60 Days Today :)

[Back2Me]

For those that don't know 60 days ago I quit heroin and pain pills cold turkey at home. Horrible brutal process but 60 days later here I am and it's good to be here where I am now I can tell you that.  But again, cannot stress enough how bad those those first weeks were. So if you are going through it look at me I made it to 60 and just about NONE of those symptoms are lingering anymore.

CRAVINGS however have been stalking me like a black panther the past few weeks.  Somtimes they get unbearable. And it's not really for H or anything it's just the ol Hey one or two vicodins would be fine now or a Percocet. Sometimes it feels like I going crazy. But I have been punching through that crap. I have been focused on fitness and getting into top shape including eating and everything. But still I can't kick my azz every second of the day by working out. And those are the times when it hits like Mac truck. I thought I was going to escape cravings because I didn't get them at all until around the 45-50 day mark. Not the case. But I will not let them beat me. I have an army looking after me and my wife is a opioid PIT BULL! I tell her everything. Every craving and all of it. She totally get it and is helping me. So is my family. I'm trying to walk the right path now and stay on course. Exersize is a MUST for me.
By mostly I wanted to say I feel soooooo much better than I used to and the withdrawls do stop and the mind bending depression and madness stops as well. I am productive again, I am building my energy back, I am sleeping just fine and all is good. Now I'm just in this way against my demon self. It can come out and have some things but just not what it really really wants :)
No way it's beating me again :)

Oh and I believe at least one other zombie crew member is still with me, not sure about the other one. Feel free to chime in about how you are doing!!

[VICourageous]

Wow Great Come back from WantToBeNormalAgain!!!
Congratulations on your days..You do sound much happier ever time you post..Keep up whatever you are doing..Ya!!!! No Zombie look for you..And hey I have read about that smell not to long ago as a Swiss Cheese smell.
Bless

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

Heyyyy there!!! I remember you! We're both in Michigan, and I recall seeing you on here; I was pretty active on here in 2010/2011.. Then lost touch a bit and finally have a new computer and I've just been browsing around, catching up. Good for you on 60 days man!! Awesome!! All I can tell you is that for me, all I had was the day before to compare today to. But the further you get out and move away from the substances the more you have to look back on and compare how much better you feel. It goes from the physical wds (the WORST, right??!!) to the mental wds (sometimes worse than the physical!) to then noticing that you woke up and it wasn't the first thing on your mind.. then you eventually make it to the afternoon, the evening, and a whole day will go by and you can't believe you didn't think about using, the time you used, if you had a pill/drink/etc., and then days come. I'm at the point now that I never thought I'd be. I'm the me I was before drugs were ever a thought.. It takes ages, but my God, I'm so happy I didn't give up. You have nothing but good things to look forward to from here. It seems like as addicts, the majority of us expect to be back to us overnight, or at least in a week.. But unfortunately it's nothing about immediate gratification in getting and staying sober and getting happy and normal. It's about all the hard work you go through until finally, it's not work anymore. Just like drugs start off and before you know it you're in too deep, with getting sober and back into life, it's the same. It seems that every day it's almost an obsession, like we're forcing the clock to go on hyper mode, and we want to skip these weeks or months it takes to get back to the 'old' us.. But nothing worth doing is ever made easy. You're worth it, so just keep going in the direction you're going and the reward is putting those days behind you.. It'll eventually calm but it can be a slow process. Just stay on the path you're on, you're doing great!! Chin up, head up and proud. Be proud of yourself.

[meegWpaw]

congratulations!  as always I appreciate ur enthusiasm and candor.  happy for you!

[ricart70]

Great job  buddy !!!!  congratulations !  It's a great example for people that we can do this .

[BelleFemme]

Congrats! That is an accomplishment that you should be so, so proud of! I have 60 days tomorrow...whew, the time has flown by! Keep up the amazing work!

Belle

[limodan73]

Wanted to chime in and say congrats! That's AWESOME! Keep going. Just watch out for PAWS. I can testify, as today I'm back on day flipping 4. Again, outstanding achievement. Be proud!

[Back2Me]

Yes that was me old goat balls!
Man let me NEVER forget that shet! Oh how horrible the smells that were coming off of me those first two weeks!
Hang in there brother I didn't start feeling good until like 45 days. I was functional but not good until around then. And I can honestly say even at 60 I am not perfect. Still have low energy but I am working hard on that by excercise and it is working.

[OpenMind24hours]

Congratulations on 60 days!!!!

[EvolverU]

Yes SCORE!.....A second Zombie sighting on THE DATE! (What'd I win?..)

Congratulations! Great to see you posting. You're sounding & thanks for being so honest as always:

'Even though I don't believe it yet.' (&) 'I guess blind faith is in order: believe in those that have gone before me.'

All I can say is DARE to believe & keep the FAITH, my friend. Protect your ZOMBIE status at all times..that's the most important part. Looking forward to your next month!

All Power To you,
Annie

[Brightfutureahead]

Just wanted to say I enjoyed your post...you seem focused and positive, and honest. Posting about your cravings is a great move and the support will help you move forward. It's awesome that you have a wife that's supportive and willing to help!  And, as Sarah said, you're treating your body like a temple which is the best thing you can do when you're recovering (which is forever!) Congrats...you will go far!

[dominosarah]

Congrats on your clean time!!  You are treating your body like a temple, now it is time to treat your brain like a temple.  You are doing so great and have such a good attitude.  My only wish for you is to add some aftercare into the mix.

[jjames666]

good stuff!  i'm on day 58 off heroin and oxy so i know exactly where you're coming from.  keep it up!

[toothfairie]

congrats on those hard earned 60 days!!  you sound great....keep up the great work and glad you have a support system in place!!

[ActingBrandNew]

Your whole post is great stuff man...really! Im glad you made it to that 60 day marker and you sound like your doing really good. I especially like when you said:

" I have an army looking after me and my wife is a opioid PIT BULL! I tell her everything. Every craving and all of it. She totally get it and is helping me. "

That's just great...it should encourage others to be honest with there spouses as well! Great stuff!

ABN

[kyle505]

You've got the right mind set and the right wife! And believe me, you'll need both in the days to come. I'm almost at 18 months clean and the voice still talks to me; but the longer we're clean the more we can control it - BUT - we are never in control.
Many congratulations. I'll see you at 90 days.
K

[ariley13]

Congrats on 2 months my fellow zombie! You have come so far! I remember us all staying up all night dying of withdrawls and talking on this site. I am so proud of you. You have faced recovery with a very positive attitude, and a lot of humor. I wish nothing but the best for you and yours. Take care of yourself.----Angela

[jifmoc]

Hi, I think you were the one I've been thinking about; the guy who smelled like a dirty goat after every shower the first week? Wow. I'm glad you wrote. Your at 60 days!!! And it's pretty good (aside from cravings.)  That's unbelievably inspiring to me right now.
I am not using but I'm in a very bad place. I'm beginning my 4th week and I STILL have some low energy, stomach issues, and profound unrelenting  depression. Everyone on here has said that I cannot expect to feel better this soon. (Dang websites that say it takes 4 to 7 days!!!) Anyway, it's getting very very old and I'm losing my resolve. I still won't use but I am not seeing one iota of joy or feeling glad that I did this. SO...I know where you were when you started, and if you feel that good (except for cravings which I've been told is very normal and will dissipate) then I guess I have something to look forward to. Even though I don't believe it yet.

Thank you for posting: I guess blind faith is in order: believe in those that have gone before me. Kick butt job on your 60 days. Bet you thought you'd never see that and you did it. Give yourself a hand. And I think I need to re read your post...thank you.