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2 years Methadone/opiate and cocaine free!
Two years ago I came to this site scared alone….well terrified .
I had been struggling with substance use since I was 14. I became “hard core” at 18, smoking crack, doing coke, drinking, pills you name it. By 21 I was on methadone ONLY because it was cheaper than oxy’s and I lost my mom to cancer. At 28 I lost my dad to copd, I was “stuck” in a ten year relationship. Two years ago today I walked away. Towards the end I was working 12 hour shifts, staying up all night on opiates, coke, crack, liquor and molly for 3months. Two years ago today was my first day clean since I was 21…I had never been a day without methadone I stumbled and smoked a J almost 18 months ago…but its been 2 years free of opiates and cocaine.
I detoxed myself and people on here listened to my insanity, they became my family. My family didn’t talk to me much, you checked on me.
Through you guys I got after care…I go to a 12 step program, I got rid of the people I used with including my x and my bff from 6 years old, I stayed away from places, and I had to get rid of things. For example I cant watch intervention, I cant watch new jack city, I don’t like pink toilet bowl cleaner like in gas stations cause it reminds me of smoking crack in gas stations, I hate cheap motels they make me crave.
I go to meetings, work steps, have a sponsor I call daily, a network I call often, I do service work and I am involved in church. But NO MATTER WHAT I just don’t get high any more.
If this junkie can do it anyone can, I believe in you all xo
I had been struggling with substance use since I was 14. I became “hard core” at 18, smoking crack, doing coke, drinking, pills you name it. By 21 I was on methadone ONLY because it was cheaper than oxy’s and I lost my mom to cancer. At 28 I lost my dad to copd, I was “stuck” in a ten year relationship. Two years ago today I walked away. Towards the end I was working 12 hour shifts, staying up all night on opiates, coke, crack, liquor and molly for 3months. Two years ago today was my first day clean since I was 21…I had never been a day without methadone I stumbled and smoked a J almost 18 months ago…but its been 2 years free of opiates and cocaine.
I detoxed myself and people on here listened to my insanity, they became my family. My family didn’t talk to me much, you checked on me.
Through you guys I got after care…I go to a 12 step program, I got rid of the people I used with including my x and my bff from 6 years old, I stayed away from places, and I had to get rid of things. For example I cant watch intervention, I cant watch new jack city, I don’t like pink toilet bowl cleaner like in gas stations cause it reminds me of smoking crack in gas stations, I hate cheap motels they make me crave.
I go to meetings, work steps, have a sponsor I call daily, a network I call often, I do service work and I am involved in church. But NO MATTER WHAT I just don’t get high any more.
If this junkie can do it anyone can, I believe in you all xo
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Well done Heather.....a true inspiration for all of us. You are showing everyone that it can be done!!!! You are a true inspiration....
Oh Heather. I remember the day you logged on. I am so, so proud of you honey. You have come so far, you have grown, matured,had your ups and downs. Had some struggles, have been finding yourself a new and improved Heather. I am so happy for you.
Wow 2 years. That is amazing it seems so close, but so far away.
Keep on fighting the good fight. Keep doing what you are doing.
You wear your recovery well. Keep that chin up high. You should
Be walking very proudly. You have done well.
Congratulations!!!!!!!!
Much love..... Debbie
Wow 2 years. That is amazing it seems so close, but so far away.
Keep on fighting the good fight. Keep doing what you are doing.
You wear your recovery well. Keep that chin up high. You should
Be walking very proudly. You have done well.
Congratulations!!!!!!!!
Much love..... Debbie
Heather- that is absolutely fantastic!!! I love your specific examples of triggers, like pink toilet bowl cleaner and Intervention! I can't watch the show "House" myself.
Congrats....love how you stressed importance of program, too:)
Congrats....love how you stressed importance of program, too:)
hey superbaby! congrats on all the hard work Heatherdoll. i can't watch intervention either!!! i love you--
High five!!!!!! I am so PROUD OF YOU....thanks for stopping in and sharing. I am so happy for you...keep fighting....fighting is hardcore. Fighting is challenging everyday. Stay strong.
Gnarly,wow your post was amazing and so so so true! The part about "it takes less effort to work a program than it did to use 24/7"! Wow that's no joke,using was so tiring,hard,deppressing,scary,expensive and so very very lonley. Not to mention we WILL die if not stopped. I don't know where I'd be without the program,my meetings,my sponsers,my new friends....oh yes I do,I'd be lonley,depressed and still knocking on deaths door waiting to be let in!
I have 1 year 4 months and 20something days, I did smoke pot once
I wanted to
but its been 2 years since I detoxed myself and walked away from my old life. You were one of the main supporters and I will forever be grateful
xo
I wanted to
but its been 2 years since I detoxed myself and walked away from my old life. You were one of the main supporters and I will forever be grateful
xo
Hey Heather a BIG congrats on 2yrs clean....Thanks for sharing your recovery with us and being part of my recovery.. you to have fought a good fight your doing every thing it takes to stay clean I often get asked what do I do to stay clean...I am like you I go to 4 meetings a week I have a sponcer and also sponcer 6 other guys I chair a meeting at a local drug rehab every other thursday here in phoenix and often speak at the local rehabs it may seem like a lot but it is what I need to do to stay clean....your living your life by example of what it takes...for everyone here we all will be faced with the same decision every day we wake up..''will I stay clean or use''....today I made the right decision and you can to N/A is more then just a meeting it is a lifestyle change I lived in active addiction for 35yrs but it was the last 15yrs on opiets that brought me to my knees ...it takes less energy to work a progam then it did using 24/7 ...just know this....just stopping the pills does not = recovery...the addict in your head is still alive and well long after the pills stop this is a disease and like other diseases you have to treat it or it will only get worst with time AFTERCARE is not optional it is a critical part of recovery...today I manage the symptoms im no longer controlled by drugs the most amazing thing about the progam....I have lost the desire to use...something I thought was impossible...take time to give your higher power a big thanks and do something nice for yourself every month I stay clean I treat myself to a pound of shrimp every year I treat my wife and I to a dinner at red lobster you need to do something special because without recovery your life would end in jails institutions or death today I choose to live may God continue to shine his light on and threw you you have been blessed abundantly..........Gnarly
Glad to see this post. Only 12 days in, but reading these posts from the ones who have made it gives me the inspiration to keep on truckin.
Just For Today!!! God Bless!!!
Just For Today!!! God Bless!!!
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