90 meetings 90 days

[samanne1987]

Today has been a little more difficult my pain is just over taking me. I'm bout to go into my 3rd meeting today. I really needed to surrender to this because I know it's the only way.

[LisaH_NYC]

Meetings have kept me sober for 17 years. Even when I stupidly thought my alcoholism meant I could take pain kills 5 years ago, I still did not pick up a drink. My dad was an alcoholic. He went to a few meetings and let the GOD thing run him away. I struggle with the God thing too, but I just substituted the group and AA as my higher power during times when I was mad at God or thought he was not there or did not exist. I still have a struggle with the god concept. But I do think meeting makers make it. I know it helped me and the 13 years that I went faithfully to meetings are the reason I am alive today. So glad you are enjoying the different kinds of meetings. I love to go to meetings when we go on vacation and on cruises and I get to meet new addicts and alcoholics. So if you need 3 a day, like medicine, go for it!
very proud of you!

[samanne1987]

VIC- I just feel that doing this is so imperative for me to make it to actually totally let my guard down and be honest with myself. Did going everyday help you?
I just feel like going everyday is not going to hurt me in anyway so what do I have to lose?

[samanne1987]

Clean- I had to live there yesterday I was so ready to relapse feeling like crap in pain. Something about bein there gave me a calm. I was only going to do the 2 I had missed most of the first meeting so I came back for the 5 they let me know they were having some really awesome speakers at the 8 so it was nice. Already building support. I feel like I have hope now. It's such a big deal. This whole thing has been really hard for me to admit to myself and I really finally feel like I have.
I would never ever had admitted to a whole huge room packed with people that I'm an alcoholic/addict. I know there are a lot of people who don't think AA is for them but its nice even if just for a support system or to hear stories just like here.
I just for once honestly feel like there is real hope. That there are so many others going through this and that we are all in together.

[VICourageous]

I sure do agree with Clean..I go to both AA/NA even if I had not had a drink in almost 9 years because of subbing drugs, but I still can be triggered at any given moment. I used to go to both 7 days a week and each and every one can be so enlightening in there own way..Great Job and Keep on going. "It works if you work it"..Ya!!!!
Bless

[clean_in_ks]

I am so delighted to hear you went to 3 in one day...hahaha!!  Good for you...what a "good" addiction to have.....lol

Years back, when I was on the road all the time for my job, OKC was one of my regular trips.  I LOVED meetings there.....what a great bunch of people.  Always felt right at home.

You are SO right about each one being different all within the same day.
Topics are different, crowds are different, and experiences shared, too.
Really happy for you......it works if you work it...and it won't if ya don't ..lol

[samanne1987]

Andie--my 3rd meeting for the day. And I'm so happy that I went to all 3. They were all different. The club I went to is a big one here in Okc that has helped aid family and friends and been a great resource.
It makes me feel like I'm on the right track and doing something huge. AA saved my dads life and I think it's what will save mine. I've got to give into the fact that I cannot change the who I am or how I think but I can learn how to deal with things a little better with time.

[toothfairie]

just keep pushing thru...you can do this...congrats on going to the meetings...they really do help so many people!  

[Andie015]

Your third meeting today? Or your third meeting in 3 days?

[samanne1987]

Thank you so much. I really appreciate everyones encouragement it means so much

[ROSYouralright]

It will get better and better as you go. Just HANG IN THERE and DON'T GIVE UP! You are doing great...