60 Lortab 10's / Day - 8 days clean and counting...

This is more to get some things off of my chest, rather than a question - but advise and comments would be helpful.

I was taking 30 10mg Lortabs at a time (anywhere between 325mg of tylenol to 660mg) for quite some time.  When I would return home from work, I would pop another 30 for a daily total of 60 (600mg).  I am not sure why, and how I am still alive.

I hit rock bottom on August 4th, when the police intervened.  Not really going to go into all of the detail, but I went from a clean criminal record, to having 3 felony's overnight.  I lost my high paying job, and may lose everything (possession wise) that I have.  But - I do still have my loving wife, beautiful daughter, and my LIFE.  My wife was unaware that I had a problem, as well was my whole family - so I was alone and had felt defeated.

The habit started after 2 foot surgeries - taking 2 a day.  Then 4, 6, 8...up to 30 twice daily.

I have been clean for a total of 8 days, and the wd's seem to have diminished.  Now the hard part is functioning, or having any energy / motivation to want to do anything.  Now I am unemployed, so I try to do things to keep me busy (but that too is hard). I have voluntarily enrolled myself into counseling starting Thursday (Aug 13) where I will undergo group therapy, and individual counseling sessions.  I am ready for the long haul, and no turning back for me.

How long will it take for me to get the old person back (happy-go-lucky).  I do have cravings, sometimes very strong.  My family is understanding, and I usually talk to my wife or go for a walk.  That really helps me.

Any advise, comments, or anything really would be great.  8 days is early, but it's one day at a time, one minute at a time (even though easier said than done).

Thanks for listening....   8 days and counting!

[rod44]

what about NA?  get involved dont just turn up at the meeting and go home when it over. there are others like you who may need your help as much as you need There’s, people in hospitals ect and those who have lost it all. get to know a long time member and get there support.

[gizzy32]

That is a lot to come off of. I think many of us here had to hit rock bottom and sometimes several before waking up. I can't tell ya how long it will take to find your old self, everyone is different, but it does not happen overnight. We have to heal and it does take some time. I was in a complete fog my first month and from there i started to feel human again. It does seem the energy is one of the last things to come for most. Look into some type of aftercare, it really does help. The cravings do get better with time, but for me, the second I let my guard down, i get in trouble. Stick around here, you will learn a lot and CONGRATS on 8 days clean and the start of a better life again.

P.S. Look in the health pages here, there is a lot of good info about amino's and such. Good luck