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4614494 tn?1368356385

11 days free from the Beast!!!

Today makes 11 days free from this beast methadone!! Yesterday struggled a little w anxiety. But I MaDE myself get up and workout and eventually MADE myself get out of the house w my fam to run errands.  Amazing how much better I felt after I did that. I really didn't feel like doing anything.  But it was making my anxiety worse just sitting around doing nothing.  

I promise I won't be posting my progress ev day for the next 6 months.  Lol. Just maybe until I gain enough confidence against this beast!! So please bear w me my friends.  I can use all the support I can get right now.  

God bless u friends!!  Praying u all have a great day today!!!!
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Haha. Sorry just had to vent.  Hopefully it will be better this week.  Lol.

But not I will take u up on it.  I will still go
Knock some sense into both your neighbors tho!! Lol.
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4810126 tn?1503942735
Dear Toothfaierie & SmilingBright
      I hear you on the husband/neighbor thing! lol.  Let's make a pact. You guys come to my house and give my upstairs neighbor the kicking he so richly deserves and I'll come to yours and do the honors w/ the obnoxious kids and then maybe the two of us can sit Chris' hubby down and explain things to him. Sound good?
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Thx Lisa. I will keep moving forward!!  Let's do this!!! Feeling much much better now!!

Oh I just knocked one of your neIghbors out for u!! Lol. Hope they quiet down now.
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4341997 tn?1514588688
hahaha come on over, we will gang up on the neighbors!!  lol  they are young and stupid sounds like so we could def take em!  you sound better!  and glad you had a talk with the hubby....it's hard when they don't understand.  Just keep going girl!  and I had a salad too...not like yours but just my regular everyday kind...lol  was good tho!  

and your attitude is always good, even when you are pissed off...lol  
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Aww even like I felt like I was complaining u still tell me u like my attitude.  Lol. Thanks Lisa.  

I refrained from punching my hubby in the gut. Lol. But next time he might not be so lucky.  Sob!! Lol   Just kidding. I don't beat the punk. Although he could probably use it ev now and then    Hard a$$.  Lol

Sorry about ur neighbors.  Stupid kids.  I could punch them for ya.  Since I can't pinch my hubby. Lol. That would be a great idea.  Gotta let it out on someone. Ha. Solution to my problem.  I'm coming over.

Yeah I love my hubby and having the companionship.  But it sure would be nice if he could chill the eff out for a few weeks and let this pass. Without adding more anxiety to this junk I'm dealing with. I had a talk w him and begged him to chill out for a while and be patient w the whole situatiOn.  So hopefully he will. God love him!! ;)

Men!! Ahhhh

Ok I feel better. Lol. Had to vent. sorry for the rant.  

U know since yesterday I ate 3 of those salads I made for ur bday !! And they were delish. Ur such a doll.  Thx for being here


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4341997 tn?1514588688
girl i love your attitude!  i know i've said it before but you are amazing...taking care of kids and hubby...and working too...staying busy always helped me...but i know it's hard to get up and do our chores....and i live alone, so i was lucky with the housework....i'm the only one that had to live in it...haha  

you are doing great!!  hang in there my friend!  oh and my upstairs neighbors are being really obnoxious so i hear ya on the punch in the mouth and foot up the a$$!!   uggg  if they don't SHUT UP soon....i'll be making a call to our security....stupid kids OMG
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Thank God my day is coming to an end and it's finally time to sit down and relax!! Oh goodness I hate these roller coasters!!! Lol

Thanks for helping me through this guys. U r the best.  Made it through another clean!!!  Get u some!!!!  Lol.
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Ok so I having pretty bad anxiety this morning off and on.  I managed to run to the grocery store to make sure we have food for the week. Cook lunch and supper. Get on treadmill for stress relief (2 mile walk. ) and mopped the floors.

Now trying to relax a watch the boys play outside. Then bath time for ev one.  

Although I didn't want to do some of the things on my list.  I still did and it made my anxiety subside quite a bit.  So it's all good. Guess I'm just better off if I stay busy.

I contained my anger and didn't slap the hub. Lol although I wanted to knock him in his mouth. Lol. So I did well!!! Another clean day in paradise. Ha.

Guess I just do much better when I'm busy working on teeth all day.  I love work!! Not that I don't like being Hm.  Just stressful at times.

It's life right!!?  
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Lol.  In my dreams Vic.  Lol. I'm vacuuming and mopping right now. Ha.

Good dream tho. Love ya
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4522800 tn?1470325834
You are to cute...Yes its had to be real hard for the people that had to do  the detox and take care of a hub, kids and go to work..WOW I would of had a harder ride...I was lucky I got to go to my Safe Place and just do what I had to do..I would leave all the chores and such alone..I did them in baby steps..I look at it all as a good thing..I was able to mellow out in all of my 56ys..My drug use off and on since I was 14 was to get wired up...OMG I am lucky to be alive...lol...Go to your Safe Place tell Hub you r going to choke every one if you are not left alone..You have pushed real hard..Go take a bubble bath with some candels and soft music....Calgone Take me away.....lol
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Oh Vic.  Glad I could make u laugh.  Bc I wasn't laughing earlier.   Whew. Made it through without slapping him. Lol.  Dang it.  

Yeah I understand about being so sped up I had things done in triple speed. Lol. I'm
About 1/2 speed now. But thats life.  And I'm doing the dang thing!!!!  

Love u Vic. Thanks.  Glad u were laughing cause I sure wasn't laughin w my foot about to go up somebodies butt!!  Lol.

Goo now tho.  My treadmill helpe somewhat.  Now back to being a momma and take care of all the real world stuff. Ha never stops
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4522800 tn?1470325834
You just make me smile and giggle...Oh them Husbands..I have been married for 27yrs and he just leaves me alone...We were Blessed to have them understand somewhat....Hang Tight...Another day, Another Coin...
I know my hub is glad to see me not running around with my drug compulsive behavior on having every thing done YESTERDAY!!!! All of my family is....Oh My the things we did...It is in the Past and the Furture holds Blessings......lol
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Thanks a and Vic,
Just hanging tough. Frustrating bc I'm struggling w this anxiety and hubby is not understanding.  He's aggravated bc the house is not perfect.  Ugh.  I could slap him sometimes.  
On my therapy treadmill.  Too sore to run. So waking for now.  Better than nothing right.  

Oh God please help me
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Oh hun I will..I had that soooo bad for along a***s time..Until I broke my walls down and got a precribed non-addtictive med..I only took it for a short while...Mine was bad because of the 3 drugs pulling the nervous system in all different directions..Boy the things we do and not even do our homework and learn what it does to the soul...lol   But would we have cared at the time...Yak!!!!    You are very God Send and you just keep tuff..This here shall pass....
vickie
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4810126 tn?1503942735
Ever since I read your first post and discovered that you had tapered to 1.5mgs I've been blown away by your tenacity in fighting the good fight. 11 days, Chris, I am sooo proud of you! It's just going to get better and better. Keep it up. Big hug and smile your way.
w/Love
A.
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Awww thank u Vic!!! You are so sweet and help so many!!  This anxiety is tryIng to take md down.  Please prayers this way.  Hugs
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4522800 tn?1470325834
Hi my Bright Postive Success...You just keep posting away...I understand all the way...You are just ticking a way.....

Walking This Road Is Makeing Me Strong..
My Faith is in Jesus...
I Know He Will Be Helping Me..
All Along The Way................
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Aww Julie,  
Thanks girl. Lol. U made me laugh and cry.   Yes the anxiety is not fun!!!!  But I'm determined and will win!!!!!!! Thank u for ur kind words sweetie
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You are doing so well . . . I'm really feeling for you right now, I know how hard the anxiety thing is early on.  But your ARE very strong and very positive.  You CAN get through this, it is not going to be like this forever.  Keep reminding yourself how GOOD it feels to know that you are CLEAN.  That feeling WILL last forever; the anxiety WILL NOT.

Congrats - going on 2 weeks.  Amazing . . . hang in there girl.  Anyone that can keep up w/Jillian's abs & butt or whatever that is, CAN do this for sure :))

Have a great day
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Thanks bubby.  I have no intent on getting back on that crap.  Just going through the anxiety stages.   And thats ok.  I will survive and come out stronger and better than ever before.  (tears). It's just a fight.  I hate this addiction

I will be ok!!  I will not give up!!!!   Almost 2 weeks!!!!!!  On wed
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1551327 tn?1514045867
That's great buddy,
Everyday is something to be proud of.  Almost everyone comes on here and posts their daily success especially in the beginning.  After a while you will track milestones like months and then years and I believe you can do it.  All we really do is make it a day at a time and you know I love you but I don't want you to be afraid to come on here if you make a mistake and use, not that you will, but if it does happen I don't want you to do what I usually do and isolate yourself from the forum because you had so many clean days and feel a little uncomfortable talking about it.  That will be a new experience and a new test of your strength.
Like I said don't think I doubt you but this is one thing that you may face and I am trying to prepare you for what happens if it does.  If it does, you will not be the first, and you will not be the last.  You know I am honest to a fault sometimes  :)  Have a great day buddy,
Bubby
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Wow Lisa.  I love it!!! Thanks for sharing!!!!! So good
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4341997 tn?1514588688
yes powerful words can get us through alot!  i love the quote on my profile page....the one about going thru the storm...has a blue background...check it out if you haven't already....
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4614494 tn?1368356385
Aww thanks Lisa.  I need some
Good powerful words to get me through!!!  Just what I needed.  Hugs
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