27 and addicted for 5 years need help!

[stueaddict]

I am 27 years old and a mother of 3 wonderful children. I have married almost 5 years and have been on hydrocodone 10/500, Valium, methadone, and just about any pain killer I can get my hands on at this point for about 5 years now. It finally hit me today that I have to change my life around. I have chronic back pain and I am terrified to get off my meds for fear of the pain in my back will just keep me taking the meds I am already addict to. My marriage has been crumbling for a couple years now and I finally tonight told him that I'm addicted. I really don't have his support anymore. He has filed for divorce 3 different times but we never have went through with it. His mom completely is my worst enemy by enabling him to leave me. She has told everyone I know that all I do is pop pills, ssmoke

[Dane74]

I forgot to mention i too suffer from pain and i had to make the decision as to if i wanted to live the rest of my life on pills or not, and i chose NOT.  Keep in mind as we are detoxing our brains are craving the opiates and we get rebound pain, it takes some clean time to really figure out if we can live without the opiates, its worth a try:)  

[Dane74]

Hello and welcome.   Good for you for wanting to change your life around.  You made the first huge step in coming for help and confessing to your husband that you are an addict.  With or without his support you can do this, you have to want it bad enough and you will achieve it.  I wish you the best as you embark on your journey to freedom.  What's you plan as so getting help and getting clean?  We are all here to help you in what ever decision you make:)