35 days aftercare where to start

Hello mh friends well today is day 35!!! Seem to have a few good days and then some not so good days but all in all im doing better.  Have been going back in forth in my head about aftercare and think maybe its time.  Ive done some research and im deep in "PAWS" thought I was dealing with it all ok but it seems to be taking its toll on my and my fiances relationship.  When he tries to talk to me my brain either shuts down its like I understand what he's saying but just cant form a response, or other times I can feel myself getting angry and tend to over react...I've tried to talk to him about "recovery" he's never done drugs, tell him how hard this is and he tells me how hard its been on him..I know it has I hate he's seen me and had to deal with me like this..lately ive just tried to be quite afraid that ill say the wrong thing or just unsure what to say.  There was a question in all this as far as an addiction counslor whats the best way to find one, should you interview or just give one a try?? And are there any out there who have gone through this with a "non addict" any tips, finding it hard to talk or make him understand???

[gnarly_1]

HI  choosing a conslor and be a simple as looking in the yellow pages but rather then that crap shoot it is beat to do your research on one of the many doctor web sites it is important to find one thats a good fit I recamed female to female male to make but this isent carved in stone many of our members have found good conslors that where the op-site sex things like Angie list can be helpful also there are doctors web sits that list things like bedtime manors and personalitys.....I was given one threw my phyic dr and he worked out well best bet is to doyour research and be open there there for your benefit not the other way around with a little foot work im sure you can find a good one ask around a freinds oppinion can be priceless wile doing this wish byou the best of luck take your time and you will find the right one god luck and Godbless......Gnarlty    

[gnarly_1]

google N/A meeting in your area thats a start N/A is where I started and o it to 6yr3mo of sobriety got me off the alcohol  weed and everything else recreational still had a few more yrs of living in denile about methadone