sick twisted joke!!

[scaredmommy2005]

Really ya'll?! Day 27 here and my pharmacy is rite aid so when ever I have a prescriptions ready I get an email and text message. So about 30 minutes ago I got a text my prescriptions was ready for pick up. I called to see what the heck they are giving me now I thought it was another inhaler or something then the lady said my doctors office sent in a refill for my hydrocodone!!! Before I could even think I blurted out cancel it I don't need or want it and she told me ok. Now my legs are jumpy, heart is pounding and my hands are clammy. What the heck is that?! I was doing so good and now I am craving and I honestly thought for a second "you idiot you should of got it". Ugh going to NA twice tomorrow. That was not nice!!

[littlebit667]

wow, hon.  I managed to tell the drugstore no.  Not sure I coulda turned down a full bottle in my house.  You did good.  

[ImDONENoMore]

Boy I remember that feeling really well scaredmommy.  That sick sinking feeling that comes right after you tell a Dr. or pharmacy NO.  Only you know what surprised me most about that?  The feeling I had the next day.  It was AMAZING and I felt like a million bucks because of that decision.  I bet you will too.  :) (congrats on the new job - I love animals too and it sounds like a great place to work!)

[Bkitty]

Ha! That is torture! Ive been there! My cat was under my bed when I first quit,,smacking around a ball,,well turned out it was a full bottle of percocets! I flushed them and later went back into the bathroom and caught my kitty drinking outta the toilet (which he does sometimes) and there were 2 pills floating almost disolved! I was so jealous of my cat! I couldnt look at him for 2 days! I'd get anxious and crave!

[LostNoMore]

Wow, nice job!! What a wicked surprise! You did the right thing, as you well know. I think your recovery is very strong. Keep it up!

[Elmijack15]

Wow it's not like that here in Florida, it's real hard to get a doctor to give you anything even when you're in pain! they look/treat everyone like a drug addict!

[OpiodVoid]

Im from Australia and I went to LA once, had an empty Valium box and showed the chemist the packet and asked for his help, he gave me 50 x 5mg tabs. I couldn't believe it, u can't even get a repeat script from a doctor!

[Elmijack15]

Wow! You should be so proud of yourself!!! Awesome that you canceled it, that takes alot of determination and you did it and you didn't take any in the hospital either, I think you're done with pills. I would have hard a real hard time turning them down and I'm on suboxone! You're a strong woman! Good luck at your new job!

[rizboy]

Nice one for getting the job.im kinda guessing dogs dont pop pills!lol!i think u will be safe.i watched a program about the pharmacies in CA with the armed guards and the rich drug dealers i mean "doctors".the doctors over here get a wage and we pay £7.50 per item on the script so its difficult to get pills from your doctor especially if your an addict.which i used to hate!!but kinda glad now.

[littlebit667]

Happened to me on day about 10!  I did the same thing and struggled the same way!  It was so hard. You did great.  I did not know if I could say cancel until I did it.!

[scaredmommy2005]

It's way to easy in California you stub your toe you get vicodin. That way the doctors dont have to spend as much time with you.

[scaredmommy2005]

Thanks guys I just couldnt believe that crap. I am glad I didnt have time to think but o my goodness. That would of been a major screw up. I kinda got mad at them like they should know not to give them to me but why would they. I still look at people and wonder if they are addicts and I always think people look at me and know I am. On a good note I start my new job next monday! WOOHOO!! dont worry I know right now i am not strong enough to work in the medical field but I didnt want to completely miss out on helping people so I applied for an office manager job at a Animal Hospital and got it!! No drugs lying around = no temptation at work. Plus I am a mommy not only to my son but I have 2 dogs (a great dane and a chichuahua, I know big size difference but I love all the people who stop and ask questions when we walk) and I have 3 rescue cats, this means discounts on visits and foods for them. I hope you all are having a great day.

[rizboy]

Wow you guys in the US get opiates thrown at you soo easily its unreal! In the UK you would have to have some really really bad pain to require hydros.it must be hard to refuse i salute you.

[ricart70]

I had something similar happen to me at around day 60 something  and I was so mad at myself for saying no but I ,like you just said it before I had a chance to think too much about it.I was at dentist for a dying tooth and she said   well what were going to do is put you on vicodin...I said no I don't want any opiate.Then I felt all weird for the rest of the day but I got over it because the truth of the matter is I could go out right now and find whatever I want so why even bother with the inner turmoil of turning that particular script down.I really have been turning it down every day.
Tomorow is another day to fight ~or not

[IwillDoThis]

Good job on Day 27 but I agree these situations stink, something hits you unexpectedly and it's amazing to see the things our brains tell us.  I'm 51 days myself and some days I definitely crave more than others but I just keep pushing forward.  Keep it up, just another test on your journey and you passed!  Be proud of yourself!

[staticage]

good job on sayn no...that took courage,and i would feel the same..what a trigger,,refil days were always the best feeling days...mines coming up on the 29th...but mine requires dr apt everymonth..no refills ever...p n cup..wait...thats it...here ya go....jeez...cant honestly say id say no..horrible, as im on day 13...STILL have 59 left....dont know why,,,kinda like...if the blank hits the fan....,,,but as of now im not gonna use..just for today......good to hear fr u..b cool...