9 months

[Dane74]

I cant even begin to express my feelings of happiness and solitude and thankfulness and the list just goes on.  For the first time in years i can now honestly say i feel good, i mean really good, and let me tell ya, it's such a wonderful feeling.  I am smiling again, I'm laughing, I'm crying, and just the basic everyday feelings that i numbed up over the years, WOW,  i am so happy and not to sound stuck up or conceited but i am dam proud of myself that i made it 9 months and it was worth the fight, it was the fight of my life and i did it!!!!!  Since i was feeling so good i decided that i am going to CT smoking,  well its been a week already and i feel great too, shoot, that is nothing compared to opiates.  For all that are new on there journey, its a long process but its so worth it, i am just smiling from ear to ear and i feel naturally high on life right now.  Don't get me wrong there are bad days too, but that is what life is all about the good and the bad.  Just to be clean for the holidays and actually remembering it is going to be amazing, all i know is that last Christmas, was not a good one as i don't remember much of it.  
   Thank you so much to all my dear friends on MH, i am so thankful  for each of you and for always being by my side throughout the last 2 years or so, i would not be where i am today if it were not for y'all and i am forever grateful!!!!!  I hope this post gives other people struggling HOPE because life on this side is just wonderful.......

[kellkell2184]

So happy for you and I too had a very bad xmas last year I was detoxing my 2nd to last time. It was horrible to go threw the holidays having to go through all that and in secret mind you. I was not successful that time and ended up telling my Hub on Dec 26th that I was detoxing and admitted myself to the hospital. Anyways it was not the greatest time of year but this year I will be clean and sober and that makes me just as happy to know this. So congratulations my friend!

[vicki595]

BAHAHAHAHAHA !  I'm sofa king ecstatic !

[Dane74]

Leann, thank you so much for your precious words, you are so sweet, if only i can feel that way.  Shame is something i am working on, but like i always say, i am a work in progress:-)  

Vicki, Are you "sofa king" happy?

[vicki595]

I'm very, very proud of you!

It's all so wonderful!!

[ricart70]

Great job Dane! I know it's not always easy(understatement)

[Fireby29]

Congrats Dana, so good to see posts like these.

Bryan

[KMK523]

Congrats on 9 months!!! That is something to shout about!! I'm right behind you at 7 months off of 16 10/325 percocets a day. It is such a wonderful feeling to be off the pills. You are right---we got our lives back!! My next challenge is to quit smoking also. I know opiates withdraw was pure hell. How is the nicotine withdraw? I also went cold Turkey from pills. I'm thinking it's the best way to go for the smokes too. Keep me posted on how that is going. Again congrats to you on your clean time!!!!

[Comingclean2012]

CONGRATS! I am on day 36 clean of opiates and your post is a great inspiration to everyone of us in the infancy of our sobriety! Great job and happy holidays!!!!!

[SunnysideUP27]

congrats Dane!! That is awesome!! I am right behind you and also am attempting a go at the ciggs. i am down to about 7-8 a day but have been on this many for a few months. I need to just go ct as well. Well congrats and Keep on going forward

[Dane74]

OMG!!!!! SONRISSA,  you are so sweet!!!   Thank you so  very much for having faith in me!!!!   Thank you for your trust.  

[Sonrissa]

Sincere congrats Dana! It is wonderful to hear you happy! I never doubted you for even one minute! Not once! Best wishes, dear sweet Lady!! All the happiness in the world to you!

[Dane74]

Debbie,

  I can't even begin to tell you how thankful i am of you Debbie!

[atthebeach]

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL AND AWESOME POST.
i can see your smile and hear your laughter in this post..
CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!
dana i am sooo happy for you and sooo very proud of you. it is very much ok to be proud of yourself, you did and are doing alot of work to get where you are today. i thank the Lord for hearing and answering our prayers.
continued blessings, laughter,joy and peace,
debbie

[Thebombmom001]

Congrats!!!  I am 36 days!!  Feel pretty good for the most part...can't wait to be where you are!!!  YOU ROCK!!

[Dane74]

AWEE hey Larry, i am sorry i do not recall as i was probably in an opiate state of mind...LOL   I hope you are doing well, if not reach out, i will try to help as much as i can:-)

[Bubulous]

My memory ***** lol
However I do remember you from last year.  You probably don't remember me but we helped each other alot.  I am so glad to hear that you made it.  I did not but I didn't have the knowledge I needed so I took a year and a half break from sobriety...staynig clean really was one day at a time, who figured lol
Anyway, CONGRATULATIONS!!!  You mmmmake me happy (Tropic Thunder reference)

Great to hear from you,

Larry

[laurel453]

Hug back to you all too !!!!

i don't deserve any congrats  "yet", eh...I was with your husband's team, the one who see it impossible but.... i hate it so i will try it again and again and again.......so  all the congrats are for Dane here , LOL

so i guess that i need some beating from my nephews and niece to feel ashamed of my cigs ( not that i do not feel it already so i understand you very well when your daughter meant the final push to quit, well done )

[Dane74]

Hey girl,  you are one of the girls who gave me the strength to quit all the dam opiates, you were the one who was my rock, i know what pain you endured and i felt like if you can do it, so can I!!!!!  So thank you so much for your strength, and look here i am i am 9 months clean and all i had to do was say "ouch" to a doc and i would have gotten any opiate i wanted!!!!  Yeah, you are right, it was about a year ago that i started posting, and 9 months ago i went to rehab, i tried the taper route i tried the CT route but after so many years of being on and off the opiates due to all my surgeries it just got the best of me and i lost all control and needed help and fast, i was falling and falling hard!!!  As for the smoking, its for 2 reasons one and most important, its for my kids 14 and 12, and the other is if i can quit opiates, smoking is a joke compared to that, so i did it, i did it for my kids and for my health, i have to lead by example, i do not want my poor kids to be anything like me.....

[LeaAnn807]

Great!  I'm so happy to see this.  You really had a helluva struggle, didn't you? Wasn't it about a year ago that you started posting and tapering?  Maybe I'm not thinking right, but I know that is pretty close.  (I can remember a little more clearly now! LOL)

Y'all are impressing me with quitting smoking.  That's hard for a LOT of people. My husband is a recovering alcoholic, and he says "NO WAY" to stopping smoking all at once.  I think he could do it, but he thinks not!Hahahaha I'm really proud of all of it!  Makes me SMILE! :D

Sending a hug to NC and Spain!!!

[Dane74]

After overcoming opiates, i cant imagine anything worse!!!!! I actually had a reason to CT the cigs, my 14 year old came to me and said "mom i know you smoke, i am not stupid, and i am embarrassed that you do!!!"  That's all i needed to hear, as my 2 beautiful girls do not know  of my addiction to opiates, and i thought i was doing a good job hiding the smokes, well i was so wrong, OHHH kids these days are so sticking smart, so thats what gave me me the kick in the a$$, the very next day after my daughter said she knew i smoked i through them out and i am done, I cant let her think its OK to smoke and be anything like me, the last thing i want is for my 2 precious daughters to be like me!!!!!   So i am done, with those cancer sticks and i am done with opiates, and i am trying to live a good example for my girls, its just hard, as we do not live in a perfect world, but yet i want the best for my kids and they are at very venerable ages so its so hard to be so straight and narrow, but i am doing it, and i am dam proud of it!!!!!!  

[laurel453]

i couldn't deal with the anxiety when i tried  some months ago. Now i am trying to reduce the number of them and i am so so succeding :( LOL... never give up trying is what i say, at least, i am smoking less and less. With luck, i will give them up like you have done, Dana :) i guess i am not so determined deep inside and as you say, it is a matter of being

[Dane74]

Hey y'all thanks for the support!!!!  The cigs is so easy compared to the opiates, it's a no brainer, i woke up and said "I am done" i threw away the pack of Marlboro  lights and that was it, it was that easy, i had my mind made up, and its done.  If i could only have been that determined with opiates without rehab, but then again, i learned so much in rehab, i did truly need it.  

Evolv, i was on every opiate there is, but mostly it was diluid, oxy, perks, tram, and i tapered at first, and then went to rehab.  

[Brightfutureahead]

Congrats Dana that is fantastic!