Today is Day 16 without any pills and it's the longest I've gone in 2 years without those evil things. Physically I feel really good, but the mental game is tough. Today my mind is playing tricks on me and I find myself thinking about them but I made sure I cut off my options to find any to prevent a relapse. It really is amazing how you can go years without taking these and then after having multiple surgeries you end up relying on them just to function in every day life. I hate them with a passion and I hate what they did to me as I lost so much productive time the past 2 years but I'm thankful I did not lose anything great like my family or job. I'm committed to having that number grow and I look forward to my life without them.