6 weeks is here :)

[Lovemyfam2000]

Hi guys just a update well 6 weeks is here 42 days I'm so happy I have some good clean time I can't wait to get to 3 months :) well I went to therapy he sais I'm to hard on my self cause iv been feeling so guilty about the things iv been slaking on since quiting and that it's ok I just Been feeling bad cause the hubby and the kids need me but good news is it is getting way better I'm very proud of the progress and I know everyone on here that have told me it takes time is def right. I have one question thow is it normal to wake up at nights and have all kinds of bad thoughts ? I'm nervous at nights and wen I wake up it's weird. The days are ok thow. Neways u guys are Honstly the best Yayy for 6 weeks im sooooooo happy NEVER going back this is my first and last time quiting :)

[Lovemyfam2000]

Well I made it Throu two days of work I haven't worked in over 6 months it was good my body hurts took a ibprophin lol. Well I guess I must be doing some what better right day 44 now if they would have even asked me to work on day 20 there was just no way I could have. My husbands kind of getting on my nerves I know he's probably having a hard time with me but I just wish he understood how hard it is to really get better I was just feeling so sorry for my self right Now thinking if I start taking pills again everything would just be so much easier already DUMB I know and I wouldn't go there I just wish he could undarstand that it takes time for mind and body needs to heal. Well gonna watch a movie with the kids hopefully that will cheer me up

[gnarly_1]

Hey congrats on 6 weeks your past the first milestone and 1/2 way to the second your doing great.....usually if your waking up in a panic its from a bad dream you dont always remember the dream thats what throws you off....I remember being quit amused by the dreams when I first detoxed....I dont think I ever dreamed the whole time I was on methadone so it was like a new experience for me as for being 100% look at it this way your 100% better then you where on day 1 or 2 and Im sure your tired of hering this but it takes time to get well everybody is different dont compare yourself to others just know it goes this way for a lot of us I broke a 16 1/2 yr habit it took me 90 days to even start to feel well again....one thing I recommend to everyone that detoxes is whey protein shakes...ther full of amino acids vitamins as well as protein all of witch the brain needs to heal ....you can pick up a 2 lb can at walmart for 15 bucks
the chocolate flavor is good and all you do is mix it with milk drink 2 a day it will speed up your recovery they also cary super whey protein for 20 bucks but you need a blender for that ....right now time and God our your best friends you will heal it just takes some time good luck and God bless.....Gnarly

[mommyoffive0529]

I feel you girl...i too am dealinng with the guilt of not being 100% ..i still have the panic and the anxiety and i am trying so hard to deal ...we made it this far..i thought about my pills today and i thought hey i can take one but i didnt.....we have to keep on moving....i also stopped nicotine and coffee in the same days a lortab so i am a hurting fool still....congrats

[dominosarah]

Congrats on the clean time!!  keep it going.  sara

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thanks u guys it feels good getting this far. Mag it's funny how we can be our own worst enemy sometimes right it's nice to know that others on here understand what I'm going Throu well u have over 2 months that's really good hopefully the weird nights n mornings are almost over for u   I can't wait to get that far Yayy for us

[Katrina81]

Thats awesome! Congrats on those 6 weeks!!

[merrymaria]

congrats on 6 weeks...awesome!  Give yourself time to heal.  Our brains really do go through a lot of changes and it takes time to level out.  It took me about 8-9 weeks to really feel pretty terrific.  So worth the wait.   You are doing great...keep on going...maria :)

[magnoliaooo]

I just thought I would share with you I have 2 months and a week and I share the very same feelings as you. I beat myself up sometimes but I think that is part of the disease.I also wake up with a feeling of doom and gloom it is so  wierd. I also feel guilty because I feel I am not at my best now. What I do realize is I was not at my best on the pills although I thought I was. I am very nervous now in certain situations but it is SLOWLY getting better. We are pretty close in clean time and I think it will just take our brains some time to balance itself out. It's not easy is it?  I pray this is the last time for me the withdrawls were so hard on my body. Anyway the answer to your question is I wake up with bad thoughts and sometimes I am anxious in the morning but it is getting better. Great job on 6 weeks and thanks for your post!!!!

                                                            Mag

[Lovemyfam2000]

Thanks your words mean alot ya I have to admit I have been beating my self up bad just feel guilty for all this down time but like I said it's getting better. And about thinking to much sometimes I tell my brain to just shut the f up lol

[laurel453]

Congrats on your 6 weeks, Lovemyfam :)  yes, it is quite common what you said you are experiencing. I did woke up a lot of times with every negative thought inside my mind. The best thing is that you diminish them rationalising them and looking at the facts. Fears are never as bad as reality, usually :) And about being hard on yourself, i think that all of us share the same thing of beating ourselves after quitting and being so hard. You will overcome those feelings with the help of your therapist, just don't push yourself, step by step you will get better and will learn thetools to deal better with your life. I always say that it is not a  good thing  overthinking too much after quitting because we are not at our best frame of mind, take it easy, ok ? :) good luck and hope you will sleep better soon.