40 days!!!

[Crbj83]

Well im 40 days into my sobriety!!!! Yay me! :) lately I have been dwelling on my past. Things I could/should have done differently.  Idk if this is part of it all..... or if its my rageing hormones from being three months pregnant.  Lol but its bothering me enough to want to post about it......

[nonights]

Congrats on 40 days. I had a major meltdown about 40. Its now all mental. I have to keep watch on my thoughts and keep coming back to now. Right now you have done the best you can. Your sobriety is first priority as this helps every situation you face. Think of all you have to be grateful for. Think of the strength you have shown by stopping evil pills. You go. Keep pushing.

[Real180]

Congrats on 40 days!!! Keep up the good work...

[ActingBrandNew]

Congrats on the 40 days!

[gnarly_1]

Hey  congrats on 40 days what a great gift your giving your baby..a clean mother keep moving forward time to get out of your head and get to a n/a meeting it will help with those thoughts it takes more then a detox to arrest addiction keep posting for support...Gnarly

[dirtydirk]

high number 2 me  some ppl have years on here im jealous of that....i will say other than feeling down about my past  40 days till now almost feels the same so keep fighting, warmer weather is makin my days better that winter we just went thru was the worst in 15 years!!!   keep fighting  life might not seem as fun and upbeat but just remember how u felt when u woke up in the mourning b4 and how u feel now that in itself speaks volume 2 me, and im sure 2 everyone else that went thru wds!!!!  many ppl dont get a month or even a week under there belt  i consider myself lucky 2 be still living and u should 2 !!!!  

[Crbj83]

Ya I suppose....... still those two years feel like a life time right now. Kinda like those first five days of ct-wd!!! Lol. But im gonna to my best to stop turning to look behind me, and keep pushing ahead! 40 days does feel great!!! Congrats to you as well on your high number of days in sobriety :)

[dirtydirk]

just be happy u only lost 2 years.......!!!!

[Crbj83]

Thank you :)
I needed to hear I wasn't alone in this neurotic thought process! I feel like I made alot of mistakes while being fogged out on pills. But I know I can change or take back those two years I wasted! Still..... I wish I could right all those wrongs. I know im a much happier healthier me. Not jus for me, but for my husband,  the two small children I have.  And for the one we are expecting.  I pray every night to face tomorrow with the strength to let the past go and leave jus there..... where it belongs.  Glad to hear im not alone in these thoughts.
  Thanks again :)

[dirtydirk]

i just went thru this just recently in 77 days sober.....i couldnt stop wondering what ifs... shoulda coulda woulda's kicking myself in the butt for screwing up good jobs losing my possessions, hurting friendships so on so forth  and yes its normal ....but i was told from many ppl on here not 2 dwell on the past....its over...all we can do is look forward now and be the best we can from here on out!!!  its hard 2 do considering all the things i wish i could done differently, although i have no regrets, im me for the good and for the bad!!  congrats on 40 days