When I finally admitted to my family, friends, and doctor that I was powerless over my addiction, it helped make my conviction real. My father was an addict drunk, and I would have been better off if he had just left when I was born. I have seen a lot of friends and family die from addiction. I knew better and used anyway. I understand and most off did many many things we are not proud of, but that's what makes us care so so much. My children love me so unconditionally it is a miracle. If you really want this, for you, than go to any length to get it. How far would you walk to get meth? How many people would you call to get meth? How many sacrifices would you make? If you can't get to rehab today, get an NA book and read the doctors opinion through chapter 3 and see if it applies. Call someone when you crave, post here, pray, go to church or NA, any and everything you can. You won't regret it. We help each other, but each of us has to find our own way as well. Good luck and keep us posted.
Its nwver too late to change. But in order to do this you truly have to have the drive. There are too many children in ministry care these days..... You can do it!!!!! Always believe in yourself and NEVER give up!
@Hero I totally understand ur reaction I had/have the exact same knee jerk reaction of anger.Honestly I got P I S S E D OFF as soon as I read this&got2the2nd baby born positive part.I had to calm myself too.
@Sarah you r 100%right.I didnt even think to say that but its true.
@atmjenn the truth is u have a severe addiction,it has completely taken over ur life n EVERY aspect.Its made u a different person than u really are.U put not only ur life at risk but this drug has a grip on u that had u validate using(smoking/shooting)meth while ur pregnant NOT once but through2pregnancies.RATIONALLY U KNOW U gave birth2times&ur innocent babies were born addicted.Not only that but knowing u have2stay clean for any chance2get them back and u cant do that.u need LONG TERM IN PATIENT REHAB.Lots of therapy,tools2stay sober&parenting classes.Ur children deserve to have u and have a mom but they deserve the absolute best u sober,clear headed and finally putting them first.U R n NO way there right now.Get into a program,try to have contact w/them through letters&calls while n treatment and get better once and for all.Something I learned was no matter what u cant get sober for anyone but yourself(not parents,spouses,kids)YOU have to want it.This is gonna sound harsh but u couldnt stay sober for these babies while u were pregnant so u need to get to the root of this and its not a quick fix.If ur not ready,dnt really want it,just gonna half a s s it LEAVE THESE BABIES ALONE.They deserve consistancy,love and if ur there u need to be sober,willing to do whatever it takes to stay that way.EITHER CHOOSE THEM 1ST FOR THE1ST TIME or dnt b n there life at all.Its better to stay away completely than b n and out of there lives high,sober,making promise,breaking them&there hearts.CHOOSE UR LIFE,UR CHILDREN,UR FAMILY.Its a long tough road but as a sober mom of a3&1/2yr old son its worth it a million times over.Keep us updated.
Your baby is more important than you are because she is innocent and helpless. If you love her more than you love yourself (the essence of motherhood) then you will clean up your act and provide a healthy loving home for her. If you don't, then, as sad as it may be for you, she is better off with those who cherish her.
I hope you will do everything in your power to get off meth and get your life back in order. Until then your baby needs to be away from your home as it is not safe. You mentioned this was your 2nd baby, did you lose the first one also?
i'm sorry i was a bit harsh but when i see stuff like this i only think about the baby and i lose control ... you need to get help but before that you have a decision to make ... you need to decide to stop meth ...
The previous post was true but harsh.SHE IS AN ADDICT.THATS WHAT ADDICTS DO WHEN THEY DONT HAVE HELP.U really wanna get ur child back?U really wanna quit.U need to get into a long term in patient rehab.The courts or cps can help u with that.u need to take it serious and dedicate youself to it.U cant quot without the tools to do so and a complete change n ur surroundings.Meth is an awful and powerful drug that gets its claws into u.Im not going to judge u here as MOST wont because we want to help not run u off.We r here for constructive help,advice and support.Were u offered rehab after the1st baby?Get n rehab,get help,get healthy&b the mom ur kids deserve.please keep posting
what you did is really selfish and you didn't think about what's gonna happen to your baby ... putting that aside you have to make a decision your baby or meth ... hopefully it won't but you have a choice to make a life commitment