26 hours off of Norco and Need support..

[missmomma006]

Hello! I am so glad I found this site, Hers my story, I have bursitis is my hips and a fused L5 to my S1, about a year and a half ago I started seeing my pain clinic doctor and like everyone started out on 2 5/500 a day, eventually I was bumbed up to 5 10/325 a day.. Well neddless to say last month my script was cut back (which I didnt even notice) and I continued to take 5-6 a day,, well my script ran out im ive got 9 days till my next app, I am into 26 hours of WD, and I have tramadol and xanaxa which I think is a big help.. Though my worry is since iM still not feeling to terriable that everything will kick in around tuesday and I have to go back to work on thursday (I took some personal days thinking the worst of the physical sysmtoms would be over in 3-4 days.. So the can someone answer when then the real issues will start, will the medications I have help at? I really need a lot of support becuase I know if I can get threw this, Ill be done with meds all together... If I dont have any support I can just see myself relapsing... Is the worst of the physical symtoms over in 3 or 4 days? any response I get will be helpful, Id like to have a buddy, someone I can chat with, and be each others rock.. Im really scared sh*tless to whats really going to happen.. This being the first time ive ever went threw this, and having a child any pointers will be greatly appricated!

[missmomma0062]

Hello everyone! Its day 8! can you beleive it cause I can't!!!!! I woke up feeling great today!!! slightl headache and some mild anxiety, but nothing that I can't take care of with an aleeve and a nice walk.. I've been super into planning my boys birthday party next saturday, presents are bought (remember how freaked out I was just 7 days ago) , decorations bought, cake ordered, balloons ordered, and now to just wait.. Jesus I cna't believe my babys going to be 7, I cried the other night looking at him, I feel like I haven't really been there the last couple of year, I mean I was a good mom, he was feed, took care of, but I was so consumed by the pills that I don't remember a lot of it to the extent Id like to .. I have so much time to make up for and I plan on doing it with a bang! we got Kings Island passes, so I plan to spend a lot of summer time with my boys!!

Also I can't thank you guys enough for all the support, and I plan on starting to help all the people that need it on here, Ill tell you what it seems like Ive seen so many little signs that I was going to make it threw this.. Here is one of my favorites
"Even the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the BIGGEST step of your life, tip toe if you must, but take the step".... I took the tip toe, I walked a little faster, and now I feel like im in a steady jog towards living a normal life.. The days and nights havent been easy ones, the physical was hell, the mental is worse, but Im doing it.. and I couldnt have without you guys..

[ariley13]

Congrats on day 7! I am so proud of you! You are just rocking this girl! I can tell you there will be crappy days. The past 2 days have been really hard on me. But there are bad days for everyone and I'd rather have a bad sober day over a bad high day any day! Hang in there girl

[ricart70]

awesome job mm    I always felt better at night. I still do actually.  Most people say they felt better during the day.  keep it up You are doing so well

[toothfairie]

congrats on day 7!!  you are doing a great job...just keep posting for support and we will be here to cheer you on!!  way to go!!  time will start to speed up soon!  it's so worth the few days of feeling crappy to be pill free!

[missmomma0062]

I just hit my 7 day mark! During the day, I feel crappy.. at night i feel pretty good.... what is my deal? I hope everyone had a good saturday and is being safe...

[limodan73]

Hi! Just wanted to give you a bump of support. The  loss of energy is normal at your stage. Take plenty of vitamins and drink plenty of water. There are natural supplements that help. You can look them up in the health pages. Try and keep busy, and stay focused. Hot baths or showers help. Keep going. You didn't get this way overnight. And it's gonna take a bit to get back. But you're worth it! God bless.

[angie1609]

Just wanted to jump in and say you're doing awesome! Keep on going. I can't wait to say that im on my 6th day.

[missmomma0062]

Off to my 2nd day back to work and I can honestly say Im not looking forward to it, Im so wore down from yesterday, that I don't want to move.. Plus this is a long day at work. The mental part is starting to kick in pretty bad and the anxiety is kicking my butt... Im ready for this to be over... I guess its just a bad day.

[ricart70]

so glad to hear this. don't ever go back   .awesome job  !!

[missmomma0062]

So im at the end of day 5 and I feel pretty good, I have boughts of anxiety.. Work went pretty good, I went in pretty jittery and anxiety filled...But by the end of the shift I was pretty happy just phyiscally and mentally wore out.. I am so tired... I had a break through today, and I NEED to share.. So after work I walked (1mile! ) to my mother in laws house (she has no idea about this) and waited for my husband to get me. Well when he got there she needed to run to the store so I sat at her house and watched tv, my body was hurting pretty bad and I left my advil at the house so I open her cabinet to get some tylonal or something (what ever she had, advil, aleeve,) and what falls down.. a single 7.5mg vicodin from when she had her knee surgery a couple months ago.. I stared at it.. I held.. my heart raced.. and you know what, I set that mother trucker right back on the shelve, grabbed the tylonal and didn't think about it again....
So other then the on and off again depression and anxiety.. Im actually ok, and I now realize, that I may not be ok ALL the time, but in the end, 2 weeks from now, 2 months from now, or 2 years from now, Im going to be ok..

Owe and can someone please explain all this sh*t running down my throat, and the gagging from it.. and the fowl taste in my mouth no matter how many times I brush lol

For anybody new to this site reading this, don't give up, Ive only been here since Sunday, but these people make you feel comforted, supported and life family, this was the strongest rock I had to lean on, I can gaurentee if it wasn't for these people who took time out of thier day to care, check on me, encourage me and Ariley13 messages, that I would have found a way to get more pills, I woulda took that one today.. Im going into day six and I know that when your in the begining of the W/D that you don't want to here this, but it really does it get better.. Each day you wake up and u see that whether it be a small thing or major thing something has improved.. Today I sat on the porch and I noticed things that I haven't noticed in 2 years, the smells, the colors, the serenity... and it was amazing..

[selfinduced]

Hi Momma! UGH, Those fricken headaches. One of my worst all time symptoms. Thought I had a sinus headache, but it was just w/d's. Try ice packs on the base of your neck and iced washcloths on your forehead. Also don't discout alieve and advil. We are so used to running to the narc's for headaches that we forget the over the counter meds and they DOOOO help bunches. You've made great progress....keep it up.

[1sorryperson]

you can do it girl!
Work today, we are all rootin for ya.  
Try advil/aleve the naproxin stuff for the headache and body aches.  a full glass of ice cubes from purified water with warm purified water pored in will make them small enough to munch on.  I frequently crave miniture purified ice cubes.  Bananas will help too. Let us know your day goes.

[ariley13]

I''m so glad o hear that you are feeling better today! I think that going back to work tomorrow will really help with the mental part. You will keep yourself occupied and not have time to worry, obsess, and dwell on the cravings and anxiety. It will also give you a little boost from the accomplishment of doing something productive. You are doing great! Keep up all your hard work.

[missmomma0062]

Thank you everyone for everything!! I feel good today! II know this isn't easy, I have realized that I will have some doubts during the day, cravings and it wont be easy but it will be worth it.. Im excited to go back to work tommorrow.. Right now the only thing that is really bothering me is the headache, my im hoping and praying that the worst of the symptoms (physical) are over!! you guys have been there for me more then any of my family.. im not going anywere! Im here to stay!

[jonboi76]

Hi hope your feeling better? As my friends say above!! You will get mates & friends on here who only want to see you beat this crap & offer you support. I don't know much about your Doc but I can offer support & friendship. Conglats for quiting the pills :) you can & will win this battle! And as VICourageous says this Road isn't meant to be walked alone. Stay strong come back here go to meetings & God bless you my new friend. Jon

[missmomma0062]

4 days! super proud!! but the mental is really kicking in...

[ariley13]

The injections are steroids. Talk to your dr and see what they have to say. I think you should definitely keep doing them if they help. They can be really good to knock out the inflammation. I can't do them. :(  I have a bad reaction to steroids and it makes me very mean and agitated. They also make my back pain worse. Not sure why. I'm a weirdo I guess!

[missmomma0062]

Im having a pretty good night, though Im hungry and the only thing that sounds good is mcdonalds, but like Ariley13 said no fastfood!!!
The pain is real though, my hps ache so bad, my left foot is tingling.. Im thinking of keep getting my injections (just steriods I believe) but thats something I will discuss with her next thursday.. well thursday I work only 5 hours, but friday I work 8 hours in the most demanding part... it'll be ok though.. Im sure of it!

[1sorryperson]

You're doing great!   You'll be draggin abit by the end of thursday but you WILL make it thru the day at work.  Try to avoid the trams in your specific dr's legit scripts for youself if you can tolarate each hour passing, by thurs morning you'll be mostly thur the physical (tummie) problems of the opiate w/d's, pain will linger so try advil, and immodium if the toilet beckons often.  Stay in touch here for support, you are winning.
  
Soon, discuss pain and/or mental issues as they arise for your aftercare, pm anyone here. Eventually you will feel like family here and work on other issues.

[ricart70]

Glad you are feeling better !!      sounds like things are looking up .good deal

[missmomma0062]

Ariley13 my family (well everyone except my mom) though it was all in my head.. Ive was a bad for a about a year, then I ment a wonderful doctor, he cared, he listened, he got me back. I layed on the couch, didnt drive, didnt cook didnt do anything.. 4 year later, I still have it but I drive to florida, I work activily, and normally I have more good days then bad. but its not simple, its very complex, like you  I wish I had a switch.. its alot..

Self, thank you for the cheers, ive read your guys comments over and over and I get a little more hope each time. I did give birth, natural birth, 15 hours and 4 hours of pushing out a almost 9 pound baby! now that hurt!!  Im down to two tramadols, I just started taking them sunday so its not like ive been on them forever (thank god).. Im getting very optimistic about work thursday, I know as long as I feel atleast the way I felt today, thursday will be ok :)  in three hours it will be my 72 hours since my last pill... its amazing, to think tomorrow at this time it will be almost 96 hours, and then the day of work ill over 100 hours under my belt!! Ya for me!

[selfinduced]

Ok, Just got my pom poms out and searching for the cheerleading skirt. YOUR doing this! Don't feed into the anxiety. I know it's hard but the more active I was the less my heart raced. Keep small amounts of food in your tummy also. Like a riley said, music is the ultimate whether it be a calming tune or a country song that makes you bawl your eyes out. Crying released anxiety for me BTW. Are you still taking the tramadol? Do you have any local support. I am a success story as many of others on this site with many more joining the ranks each day. You gave birth right. YOU are strong. Be strong with the mental and surrender to the physical stuff. Life on the otherside is simply amazing.

[ariley13]

It is 'funny'. I do the same thing. My bf thinks I'm nuts cause I can't just turn it off. You just keep on feeding the beast and it just goes round and round growing bigger and bigger. I get to the point where I feel like I'm having a heart attack and dying from the panic. I wish it was as simple as flipping a switch and turning it off, but it's not. People who have never experienced a true panic attack have no clue how scary it is and they are very lucky.

[missmomma0062]

isn't it funny that, even though we know its just anxiety, and that it wont hurt us, but it belittles us so much at points,,, We know its not "real" that nothings going to happen but it yanks us down? wth is up with that!!