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[Ben727]

That would be the circumference of a circle if my clean time in days represented the radius. A few observations and lessons learned:

- None of the things I thought 3 years ago would be big problems after I quit are problems. Instead, I have a different set of "clean problems" which upon reflection are ok to have.
- I had a lot of growing up to do after I quit. Long term addiction stalls emotional and intellectual growth badly.
- Being a non-addict for awhile, I can sense addiction in myself keenly. I just spent a few weeks in Mexico and actually felt the withdrawal from HF corn syrup. It's a bigger deal than most people realize.
- I still have no idea why some people are able to quit and others are not. I have noticed the the people who succeed all seem to be very earnest and willing to unconditionally put in the effort.

[Ben727]

@meegWpaw Google is cheating! But good on you for catching the reference and finding it out. The song I had in mind is the one that everyone knows by them. I swear it could be about addiction.
@NeverAgain127 I think you might be right, but for good or bad, that hasn't stopped me from trying to understand anyway.
@pillguy You are a learned man, well done. If we're dealin in radii, we're dealin in tau!
@VICourageous You're one of the toughest ones I've seen on here, life has been hard on you these past years. Thank you for the kind words.

[VICourageous]

Hey Ben!!!
CONGRATULATIONS!!
Your Post said it right to the point!!! YES! In my first yr things were really going great..Physically, Mentally and Spiritually I was still Healing. These last 2 yrs I have seen more family & friends deaths. My health took a down fall, but it is now all coming around for the better. It does take SO SO many CHANGES and time to Learn how to live in your own skin. I came on here like a Lion back in 2012, but have now picked up so much more on dealing with Life Clean & Sober that I find myself alone and calm like a Lamb. So many I know still use/drink..What a SAD world it can be.

It is nice to finally see the World without looking through them Rose Color Glasses!

I am HAPPY for ALL of us that have worked so hard to stay clean..as we know it was no walk in the park and it will still continue to be a job..lol
Very Proud of YOU!!
Bless
Vickie

[pillguy]

And just to be sure on the numbers here; we're talking tau and not pi, correct?

Cheers

[pillguy]

I've read some of your posts and journal entries.  You are a thoughtful person.  And funny!

[NeverAgain127]

Congratulations as well.  Why some folks  lose the battle with addiction is a question that haunts me.   My best friend succumbed to addiction to alcohol at age 48; dead.   She had the resources, tools, and loving friends and family to support her, but she drank all the way through end stage cirrhosis until she lapsed into a coma and left this world.   It freaks me out, and challenges my faith HARD.

Some things I guess we aren't supposed to know or understand...

[meegWpaw]

congratulations?  i'm sorry you'll have to forgive the plebeian in me but i think you are posting clean time?  anyway congratulations just for being you!  you have always been a thoughtful, sagacious and trustworthy member of our community.  glad your recovery is not tainted!

Meegy

p.s. i have to admit i had to look up the s. cell thing