6th day off off methadone, having a really hard time

[snowflake24]

I quit at 10mgs of methadone, so far the physical part has gotten better, but today has been the hardest mentally on me. Im really depressed, dont want to do anything, and im very emotional, crying on and off. this is just soo hard.Does anybody have any good advice to bring my spirits up? this is not like me at all to be this depressed and emotional. When will this go away?

snowflake

[snowflake24]

Ya know, that is funny that you asked. I have been sleeping decently, but I have had bad flu-like symptoms all week, but never hit PAWS, i am truly truly blessed!! Has it been really hard mentally and physically, oh, yeah, i would lay there and just cry because i couldnt move and felt horrible. On 10mgs of methadone that i have been on less than a year. I try to count my blessings that it wasnt a lot worse, to be honest yesterday I was maybe at 15% of myself, today it is 25%, but it may be worse or better tomorrow, they are hard withdrawals and some moments i feel better, other times horrible. But i am soo grateful and happy that im not onthe liquid handcuffs anymore!!!! Thanks for your support and I will post again in a few days.

God bless you

snowflake

[gnarly_1]

Hera Kara how you doing today??? are you sleeping yet that can be ruff coming off methadone
..........Gnarly

[candy_17]

Hey snow:) I just wanted to say hello and I'm praying for you. On those days as hard as it is I try to find at least one thing positive to focus my attention on. Concentrate on the good things and cheer yourself up:) I'm so glad you're feeling better today. I was kinda down yesterday myself, for no reason at all I just felt sad but I feel better today too. Thank God, joy does come in the mornings!! Stay tough my friend.

[gnarly_1]

Hi Kara......as you can see this is a bit like a roller coaster your going to have ups and downs.....when your down just remember tomorrow will come and things will look better .....you need to be in this for the long haul and it seams that you are .... in the long haul you will get threw this.....your beating this thing one day at a time.......Gnarly  

[snowflake24]

Thanks, gnarly, I will do that. today is better emotionally, at least Im not feeling bipolar!!!! LOL. anyways, thanks for all your support.

[snowflake24]

I was on methadone for 11months, I topped out at 80mgs, stayed there for three months, then spent 8 months titrating down to 10mg, i quit ct one week from today, and I dont regret it at all, yes, i feel like crap, yes it is wearing me out emotionally and physically, but i cant turn back now. No way, I take 20 vitamins a day and opiate ease pills, protein shakes, and my doc wrote me out clonidine(non benzos) it helps with the withdrawals, fenegran for nausea, and trazadone for sleep. The clonidine helps a lit bit, but the other things dont really work very well. You can do it, just go down really slow, and start taking vitamins. If i can do it, you can do it too!!!! Good luck

snowflake

[hcornett]

hey how long were u on the methadone?  I have been on for 6 yrs and my withdraw journey is coming up really soon and i am absolutely terrified! I know a positive attitude is what i need but its so very hard  

[snowflake24]

My middle name is snow....thank you. I feel better today, yesterday was horrible mentally though.....but today is a new day and better!!!! it has been a week since i quit ct methadone. I know it will take me a couple more weeks, but ive come this far,i can do it.

[Nursey7]

I am glad you were feeling a little better!  You are right about the ups and downs; it's normal. I don't know about methadone but I am clean 60 some days from years long addiction to Vicodin and still have those mood shifts. I can do for days, week and then bam!! Sometimes it can be in the same day. Its just our beautiful brain that God made just for us trying to get back to state he gave it to us in :-)  It is very hard sometimes to just start crying and feel so down for what you think is no reason-HA!  We will get there and be so happy again. I do agree that NA or AA is the big key and that means getting my butt there too. The couple times I went it felt great-people could relate-a real person!!! BTW I love the name "snowflake" it reminds me of home

[smiles4eva]

Hi snowflake :)
I am thinking of you this morning and hope you have a better day with more good waves than bad.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Kara what your feeling is  normal.....I wish I could tell you how long it will last but that is different for everybody im with weaver it would be helpful if you hit a N/A meeting ,nothing replaces human interaction and they will understand just how you feel your going to go threw many more mood swings wile coming off this stuff ....I often say you dont realize just what methadone does to you till your off it.....Again your doing great so far keep pushing forward and check out a meeting.....Gnarly

[atthebeach]

hi kara it will come in waves, exactly as you describe of feeling good and then bad again. keep moving forward. you are doing awesome. get some sunshine, keep busy.
one hour at a time, one day at a time......
keep fighting the good fight.....
blessings,
debbie

[snowflake24]

okay, i will look into that. i feel a lot better now, its so weird how you can feel so crappy emotionally and physically, and then you have bouts where you feel a lot better. thanks for all your support i can do this. thanks

[weaver71]

I would say you are in the thick of it. I agree with ImDone, some form of aftercare will be very helpful soon. The energy crash and lack of motivation are what hit me the hardest. I always felt better after an AA meeting. You may prefer counseling, or something else, but it helps to sit with people who understand what you are felling. I've only been of methadone for 114 days, but meetings have been crucial so far. As soon as i felt able, I started going. Good luck, you won't regret it, no matter how you feel now.

[Jenelle2020]

Hey snowflake, sorry to hear you are having such a hard time! It's day 6 so you are right in the midst of it, I would think. I am sure this is normal and I just wanted to send you some encouragement. You are doing GREAT! Hang in there...all the best...Gayle ( it's my turn next )

[snowflake24]

I think it is just today, im never like this so I hope it passes

[snowflake24]

dont worry, i have no desire to go back to opiates. just feel down

[snowflake24]

im on antidepressants, you mean start going to na?

[OpenMind24hours]

Hi Snowflake,

The light at the end of the tunnel isn't a Freight Train, it's a life that's happy joyous and free. Try to remember it isn't going to be like this the rest of your life, tomorrow will be better I bet. Take it one minute at a time, one day at a time and soon it WILL get better. I'm on day 10 from Hydro and have had days and nights like you're having, but it's beginning to get better. Getting with other addicts in recovery has helped me to get out of my symptoms for a while, writing on here also helps. Keep on keeping on Snowflake!

[meps1978]

Dont you dare turn back now.You'll have to go through the whole thing from the start all over again... take it from me. I quit methadone after  2 years - at high I was on 120mg a day - I 1/2 it for 2 weeks at 60mg and quit cold turkey. I was able to switch to suboxen after a few days but LIKE A FOOL after I got over being ill and detoxed 100% off methadone - I decided to go back on it. HOW DUMB AM I > now I'm on 90mg every day again paying over 2k a mnoth between a program and gas.

[ImDONENoMore]

This is why aftercare is constantly recommended on this site.  You need to find the tools (or AD meds?) to deal with your depression.  This is where the work truly begins.  And you CAN do this.

What do you think?

[smiles4eva]

Hi snowflake :)
You are doing great.  It is so hard but please try to force yourself to get moving. Put on some music and dance, do light yoga,  go for a walk....anything.  I know methadone much harder than oxy but I am with you at 6 days.  I just put on my sneakers,  packed a picnic and taking my son on a hike.  Trust me,  I don't want to but I HAVE to.  
Best wishes!