*~*~* ROLL CALL*~*~* Tell us about yourself!!!

[avisg]

Tell us about yourself you what brings you to the forum .

I am avisG. I am one of the community leaders here on the forum as well as the  Addiction Social forum (Check that out as well). I came here a little over a year ago . I was withdrawing from years of tramadol abuse .This forum was such a big help for me .It truly did help me make it threw .I had a three week relapse in sept .I have been clean for almost 9 months and counting..... There are some great people and support here .PLZ share your story .

Avis

[MissyKay04]

My name is Missy, I'm a 43 year old Mom who is addicted to Focalin (Similar to Ritalin) Percocet and Alcohol.I have been two weeks sober from the alcohol but am currently taking percocet and snorting focalin. I feel like the only time I'm functioning normal is when I'm on opiates. I'm the best Mom, I dont want to go out and drink,and  I'm doing everything I should be. I'm supposed to go to outpatient treatment on June 10th for the alcohol. My Dr. prescribed 3 days worth of Methadone for some severe withdrawls from the Opiates about a month ago and I felt great!  I would love to stay on Methadone. I suffer from severe depression and have zero motivation without the pain pills. I'm hoping to get some support here as I'm too afraid of running into one of my clients at a local NA/AA meeting....

[enemy48]

Hi, I'm Pamela and my DOC was hydrocodone.  With the help of this forum and all of the wonderful people I've met here, I am 5 months clean.

I love you all!

[triedeverymed]

I like the roll call idea!! I'm Erin , 41 recovering addict to prescription pain killers. I have 3 1/2 years sobriety. It was the hardest thing to get. I was addicted for 12- 15 years, I don't even know how long for sure. I used anything I could get my hands on when my drug of choice,  Vicodin, was in short supply. I took 45 pills a day @ 10/325. I don't know how I didn't OD?
I just had a recent surgery and was given Percocet. I was terrified to take it so I gae it to my husband to hold and dole out per the docs instructions. I had 15, only needed 6. Set my goal for 5 so not too bad considering I did have pain. Flushed the rest because I'm not going back there again! I was able to get sober by using Suboxone. It saved my life. I tried 200 times on my own but never could do it, I stayed sick for too long. Now I healthy, happy, and clean!!

[Florida_Guy737]

I'm just a normal Florida_Guy in a complicated world who seeks an early to mid 40s woman who is a recovering addict; I have a quirky sense of humor, likes to laugh am reasonalbly good looking....whoops...wrong forum. JK...family guy who enjoys a laugh. :-)

I was on percs for 5 years, od'd (i think I  did) and got scared straight.  Been clean 5 months on Monday and happy to have found this forum.

Guy

[traveladdict]

I was on vico and morphine for a couple arm surgeries. That use lasted for 10+ years. In Dec I c/t off all the meds that lasted for 30 days. Until this month I had used for a week to 10 days days then off for 3-4(but no morphine since last years detox). Realizing I could not control that situation any longer I got rid of all my pills this week end and plan to stay off of them for good now.

[worried878]

I am worried878...and that is what i was/worried/ when i came to this forum in Januarry of 08...i had been trying to taper on my own for months without success...with the support of this forum i was able to figure out a taper with a friend to help and quit...the forum helps me stay clean as well,,I have learned alot about addiction and the aftermath that follows..does not keep me from experiencing it but atleast i understad it

[anewbeginning]

I was taking up to 20 hydro's a day for over 3 years. I wanted to stop so badly for so long, but nobody knew I had a problem except for my hubby, & even he had NO IDEA that I was taking so many. My life was spiraling out of control. I was maxing out credit cards, doctor shopping, always counting pills, ect., ect. I finally decided that I couldn't live like this anymore, so I went to a walk-in clinic & told my story for the 1st time EVER out loud. As I cried uncontrollably & felt like such a loser, the doctor told me to go to a rehab. I explained to him that I had no insurance & he said that he strongly recommended that I went anyway! I left there feeling 10x worse than before & just wanted to die! I sucked it up, again, & this time called my primary doc (the one that got me hooked) & he said that I have to just slowly taper off or I could have a seizure & die. Okay, tried the taper & could not do it. The first bit of stress & I would just take another pill. Husband surely didn't understand...JUST WEAN OFF, he says! Make a longer story short, I decided that after x-mas it was time to go to rehab. I was just praying that someone would help me without having insurance. I went on-line to see where I could go & guess what the first thing to pop-up was? Someone's story on Medhelp. Guess what? You can just quit without dying! You won't have a seizure from hydro...WHAT? You mean, I could've stopped taking this **** years ago? I was so completely in the dark it's not even funny! Me & Hubby picked what days he would take off from work to take care of the kids & that was on 1-23-08 & now the only pills that I'm counting are vitamins!
I LOVE MEDHELP
I LOVE EVERYONE HERE & I LOVE LIFE!!

[taytay90]

Hi, I'm Trelle. I am a mother of 2 girls and 1 boy. I, like so many others on this forum have legitamate back pain that I have suffered with for many years. My first drug of choice was vicoden. My endless supply from my doctor finally ran out. I am a nurse so I turned to what I had available at work to make it through a shift. I started using demerol, morphine and dilaudid. I did that for about 6 months, got caught and went to rehab. Rehab helped but it wasn't a quick fix. My back pain was still there and so was my biggest trigger, my husband. He was not supportive or encouraging. Anytime we had an argument he would throw my addiction in my face. Well, I finally found a doctor that could manage my pain and after being on this forum for a while I'm able to take my meds as ordered. That is something that I am very proud of.

[lady67]

that is awesome that you have 1 year 5 months clean.  Does posting on the forum help you stay clean?  I am interested in anything that will help me stay clean
~Susan

[Pill Popper in AL]

my name is lisa and i'm in day 2 of c/t from hydro's 10/650's. i cry all the time now and don't want to be left alone. anyway, i've been on the hydro's on and off for about a year and i'm determined not to relapse. it consumes you mentally and physically. i've had alot of support from this site and if anyone is just starting with the withdrawl process, keep posting, everyone is here and they will help. wish me luck, and God bless to everyone!
lisa

[lostdreams]

Hey,
I was a Heroin and Benzo addict for over 8yrs, cant really remember how long, just know it was over 8 yrs. Went c/t christmas day 2006. So i have been clean now for 1yr 5 months.
I found this site on accident, was in a desperate state and typed 'God help me please' in the search bar, got someones post and thats how i found this place.
Been here for about 2-3months now. Thanks to the guys on here, and the support i recieved i was able to get through that desperate stage. THANKS GUYS!

We can all fight this 'game' and get through it! Hard going but achievable.
Best wishes to all!

[beck25752003]

great post for all of on here and new to come
my name is beck, and my DOC i hydros on and off for 5 years. quit once and then it came back for me and got even worse. i have been clean for 36 days and am doing everything to fix myself so i dont go back. i was in the end taking up to 12 pills a day and went cold turkey. my best wishes are for all of us and my prayers to.

[kimmieb]

WOW!  knew alot of these stories already but loved having it all here in one post to read and think about and rejoice with those who are clean....avis, GREAT start to some great posts....and many more still to come, i hope....

my name is kim...and i'm very tired and sleepy and need to get to bed....but will tell my story tomorrow! :-)

thanks to all of you who've shared so far....love and blessings to all of you....

sweet dreams to all...
kim
p.s.  avis, you're the best! xoxo :-)

[10356]

Hi my name is Lesa I have been a drug addict for 30 some odd years my original Heroin ct but kept trading addictions my last was Norco and Soma for 12 years. Have been clean for almost 2 months.
I found this Forum late on evening 5 months ago while looking for medical knowledge as to what the meds were doing to my organs. I was shocked, for the last 3 decades I have felt so alone in my addiction, then here I'm reading my life story over and over again. Having isolated myself from the world the forum was very intimidating at first but the love and kindness everyone shows is remarkable and gave me the courage to quit. I also have met some really awesome people. One of the most positive experiences of my life thus far.
I had also quit alcohol July 4 2007 Life is good

[kim715]

I'm Kim and my original DOC was vicodin.There were a few times willingly or unwillingly I stopped but I always went back to them,never reached out for help back then.Then came the methodone to rid myself of the pills and that turned out to be a huge mistake because then I found myself addicted to the methodone.Just about 2 months and almost 3 weeks ago I decided to jump off the methodone,and this time I reached out for help.I had never even used our computer before,but I believe that this forum was a divine intervention,and that someone up above led me to these people here.I have sine then been drug free.It hasn't been easy but everyone here seems to just grab hold of your hand and your heart and lead you through.It is you that has to be committed and do the work ,but you have a huge community that walks right along side of you every step of the way.Much love to all of you old and new. Peace.

[corey411]

I'm Corrine and my DOC was hydros or any opiate I could get except heroin, thank God. I found this forum 3 months ago and was clean 6 days then relapsed for 7 and am now clean for 2 months yesterday. This forum was the first time in 5+ years that I was able to tell anyone about my addiction and it helped tremendously. Since then I have recently told my partner and 1 of my grown sons. They have both been really supportive and I.m glad they know. Love having support and being of help to others.

[NautyOne]

I am Nauty......I've been here since last summer Aug. 2007 I think, and this very forum is what got me clean.  Made me realize it was the drugs and that I was not crazy.  I am here to lend support to anyone who will give me the honor of doing so.  We are all in the same boat, some bigger, some smaller, but regardless.......the same boat.  I am here to be as honest as I can and to tell the the truth as I see and feel it.  I am also here to lighten things up sometimes when it starts to get daunting. It's ok to laugh and smile when we're not feeling so good.  I have my good days and bad days like everyone here, but the ultimate goal is to inform to the best of my knowledge, and put a smile on someone's face if I can.......I am not here to judge or make people feel bad for any reason.  Many people are here in recovery, currently using in hopes of quitting and some are here to just read till they get the courage to get clean.  This is the addiction community......using or not .......its about addiction in all stages.

I have met some wonderful people here and not so wonderful, but regardless, I am here for anyone who needs me.  I am grateful for the friend I have and the one's I will make in the future............Thank you to everyone.

Luv to all, in what ever stage you are in.

Nauty.................

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

Hey everyone, I'm ellen a Mom of 2 boys and 2 Chihuahuas:-)
I got addicted to Hydros/Lortabs after a car wreck and found they numbed the pain of my mothers terminal illness, then her death, a rocky place in my marriage etc. After 5 years of the pills controling me I had enough!!! As you know you just start with one and it gets out of control.
I wanted my life back so I found this forum about year and half ago. I got infomation and great advice about what to expect coming off the pills.  So I  went C/T March of 2007. It took me several months to get over that and I have never looked back. I have learned to deal with some physical pain but mostly mental that I covered up with the pills.
I am doing awesome. Life is not perfect but pills are not anything I want in my life ever again. I am a very strong woman and I can handle my problems myself without help from any drugs.

[lady67]

My name is Susan.  I have been here for about two months.  I started posting as Sue41 and forgot my sign on info so I started over.  I am still scared to disclose too much information because I don't want to be completely shunned from my hometown should anyone see it.  I have 2 gorgeous daughters and a loving husband.  My highschool sweetheart.  Started dating in high school and dated through college.  This summer will be out 20th Wedding anniversary.  So I guess you could say we have been together for 26 years.  I have a bachelor's degree in Social Work and a Master's Degree in English Education.  My DOC was/is painkillers and sleeping pills.  I am a binge user who can do without it but if it is around or I am having a bad day, I will take something.  My Dad died Jan. 1st and that was the turning point for me to start cutting back and then stop.  I have been totally clean since Thursday, May 22, 2008.  I will try to support anyone on here that I can.

[Penelope14]

Im Lany, & I,ve been on the forum for about 7 months, & many of you already know my story, for those who dont, 7 years ago I was addicted to vicodin, percocets, oxicotin, after many failed attempts at getting clean I decided to get onto methadone, which did get me off these pills but also had a flip side to it, I became dependent on methadone, I stayed on methadone for about 4-5 years, 90mgs daily & finally got off it almost two months ago. I really am grateful for all my friends on this forum for helping me thru some hard times & will never forget how everyone kept telling me its gonna get better! Their were many times I did,nt believe it would get better, but it did! & Im so happy to finally be methadone free!!

[LIZZIE LOU]

i'm kim and i am craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaazy due to the fact that i have three sons who are addicts.  one is 9 days clean from crystal meth...one is over two years clean from crack...and one is "slowly" tapering his alcohol and xanax.

i have been here for 15 months :)

[bladerunnerb]

I'm bladerunnerb.  :-)  Been using hydro/oxy for about 18 months for a back injury.  Decided that it was best if I decided to get off this stuff since I started to use it recreationally about 3 months ago.  The pain is much better, but it's chronic so I can have meds but am tapering down to quit.  I'm 35, three kids, married and so far my life has not fallen apart...but I have a feeling it could and will if I don't stop the opiates.  The people on here really inspire me...through the thick and thin.  I have withdrawn C/T and with clonidine, but am currently on a slow taper program with my Dr. (asked for help) and so far it is going good.  I used to use 40mg oxycontine per day chewed plus 10 hydrocodone.  I'm now down to NO oxycontin per day and 4 to 5 hydros per day.  We are cutting 25% per week and it seems to be working so far.  The stopping will be the hard part, but I have supporting meds.

[ladyboop]

My Name is Sharon I went back on the pills after being clean almost a year. I thought since they were not my DOC i would be okay. Well it was not long before I was going thru 90 10/325 perc's in 4 to 5 days. I found this site in March 08, it has helped me to kep the will to fight to get off. I have tried c/t twice and taper once. I am on round two of tapering. And thanks to all my friends here I think I will make it this time. I know it's not easy. But anything worth having never is...

Thanks to everyone...

[beentrying2quit]

My turn.  I've been on some kind of pain med for the past 3 years for legit reasons.  I suffer from chronic pain in several different areas of my body and really do need them but I want off of them so bad.  I visit a pain doc for the pills and he gives me 100 tabs a month.  Not once have I called him early for a refill but every day is a HUGE BATTLE!  I want to take more than Im supposed to knowing that along with the pain relief comes my favorite part...the high.

I found this forum March of last year when I was on a 75mic Fentanyl patch and at that time I knew I had to quit that...this place litterally saved my life.  I remember one day that my script ran out and it was 2 days until my doc visit and I had just put on my last patch...this was my first experience with withdrawals.  The people on this forum told me what was going to happen during WD's and stood by me while I was going through it.  When I told my doc I wanted off the Fentanyl he got extremely mad at me and told me "You will never be able to quit this as you are now dependent on it."  Can you imagine how scared I was at that time?

Anyway....I still take Norcos, 2-3 5/325 tabs a day, and hope one day I get my body lined out where I dont need them any more.  
Peace out!