Well, I have made it past the one month mark - at 32 days now. I feel really proud of myself and I think I can finally see the light at the end of the long, dark tunnel of hell we call withdrawal!! I actually felt almost normal today. It's funny how it kinda snuck up on me but at the end of the day I thought to myself "well, I haven't had diarrhea today and I wasn't dead tired at the end of the day either" so I guess this means I am finally at the end of the wd's - thank goodness cause I was really getting sick and tired of being sick and tired.
For all those who are asking how long till the wd's are gone - I hate to say it but others were honest with me when I asked - one month should do it. Of course it all depends on your doc, the duration of use, the amount used and your age are all factors of how long your wd will be. But I think from what I've heard others say and my own experience, it's safe to say that one month will do the job on getting rid of the symptoms. Now the real work will come into play with avoiding situations, averting cravings and learning coping skills to stay strong and clean.
I am not going to any aftercare programs, I can't risk being out in the community and meeting any possible clients or colleagues I may work with out there somewhere. It's a small world out there. So I will probably keep posting here alot and checking in for support from all of you. I read some posts from others who were on the brink of using and you all got them through it - they made it without using! To me, that showed real strength from them to not use and true friendship from caring fellow peers here who really know what it's like. I hope when or if I'm faced with a situation where I may want to use, I will have the strength and honesty to ask for help, because you people sure know how to give it.
I can truly say that I would have given up in the first 2-3 days of my detox had I not found this forum to vent and ask questions and be answered by such caring individuals. You all helped me through the wd's and I can only hope that I may be able to help someone out there who is also struggling and in need of hope and clarity. It really DOES get better, I'm living proof of that!!
So, Thank You All - you have truly helped me find my way back on the path of living a REAL life, not a clouded, drugged out fog.
Congrats on 32 days!!! You spent a long LONG month feeling rotten so am glad to hear you are feeling better. The hard part starts now as the mental part can really play some nasty head games with you. Always keep that guard up. sara
HI Chico im so happy to here your feeling better now you will be seeing more good days then bad just be ready for a curve ball once in a wile...as far as aftercare goes if your uncomfortable with a meeting hook up with a substance abuse conslor or an addiction therapist there are lots of forms of aftercare out there...I also agree with punkinhead
the only people your going to see at a meeting are others like yourself and you may be suprized by who you run into....sometimes it takes going out of our comfort zone to achieve what where after...less then 10% of the addicts will make it a yr clean without some form of aftercare the statistics are scary but I just want you aware of them wile your withdrawals are fresh in your head....put as much time into your aftercare as you did into your active addiction and you will come out with a brand new clean and sober lifestyle.this forum is priceless for help but you need more....I wish you all the best in your recovery hope you stick around good luck and God bless.......Gnarly
Glad you are starting to feel better, I am now 2 months clean also of oxys and just starting to get back on my feet. I can understand where you r coming from re. the meetings I too work in health care and worry about meeting clients or collegues but I guess we are all there for the same reason. I am really working through this issue also - Wish you all the best
Congrats Chico! You have come a long way and I am glad to see you made it through! Keep fighting the good fight and keep your guard up! The mental part can still be a booger but the good outweighs the bad!
Wow, thanks Everyone for all of your kind words of support! Feels great to make it thus far.
I just wanted to note that yes I understand that if I ran into a client or colleague at an aftercare meeting somewhere that we are all there for the same reason. The issue is not so much with work colleagues, but if I were to run into a client I feel that I might loose their respect as someone who is supposed to offer guidance and advice. Even if they did not actually feel this way, I feel that I would loose face with them and I would be very uncomfortable etc. Also, being in the field that I am in I have had the opportunity to meet quite a lot of homeless and drug users through my work - I don't want to take the chance of running into them in that environment. It's hard to explain, but I just feel that I would loose respect - whether it be theirs or my self-respect. Clients may even feel more of a bond with me, but I would not feel comfortable with that. In fact, in my line of work this is all grounds for dismissal. So it really isn't even a choice - if I want to keep my job and I do.
So, as I have said in other posts at the start of my detox - I have also had addictions to alcohol, cocaine and crack. I have not used these other drugs in over 6 years, I feel that I can now do the same for the oxy. I have cut all ties with my dealers - deleted numbers and came clean with my family and BF. I have their support and feel that it IS possible to do this without meetings. I have gone to aftercare for other addictions in the past so I kinda know what I could expect from it. I can apply that knowledge to this kick - just a different substance - same trigger situations, coping methods and skills I would think. I think it really all depends on how much a person really wants to quit - like some others have said there are some people in the aftercare who don't even want to be there. I'm sure it does nothing for them if they don't really want to stop.
And to act as a sponsor is my family and BF who I know will be there for me. Along with all of you! :)
I went cold turkey after a 2 1/2 year long addiction to oxy. Started with percs about 4 years before ending up at 120-200mg/day oxy habit.
I didn't want to try sub and glad I didn't. Just my opinion but it sounds scary and even harder to wd from than the oxy itself. I booked a week off of work (thank God cause I really needed it boy) and detoxed at home. My BF here to support me and even though the first 3-4 days were complete hell, I'm glad I did it this way. I think for me, feeling the pain of the wd's was actually a good thing because I will never forget the agony and will use that to remind myself every time I think of using at all.
Just wanted to say congratulations to you - That is awesome to hear another inspirational story. This place really is amazing and helps so many people. Enjoy your newly found freedom and make the most out of each day.
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