You have your whole life ahead of you. And regardless of your medical issues, that life will be immeasurably better without addiction. I'm 60 and just quit a nasty 5 year hydrocodone addiction. I'm not out of the woods yet, but sure wish I could have just those 5 years back. All the money I spent, things I missed out on... Reach inside yourself - get proud and get angry and fight this thing now.
Hi there and welcome to the forum~ I am so sorry your very first post sat for so long....that happened to me when I posted for the first time. Reaching out and asking for help is HUGE and a great step for you!
And now you don't have to be "alone in this fight", ok?
I can relate to your tolerance increasing and chasing "that feeling"....we all can. I can also relate to DDD and disc problems. But there IS hope and you don't have to live like this anymore.
Have you been using pain pills along WITH the patches? I'm assuming you mean Fentanyl patches?
This forum is full of wonderful people that can share their experiences. Help and support is what we're all about.
Your age, overall health, length of opioid use, and the amount you are currently on all play roles in our recovery. Many of us came to this forum worn out from chasing the dragon, scared and seeking answers. Keep posting, keep asking questions, and we'll help you any way we can to put your addiction into remission and help you with your recovery.
P.S. I would advise AGAINST the methadone.....it has it's own set of problems and would just be adding to what you'd have to w/draw from.