300mg morphine per day

[marmadink]

I can't describe how sick I get when I run out. Now I seriously must quit. I'm afraid I may die in the process. Unfortunately I get the drug illegally, and have been on it for 3 years, I live a rocks throw from Mexico and it's easily obtained. Since I take it illegally I can't expect any help from a Dr.. Short of suicide which is a real possibility, is there anything I can do???????????

[GACarol]

Being sick is not the end of the world, suicide is. We never get the choice of weather or not we want to get the real flu do we? We get it and we feel like crap and we just tough it out. When we go through withdrawls we are all so afraid, so much more than when we just end up sick i guess because we know we caused it. I personally made it such an evil monster it took me much longer to quit because I didn't want to get sick. Well guess what, I was already sick just in a different way. Dont over think it, just do it and embrace it. Keep it close as a reminder of what these drugs do to us. Our body is ridding itself of the poision we put in it for so long. Take all the OTC stuff, it really does work! Just think if you start now, this time next week you will already be feeling much better. The fog will be lifting and you will be rising out of it. Good luck, stay close. This community is a God send!

[sudie58]

hi, i do feel for you, addiction is a terrible thing, no matter what your DOC is, you can do this, your not alone,let us know how you go, take care, and god bless,   sudie.

[marmadink]

Sara, yesterday my son sent me a text saying he is proud of me for getting off the morphine.
it made me cry. For some reason you have to. Guess Im an emotional wreck right now. I suppose in time this to will pass. Thank You stranger for being there. I feel I need to promise someone, so here it is. I'm going to beat this.
I've always felt I'm a pretty tough guy. Now's my chance to prove it.
If you're interested I will keep you posted on my progress... Good or Bad

[dominosarah]

Dont be afraid of being sick for a few days, be more afraid of what will happen if you dont quit.  Usually you feel like crap for about a week with day 3-4 being the worst.  Make sure you drink plenty of fluids like Gatorade.  Check out the amino acids, oh wait, i will get it and post it for you!!  Stay positive, get up and move around as much as you can.  Eat bananas as they will help if you get restless legs.  You can do this, lean on us as we know what you are going thru~~~~sara

[marmadink]

apparently you've never been to sierra vista az. nope theres no help in this area, aside from NA. I have decided to tough it out. I do agree that suicide is'nt an option. I believe that I'd never see my ma if I did, in heaven I mean. So I appologize for that. I guess I unfairly used that comment as an attention grabber. I'm a 53 yr old white male and other than the drug Im in otherwise good health. I am going to quit, but am afraid of the unending sickness. Any idea how long it will last?

[stacy197832]

Suicide is not the issue. I knew someone who did that and it was the most selfish and self centered thing i have ever known. The ppl they hurt and left behind when all you have to do is go to them for help! Secondly, ok you have an addiction , you are not the only person in the world with it, there are rehabs, doctors ( and yes they will help you), outpatient clinics, do you think crack is legalized? NO so whether it be pills or crack or marijuana , or whatever your addiction, there is always help. And the fact that you are reaching out asking is letting me know you do wanna live and that you do want help. SO take a breath, dont talk about getting help, just go and do it. I know its hard, But you have to do this. If not for the love of yourself, do it for the love of your family. I wish the best and keep me p osted, if you ever need someone to talk to let me kow ok?

[marmadink]

I didn't expect any replies so thanks for that. Well in this town the general attitude amongst the medical community is that if your doing any illegal drug you're considered ( forgive this ) a piece of ****. The first time I went through withdrawls I went to the local hospital emergency room. After being examined the Dr. says " you're addicted and theres nothing I can do for you. Go home " No Ma'am theres no one here for me but another addict. My Mom
she thinks the way to help me is another pill. She gets 90- 100mg mn contins per month.
I havn't taken one yet today, but to be honest I do have a few vicodan to help with the worst of the gut pain. What to do?

[dominosarah]

Is there anyway you can taper down on this?  Do you have anyone that could hold the pills for you?   There are supplements that you can take that will help with the wd's or you could go to the doctor and tell him/her what you have been doing.  You dont have to be a prisoner to these pills anymore~~~sara