29 days clean from methadone....struggling

hello...well today is 29 days clean...and was feeling better but the last 4 or so days have been rough. Sleep has gone backwards feels like im at week 2 again, crawling itchy feeling is driving me crazy!!! Little discouraged (but not giving up) tommorow is 30 days a month thought id feel better than this. I realize this is normal and I will get better with more time..just wanted to vent I guess.  I do feel like my thinking is getting clearer but at times its hard to concentrate. Just trying to take one day at a time and hoping for better days ahead!

[gnarly_1]

Hey Girl .....try not to get discouraged you will get time like these methadone is very cyclic so the saying 2 steps forward one step back has never been truer ..just know everyday you get past you is one more day closer to getting better and you are healing it just happens slowly with methadone look at you go your already at 30 days you doing great this is the hardest part and tomorrow you will be past it .....I know the gains seam small and the setbacks are hard to overcome but God and time will heal you no mater how you feel try to stick with what works drink the protein drinks exorcize even if it just a walk around the block work your way up from there ......the sleep thing will drive you nuts with this stuff but you will go threw periods with a few days of no sleep here and there it all part of the process but as you go along you will get use to it and as time goes by you will get less and less symptoms and live more in recovery and feel like your wining YOU ARE WINING dont give up hang in there keep posting for support good luck and God bless.....Gnarly  

[Methsuxbad]

hey you...well today started out rough but after laying around part of the day decided it was time to snap out of it..walked 1.2 miles jogged part of it (me and my oldest did it together) and felt better..hoping ive worn myself out enough to sleep better tonite.  I am doing the protein shakes and still taking supplements so feel like I am putting in what my body needs to heal just going to wait it out now.  I do have good days am for those I am thankful!!! I am not going to give up havnt thought about using much, realize at some point I will but not looking back and know in my heart that I can do this!!!  Thanks so much for your replys cant tell you how much reading them has helped and gotten me through those dark moments!!! Hope one day I can help someone as much as youve helped me...thanks again!!!

[ImDONENoMore]

I just wanted to tell you you are already helping people here!  Just by sharing your experiences, and keeping that positive attitude, can be a huge help to those just starting out.  You are a lot more help than you think you are!!

And congrats on the 29 (and soon to be 30!!) days!!!  Getting to the one month mark is a huge accomplishment!!  You should do something extra nice for yourself tomorrow because you've earned it.  :)

[Methsuxbad]

good morning guys its 4am my time (been awake since 230) layed in bed for a while mind starting racing so decided to get up and start the day, well today is 30 and I am proud!!! @ donennomore thanks for the words of encouragement and yes might try to do something nice for myself today!!! Going to try and stay positve today and just take it as it comes, trying not to focus on the sleep issues and although I didnt get much sleep my body does seem to be adjusting some what...post more later hope you two have a good day!!!!

[cleangimnow]

Nice job on 30 days!  That is a GREAT milestone!  I was on sub and I hear you on the sleep and energy thing. Some days I can run a mile and lift weights an then others I drag muself through the day.  I guess Romw wasn't built in a day!  Keep it up!  I'm on day 26 today so I'm almost right there with you (funny that at day 2 vs 6 I would have said that you are WAY ahead of me :). It's definitely been a ride worth taking!

[Methsuxbad]

hello and congrats on your 26 days!!!! Yes I have good days and bad..guess the bad ones make you really appreciate the good ones...im working up to jogging a whole mile, yesterday walked most of it(maybe jogged a third) going to start to do some strength training soon....keep up the good work girl!!!  Congrats!!

[atthebeach]

hey you are doing great.
congrats on your clean time.
30 days =one month=720 hrs =43,200 minutes,
time,time,time, will be your healer. time to heal emotionally,mentally,physically and spiritually.
the important thing is that you are on the road to recovery.
it is a long and winding road, it is a marathon not a sprint.
just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
keep the faith, keep on truckin,be encouraged,be strong,you are doing it.
hugs and continued prayers
debbie

[tavia14]

You are doing wonderful!! 30 days is huge! And thanks for your posts! Its encouraging to come here and read and no I am not alone. At the same time it is kinda sad realizing all the people in the world that are addicted! Ugh! The most important part is we are clean and what to stay that way! Awesome! I hope you have a great day!

[Methsuxbad]

good morning everyone!!!  Well after 5 nights of hell last nite slept 7 hours and only woke up once!!!!!  So I am moving forward!!! 31 days today! Me and the family are about to go to wally world and just get out for a bit!! well just checking in post more later! Wishing everyone a clean and happy weekend!!!