15 pills left, help me make them my last.

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I have a 15-18 10mg Lortab/Lorcet habbit everyday.  I have sat back and read this site for a while now, in hopes of drawing inspiration to quit.  I draw a lot of inspiration from a lot of stories here and I go to bed every night wanting to rid myself of these pills.

I normally start off my day with 5 pills before breakfast.  Everyday I tell myself I am just going to take 2, but I end up taking 5 and the rest periodically throughout the day.

I have 15 pills left, I want to use them to taper, and not answer my phone when my dealer calls me.  I have successfully tapered in the past at a fairly rapid pace.  I am expecting w/ds along with the tapering but hopefully I can minimize them.

I have an idea how to go about it but would appreciate any other advice.. I guess I am simply looking for advice and some support.  I am alone in this process, as like many others here my addiction is only known by myself and my dealer.

Thanks for reading, comments appreciated more than most can understand, as many of you know.

[A man of faith]

I think you already know there is a lot of empathy around here.  Since we really are pulling for one another may I vote in the positive for your recovery.

Even though my problem in the Duragesic Fentanyl patch, and I'm new at the place, and at trying to stop.

Perhaps it may help you to know prayer helps me to hold on even though its tough.

I am hoping for you tonight.

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Thanks Creek and Notprooud.

Creek I have been following your story for the most part.  I think you are an extremely strong person, and seeing you were/are close to giving in to temptation and rejecting it actually helps me out more than you know.

Keep it up, others here are depending on you also.

Notproud, I am going to read your posts now.

Thanks for both replies, they help my state of mind out a lot.

[NotProud]

read my other posts from today all over the group. am in similar boat. YOU HAVE TO have the willpower to lower the amount. At least that is what i am trying to do. I have much to live for, i cant be like this forever. Read my other posts so u will see others are in the same boat.

[creek]

Good luck with the taper.  I sucked at it.  Might as well take em or flush em.  Doesn't sound like you will taper, and face it 15 isn't enough to do that anyway.  SO having said that, you have already chosen to quit.  So grab all the support you can here, take the phone off the hook, (something by the way, I am doing today as well) and know YOU ARE BETTER THAN THIS and you ARE NOT ALONE.   I am here to listen and keep talking if it helps you,it did help me a lot the last few days.  I am extremely weak, still.  But the strength you can feel from others is amazing on this forum.  Keep in touch ok?

Peace~