I dont feel that the Doc helped her a bit - - very possibly she forgot one of hippocrates platitudes......"First of all, do no harm."  

[ZJILLIAN]

Thank you for the post. I particularly appreciated your list of things that help in recovery. I could immediately see where my triggers are. I have become isolated and uninterested in doing anything. Now without a pill I have all this empty time on my hands.Our posts on this site are almost all about wd; I wish we could post more about recovery on this site. Staying clean is the hard part, while getting clean has a certain drama that carries you through. And then...

[Holliee]

Theeagle thank you for all your info I will pass it along to her asap. I to thought that the doc was giving her way to much. Seems to me like he was trapping her in sub to where it would take a long time to detox. He charges 150 weekly and then her meds they are not cheap either.

Zjillian Glad you enjoyed the post. I also enjoy reading happy or helpful info on staying clean instead always reading about detox. Social side is a little more for fun stuff non drug related etc...I learned always best to keep busy and not always think about pills and doing one. My nanny told me yrs ago long before I ever took my first pill idle hands are devil work shop and she was so right.

GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU!