You haven't heard from me in a while. I must admit I haven't gotten more than 15 days clean at a time, but I still trying. It has been hard with another addict in the house. I started NA a couple of weeks ago, and it took me away from my family too much. I was always at meetings, instead of being at home with my loved ones. I haven't actually gone on a "run" again, just taken one or two here and there. But that's enough to cut my "clean time" short. Every time I take one, it seems harder and harder to obstain the next time, you know? I keep hoping I can be one of those who can take one now and then, for pain, but then when I do, my insides SCREAM and I know I'm not one of those people. I hope everyone is ok.