23 days sub free :)

[Sad_Woman]

I've made it 23 days today. I can tell you that I'm in awe of how fast the body/brain can start to heal if given the chance. The first 10-12 days were awful. But now I've gotten most of my energy back (I'm 20 wks pregnant so I didn't expect to be running marathons) but the difference is truly amazing!

I dream again, a lot. On sub I never dreamt. I have fallen in love with music again..amazing how much better it sounds when your not numb. And sex..yeah baby, waaay better off opiates. :)

It has not been a time without some BIG tests. Just 10 days in or so my dog I had for 12 years died in a horrible freak accident. I was so tempted to screw up just to stop the pain in my heart. I'm glad I hung in there, if I had messed up I'd be back at square one and no pill could bring back my doggy or take the pain. So if your faced with a test-even a really really hard one-stay strong. It won't be easy but God knows it'll be worth staying free.

Theres nothing in this world worth throwing away your freedom for. For those just starting out weather the storm because when the sun finally shines it's amazing!

[dominosarah]

I am so glad you found us too~~

[Sad_Woman]

Thank you so much Sara!! You know when your in the thick of it - wds and all - it can be so hard to see down the road. But having you guys who've been at this a long time help me keep the big picture in mind helped a lot. I started to really believe there'd be life after opiates and there is!

Although sub helped me get my crazy oxy addiction under control I was still physically hooked to a drug. I hated how the symptoms would kick in..literally wake me to let me know it was dose time. Now it feels great to have that grip broken. To finally have peace in my body and not be "needing" my daily fix. The best feeling though is knowing my baby will be free and clear of any potential NAS symptoms. It's a huge relief and one I fought hard to gain.

I'll be celebrating when I hit 30 days..I never made it that far in my previous attempts..I let my head get the best of me back then. This time I have no doubt I'll get there and beyond by just taking it a day at a time and not letting my head get the best of me. This forum is s lifesaver for those looking to break free. I'm so glad I found it :)

[dominosarah]

A big HUGE GYNORMOUS Congrats on 23 days clean!!!  I remember the day you came to the forum.  You came with honesty and determination, that was so refreshing.  I am so incredibly proud of you for all you have accomplished.  I wish you continued success and a healthy happy baby boy~~sara

[Letitgonow]

YES!!!!

Congratulations! This is AWESOME!

Cheers to 23 days clean!!

[Sad_Woman]

Thanks! Newlife your doing great. Stick with it, I know what your going through but believe me the end result is worth it all!! Taper low and slow and remember if you weren't feeling anything you wouldn't be making progress ;)

No I haven't bought much for the baby yet. With both kids birthdays this month I'm broke! Lol hopefully next month I'll be able to buy some stuff before Christmas comes. But I foresee a lot of last minute shopping in Jan/Feb lol. Ah well, it'll get done. Stay strong peeps, not being chained to a drug is awesome. :)

[Innerstrength67]

Congratulations girl. I am so proud of you!!!
You sound like a Happy_Woman:)))))

[littlebit667]

Congratulations on being sub free and making your world better for you and your family!  

[jlannaa]

thanks for those words they make me feel great i'm so happy for you and the baby!!

[ANewLife4Me]

Hey girl, you are amazing.  I am so happy for you.  I am back to the subutex, down under 4 mgs. and struggling bigtime.  Not just with the symptoms, but the cravings.  I can't believe how well the sub takes away the cravings.  You certainly have been through a lot and I really admire the way you've handled everything without using.  Congrats on your 23 days :)  Have you started buying things for baby yet?