have been taking a few remedies for the runs, and am actually hungry again for the first time in years. had a really good talk with wife last night, she has basically said that any more addictions will be the end, and to be honest i dont really blame her.
my emotions are starting to come back now aswell,i feel like i have been an empty shell for maybe 7 years, at themoment im trying to turn my life around day by day, i realise these things dont come quick but only if we work for them(AA).
would the addiction explain the apathy i felt, the feeling of being disconnected.i used to be a very loving and fun person and im now trying to find that person again(i think he is still there somewhere). thankyou for youre response it really helped me.
hi and welcome to MH. congratulations on wanting to reclaim your life and be free from the chains and bondage of addiction. your body,mind,soul,spirit and emotions needs time to heal and to be cleansed. are you taking immodium? also you can eat bananas,rice,applesauce,toast these are binding,have you been eating healthier? drink plenty of fluids,gatorade and juices.
you should consider seeking counseling,therapy,support groups,addiction specialist,church. to prevent relapse and to help you remain a recovering addict and not an active one. good for you being honest with your wife. the dark,dirty secret isnt really a secret at all. what is done in dark is revealed and most times the spouses are more than aware.
i will pray for you
debbie
yes the apathy,depression,anger,mood swings, feelings of hopelessness,despair are all a direct result of the use. it (ADDICTION) robs,steals,destroys and kills. it is a monster. it is
right from the pits of hell. it will take time my friend to heal your marriage, your relationships.
that is good you are going to aa. attend as many meetings as possible and work those 12 steps. maybe you could consider one of the other forms of counseling and support i mentioned earlier also.
continued blessings to you and your family
debbie