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This is the link:
http://www.fda.gov/cder/drug/infopage/subutex_suboxone/default.htm. (just copy and paste)
Hang in there my friend. I had a 20 a day, 10mg vicodon HP addiction for 4 years. I am now into my 4th week of recovery (without a relapse). IT CAN BE DONE. Just keep swinging! Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help.
"DISCOVER Vol. 20 No. 8 (August 1999)
Kicking Psychological Dependency
Dopamine makes you feel good and some people go to great lengths to get more. Ravers take Ecstasy and addicts snort cocaine just to tickle their dopamine receptors. One of the biggest obstacles to getting off drugs, former abusers say, is psychological dependency on the dopamine kick.
French researchers think they have the answer. Pierre Sokoloff of the French Institute of Health and Medical Research has found that a compound called BP897 fits right into the dopamine receptor and stops rats from acting like they need a fix. Sokoloff believes that while BP897 does nothing to stop physical addiction, it may someday help people break the habit of drug taking.
The link between drugs and dopamine isn't direct. The body is always producing small amounts of dopamine. Drugs like cocaine block the channels that suck extra dopamine back into the nerve cell. This creates a short-term high because the cell is flooded with dopamine that's not getting drained away again. However, if dopamine cleanup is repeatedly blocked through sustained drug use, the body can assume that it's making too much and stops producing natural dopamine, or kill off some of the receptors. Addicts have to take more and more drugs to stay happy.
Sokoloff trained rats addicted to cocaine to respond, like Pavlov's dogs, to a signal the same way they'd respond to a hit of cocaine. Sokoloff saw this as a model of how people's environment influences their drug-taking habits. If being in a bar reminds a drinker of how good a beer tastes, or being around cigarettes makes smokers want to smoke, the light coming on reminded the rats of how good the cocaine felt. They'd press a lever in the cage just to turn on the light, if cocaine wasn't available.
Then the rats were given doses of BP897. The chemical mimics dopamine's effects, but only partially, so the receptors get neither too much stimulation nor not enough. The mixture kept the rats from asking for cocaine when they saw the light. There are no side effects, say the researchers, except that the rats stopped wanting cocaine just from being around things that reminded them of the high.
The researchers at the French Institute of Health and Medical Research in believe BP897 may work against other kinds of drugs, too. Receptors are thickly clustered in a nerve knot in the center of the brain, just above the ears, which has long been known to harbor the center of dependence. Hopefully BP897 would blind addicts to the cues around them that said, how about a line? The effects of BP897 may not be dramatic enough to work against physical addiction, but it could help people who are addicted psychologically, such as tobacco smokers who can't quit because they need something to do, or marijuana smokers, who aren't physically addicted but still can't seem to stop."
Now that I am past the rough physical stage, I have to keep the demon 'in check' so it don't drag me back to hell. I can tell you, honestly as tough as the physical withdrawl is, it is magnified 100 fold if the psyche isn't taken out of the picture.
(depression, hoplessness, deep dark thoughts)>I felt like I was going mad!
I went to my doc and spilled my guts. I CAN'T taper (I'd eat every pill in a matter of minutes) I can't do maintenance 'cause I would get hooked on the treatment (I have a tendancy towards addiction) So I had to go it with no Narcotics.
My doctor put me on an anti-depressant (Effexor XR) and it made all the difference in the world. It took away the jitters, convulsions, leg and arm spasams. Didn't touch the flu type symptoms or the fatigue but I was comfortable 'cause I wasn't crawing in my skin. I am still taking it 4 weeks later because it also blocks the cravings for the narcotic.
Again, Squirrel / Jones...I am not a doctor (I'm a mechanical engineer) and I wouldn't dream of advising you which way to go, but I do want to say that a non narcotic treatment CAN work. If you are ready for the fight. All my best... Rob
Thats a pretty interesting read Thomas.
Do you think it will ever be available to the public???
percs
Our bodies are strange and wonderful places : )
Thanks all for your help. Looking forward to hearing from the Forum M.D. on my post.
I'm also worried after reading about Suboxone on the FDA site that my dr is NOT qualified to prescribe it for me (or that he won't even if he is).
Hopefully my insurance in some way will cover me going to an addiction specialist.
Peace
I would have to pay 400 up front for a 2 week supply and then wait around for my Ins co to reimburse me, This is ****!
Can they make IT any harder on an addict? If I had 400 I could try to buy 400 dollars worth of vikes and try a taper, but seriously, this sucks, ultimatly I ended up going inpatient for 9 days, I stayed clean 35 days and relapsed, Now I am terrified. What have I done? I called my old Ortho doc and he gave me some vikes 5mg not a few mind you. Why can't I leave this demon alone?
It feels so good. Now to top it all off, we are going to visit my mother in law today for the first time since my rehab in late January, she knows I took some of her vikes and drank most of her codiene cough syrup, I always wanted to confess to her although she knows, but I went into her dresser drawer to get the vikes, thats BAD! I could see if it were in a med cab or a kitchen Cab. Time to pay the piper, I hope she will not bring it up, I am not ready to deal with it right now.
Any suggestions guys? I have not posted on here in a while but have still read everything, I remember how good I felt after getting out of Rehab now its all shot to hell.
Love to all and God Bless Baddgirl( Jan)
Will BP897 help me? I got the right nickname for it. :)
Hang in there because being sober is great!
It's not just being sober either...It's having control of your life again! That's what it's all about! It's about NOT waking up and wondering what excuse to give your doctor or your friends to get more pills. It's about NOT opening your Vicodon bottle seeing 5 pills left and feeling dread cover you like a shroud.
I was taking 5 pills 4 times a day (10mg vicodon hp) for 4 years daily.
Three times a week I would have to leave work (without permission of my super) to make sure I made it to the doctor before he closed...Some times I didn't make it. During these times, I practically locked myself in my study and didn't come out...Then I would go into work late the next day so I could make the doctor's office my first trip. ALL OF THAT IS OVER NOW!
But please think about NOT going this alone. I went to see my MD and he gave me an anti-depressant that supressed the depression and jitters (restless arms and legs too) If you have trouble sleeping, he can give you a sedative as well.
How you do this is your business...But we will be here to talk. I am four weeks on the wagon without a single relapse and my cravings are very much under control (same anti-depressant) It's a long way to go but we can do it together...OK?
All my best, Rob
my name is michael , i am an addict i was addicted to speed(meth)
a couple quater t's a day and qualudes back in the 70's.
im 43 i started useing when i was 12 and was in and out of aa and na for 12 years.
after two divorces, 50 arrest, losing a few jobs. at the age of 24 i found myself at the end of the road.
i started going back to N.A. meetings and got involved and made a commitment to just go to na, this was a suggestion from my father who has been in aa for 38 years and sober the whole time.
i stayed clean for 16 years, got my two kids back from both marrages, moved to the suburbs and raised my kids, my eldest
got marriedat 18 and she had a son my 5 year old grandson.
my youngest is on a full scholarship at a newyork collage.
well i wound up on vikes in 1998 for liget pain rotator cuff
operations, i took them as prescribed for almost a year 4 a day.
then i wound up abusing them , due to some people close to me dying, the next thing i knew i was taking up to 15 vikes a day
and i did not get any high from them , they only made me able to function and feel normal.
i fround this fourm last yearin jan and learned a lot about what was going on, with all my experence staying clean , i was cluless when it came to opates, well i found out about the thomas receipe and got right on ot and it helpd a lot.
the 1st week of withdrawls was very painful , the restless leg and body was a very difficult thing to get through.
the lack of energy and severe depression was much easier due to the help from the vitamine's in thomas receipe.
the time i tred to kick on my own befor i found this fourms
always failed because i could never deal with the severe depression and the totol lack of energy.
i hade to go clod turkey , tapering for me was a complete
failure every time, i was just a glutton.
recovery/ clean time for me is about finding a path that works.
i come here to the fourm still and share my experence,
i also still go to na meetings. keeping the focus off of myself, . helping others has been a key to my recovery. belonging to a homegroup in na has been very important.
there are some groups that just suck, so it is important to find a home group where the people there are talking recovery and
not just telling war stories.i belong to a good group in na
where the people talk about whatthey are doing to make the changes in thier lives, in order to get better and stay better,
na should be a place where there is some ENTHUSIASM.
ENTHUSIASM is the gasoline that makes true recovery run.
as i have stayed clean life has always gotten better,
everything always works out. when i used when i was younger
i was a poster child for murphy's law , what ever could go wrong did., i used to get flat tires every week.
looking back it was because i used all my money for drugs and used to buy 5 dollar tires at the junk yard.
when i got clean i bought 4 steel belted radiels and never got a flat.
looking back , i realize i used drugs because i hated my life and myself when i got clean it took a while before i started to feel better, tho i was doing real good i still felt bad.
my feeling finally caught up with my reality
in recovery i learned it was alright to feel bad or have a bad day or even a bad nmonth, as i stay clean and plantgood seeds good things begin to unfold in life.
they say in na , you can have a life beyond your wildest dreams
i have found this to be true, but it takes time and commitment.
one thing about staying clean and being honest and living a good
life, i dont have to worry about getting locked up. i always hated hand cuffs. there is great freedom in being clean and living the good life. i am very thank ful / gratitude is one of
the best things i ever learned, along with the principles,
of acceptance, openmindedness, humilty, willingness,
i approch each day by looking for the good in it, i beleive the best in everyone i meet, here and in daily life.
i have noticed that people who lie don't trust anyone,
people who steal think everyone el;se is stealing.
that the guilty man runs where noboy chase's him.
i accept people where they are, and do not jude them.
i learned the way i judge others is the way i judge myself,
so allow people to make mistakes and be wrong.
i try not to measure myself to much , because i find myself beating myself up with the mesuring stick.
living just for today is an art.
i realize i am an addict and find myself substituting the drugs with other things like work, reading, food, spending money,
at times gambling. i need to keep a check on myself
and ask my self where i am wrong, i don't blame other's
for my problems blame is just another form of denile.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hippy
I've also heard the street price for Oxycontin, Percoset and Vicodin are quite high, but that some people get prescriptions by going to different doctors.
I don't know what the relation of the pain meds are to each other. Can relief to addiction be obtained by taking a different narcotic? (Taking Tylenol 3 with codeine instead of Vicondin?)
My father had surgery on both knees recently and the doctor prescribed Darvocet, which I've had and I consider worthless as a pain reliever. We talked to the doctor and switched him to Vicodin ES immediately, which he likes better than Oxycontin. But can Darvocet provide any relief from a Vicodin addiction?
Thomas
Yo Tony: Lizbet said "But for they grace of God go I" (loosely quoted). Addiction happens. A 10-15 pill habit starts w/ 1 pill.
Like a Bulimic, I binged and purged. Some days I would have 1or 2 Vikes so other days I could splurge on Vikes. The 10-15 # was, because, given my druthers, that woulda been my access level.
As it twere, I had legit access by scrip for 150/p/month. (much less than my desired amt of 300-450/p/month)
Cost you ask? Dirt cheap. Cheaper than a six of Imports: $7.00 (US) dollars.
The question you ask.. I liken to asking an alcoholic why he ordered another bottle of wine. Or a smoker: 3 packs a day? How do you do it? Or asking someone: mixing barbs and narcotics w/ antihistimines; isn't that dangerous?
Last nite, hrs were lonnnnng, and yr questions rolled around in my dreamless cravings. I wont say anything else. I have to get rid of anger and addictions. Somehow.
It's time for cards.. anyone play Spades? And FOX news.. now THEY (FOX and Yahoo spades.. are good.. i heard this joke on FOX:
A group of Saddam look alikes were brought together and told there was good and bad news.
Good News: Saddam is still alive so you are all still employed.
Bad News: He lost an arm and a leg.
Other than that.. me w/ a new pet.. Someone asked a friend who owns a Beautiful white shephard.. Would you shoot your pet for a Million Dollars?
Reply (instant): "Up the ass? Or between the eyes?"
Thx again, hippee for your last post~
Rode w/ C.
started with 4 a day for about a year
then they did nothing for the pain so i took 4 more
in the afternoon at one time. a fewmoths later
i was takinf 5 when i woke up just to get around
5 at lunch and night . at this poaint there was no high
just took them to get rid of pain and was just out of my mind.
they were 4 dollars each on the street.
it is an insane way of life, i hated it , and myself for doing it.
being clean is like cool breezz on a summer morning with
a hit of morning glories in the air. true freedom/ from the
nightmare of addiction which sucked the life right out of me.
peace!!!!!!!!!!hippy
Love, Lisabet
there is a scene where the 3 doctors are watcthing
the inmate cheif, he is looking out the window at
birds nest full of baby birds, the doctors comment
amongist themselves to each other that he is getting better
because he is looking outside of himself, particuly nature.
he was being restored to sanity.
when i was 13 i, used to take food to a guy who was meatally ill, too the point he did not even respond to conversation, looking back he was so absorbed withen himself, his eyes might as well have been turned inwards,he live at my fathers halfway house.
as for my own experence with this type of stuff. i remember
driving down a 295 a high way in north jersey, i was clean about 9 months and i was 26 years old and i looked off the side of the road in the distance and i noticed this 1 tree, it sat there in the middle of a cornfeild and it was leafless , but i was overcome by it beauty, reaching up to the sky, i pulled over to the side of the road and stared at it. i remember ifelt like iwas looking into my salvation.
i had never taken the time in my life to notice anything
in nature, i was so caught up with myself and my seemingly endless mission to serve self.
at that point i understood what those doctores were talking
about in the book, i was getting better too.
these days ,18 years later clean agian i enjoy the simlpe things
like a morning cup of coffee in the sun. or the comfort of my bed
at night , and just enjoying being tired, and waking up rested.
not wakeing up and feeling like a 90 year old man.
peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!sanity begins when we make the same mistakes and we realize nothing is going to change.
unless we change.
THANK YOU
AKIRA
Thomas
Last Thursday I went to my doc and came clean. Hoping to be "weaned", I was disappointed (actually devastated) that my Doc wouldn't take that approach. After consulting with the resident detox specialist, here's what I was given:
Valium -- 5mg (1-2, three times a day)
Catapres Patch (Clonidine)
Darvocet -- 3 times/day (for pain)
Bentyl -- as needed for stomach cramps
OTC Immodium (for reasons known to most here)
I left the office with major anxiety, being very skeptical that ANYTHING could stave off my impending withdrawals.
I took my new meds, got up the next morning AND PLAYED 18 HOLES OF GOLF!!!!....a business thing I was certain that I would have to cancel.
I'm just past that 1st critical week, and the worst I've felt is being a little "drag-ass" tired as the day wears on. No diarrhea,cramps, and VERY LITTLE edgyness and dysphoria.
Doc told me that this particular "cocktail" has recently become recognized as an effective detox treatment. I can wholeheartedly attest to it.
Do yourself a huge favor, and bring it up with your Doctor. Also recognize the downside in that because this detox has been "easier", the deterrent factor of painful withdrawal isn't there, so the temptation for later relapse is a concern.
Good luck, I really hope that I've helped.
PEACE/LOVE/UNDERSTANDING
I've been eating about 15-20 Norco (10mg Vicodin) for about 5 years. Prior to that I ONLY ate 4 7.5mg ES daily.
I am married with 3 kids and have a good job. I now have pancreatitis that they say usually stems from alcoholism. I don't drink a drop, I'm confident that the acetametaphine in the Norco/Vicodin is what is causing this.
The biggest problem I have with quiting is that I really enjoy eating my Norco. I only eat one and a half or two at a time, but it's like every hour or so. I want to quit so I don't leave my kids without a dad and my wife without a husband. I would do anything for my family,and this is quite possibly the most important thing I could ever do for them.
I can't go to a 1 week, much less multiple week rehab- my job would fire me. My wife of course knows of my addiction and is TOTALLY fed up.
I tried to quit 2 years ago. You guys know the withdrawl symptoms, so I won't list them. I made it almost 4 days. I'm telling you- when I said "hell with it" and took two vicodins, I figured I would feel great. I did in the since that my withdrawl pains started to ease, but I felt more like I let my family down then ever before!
I am a mechanic. I beleive in evaluating a problem, following a procedure for fixing the problem and then moving on to the next problem.
PLEASE! I need the procedure.
I am a 32 year old man, I have always been successful, but I feel like I'm going to fail at this again. How do I fix this?
PLEASE!
i don't know what to say because you said your biggest problem is you enjoy them so much... you really have to want to quit!!!
so... i don't know if you want someone to tell you how to "want" to quit (which no one can.. other than to say you'll probably end up losing your wife.. let alone all the health problems you will face, and sounds like are facing already..)
if you are going to quit, and if you can taper down, that's going to be your best bet. if you taper, then by the time you are down to 0 your w/d symptoms will be easier. if not, you can still go c/t from 15-20 - alot of people here have, but you know it is going to suck... but it CAN be done.... like i said, alot of folks have done it ...
search "The Thomas Recipe" up in the search engine above.. it will help. you'll probably need 3-4 days of being able to do nothing (if you can) to get thru the initial w/d period.. also, i've been told that a b.p. medication called clonodine is amazing for w/d's (altho i have not tried it.) as well, a bunch of us swear glaceua vitamin water reallyhelps during this time (along with everything else...)
and - if you think you need it - you can go get on Suboxone, which is a drug used to get off of opiates.
i would strongly suggest you get some support too.. whether it be NA or AA meetings, counceling - something. you gotta really want quit man, and stay quit!
i'm not even sure i answered your question... did i??
i wish you very very well with this...
-mj
I know that I must sound like a real ***, but I beleive in being honest- at all costs.
So, my question to myself (that hopefully you and others will be able to help me answer):
Is it possible to kick this **** for the benefit of my family, even though I enjoy it or must I convince myself that I don't enjoy it first?
Man, I want to quit this ****. I do.
my guess would be no though, to be honest. i hate to tell you that, but it's what i really think.
and the truth is, alot of us got to where we actually ended up hating it - that love hate thing, cause we really weren't getting"high" anymore, just chasing it - so at the end, i didn't really love it at all. just maybe 20 minutes of it a day...
i think it's good you're honest, for sure. but man... if you don't wanna do it for you... maybe the only thing you can pray for at this point is some divine intervention. something bigger than you stepping in... i'm not a 12 stepper (not for any reason other than i'm.. not, i haven't been on it a long time..) but even CArl Jung said when it came to addiction (at least alcoholics) he even felt that for most, only that - some sort of "spirit save", was gonna do it.
or you gotta figure out how to want to. i'm afraid if you don't REALLY want to... you'll just use again.
maybe try some meetings??? ah buddy... that's all i got. i really don't know.
if you don't get more (better..) feedback too, try reposting again as well..
good luck buddy... i'll be up a bit longer, but i will also be back tomorrow...
again, good luck, this is a good place to come when you wanna quit... seriously. alotta people to help..
-mj
I had to call my familiy for help promising I would never touch the **** again. No one would expect all this by looking at me. I've been told I just look like the pretty, nice girl next door. Smart, friendly, athletic... thats part of how I justified my addiction. I'll quit someday and be successfull like nothin ever happened. Well, I can say that I haven't touched heroin in almost 2 years but have got strung back out on the vics. It started at 3-4 a day and is now up to over 10 of the 10mgs a day. I have to buy them off the street cause no doc will give them to me anymore. $4 a pill. I work my *** off at a restarant averaging about $70-80 a day and i struggle finacially barely ably to pay my bills or buy groceries. All I care about is having enough pills to get me throught the day so I can at least fuction. I dont even get a high off it anymore and haven't for a long time.
But here's the good news. This is day 3 for me without it. I really dont feel that bad. Trust me i know what withdrawal feels like. I did it from heroin twice cold turkey without and other drugs. But this time I want to stop BAD! This is not how a 24 yr old should have to live or anyone for that matter. I want my life back. The difference this time is I've been taking about 1/2 to 1 mg of xanax twice a day and 1mg right before bed along with nyquil and imodium (immodium). Im drinking lots of cranberry juice, forcing myself to eat, bathe, and get outside even if for a drive or short walk. exercise too. it releases the endorphins in your brain that makes you feel happiness and gives you energy. I honestly have had very little withdrawal symptoms at all this time.
I planned this out, took a week off work, and have my wonderful boyfriend at my beck and call. I wouldn't try to do this alone. Just his unconditional love and support makes me feel better. Well, I remember the second and third day being the most painful from my past withdrawals so I guess I'm pretty much in the clear knock on wood. I've been trying to think of the things I use to do that made me happy before I became addicted and stive for that life again. I wish you all the best of luck and if I can do it you can do it. That doesn't mean I'm fearless, I'm still terified. But I love my job, my apartment, and I'm going back to school to finally finish this time. I don't want to be alone forever because of a pill bottle. **** that, I'm stronger than that. I feel like if I put half the amount of effort doing good things with my life than i did chasing pills I would probably be a millionaire. I will be praying for eacha nd everyone of you, Just know you're not the only one going through this hell on earth vicious cycle, That helps me to know.
Peace and Love
I'm also on Paxil for lifelong depression. Works great, but I understand the w/d's are hell, so I'm sticking with it. Xanax helps with cravings, but it puts me to sleep, and I'm sick of spending my life either craving or napping.
I want out of this chemical prison. If only doctors knew what they were doing when they prescribe opiates for temporary pain. I'd rather deal with post-surgical or accident pain than this addiction.
No one has mentioned this, but the constipation is horrible. That's one thing that keeps me from taking more. Anyone else with this problem?
My psychiatrist prescribed Catapres, but I could only handle it for two days because it was bringing back the Big D (depression) that I've battled all my life.
I feel your pain, NEEDHELPNY. I don't think you should try CD because you're just setting yourself up for failure. You've already done great by getting down to 3-5 a day, about where I am. My insurance won't pay for detox, either. It's hell, isn't it? I'm just glad to find out I'm not alone.
My question is.. do you guys think these are withdrawal symptoms or side affect from the new meds I was prescibed?
My doc was pretty ticked at me and she didn't even know about the Vicoden I was getting from my pain management doctor. I had no idea they could get info from the pharmacist...I thought privacy laws dictated against that. As far as I know she didn't contact the pharmacy. Which is pretty funny since she kept calling in the vicaden when I called... except for that last time. As it is... I could still get some from my pain management doctor because I haven't called him in at least a month..
You are new and do not understand that you are posting in a thread from three years ago. Let's start from the beginning.
Go out to the forum. On the top left, you will see "Post a question". Click on that and follow along. Post exactly what you did here. There are lots of ppl here who will answer you and help.
This post will disappear so you have to start a new one.
Hope to see you out there.
Brian
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My experience is not too good I quit tramadol and vicodin 19 days ago and I'm tapering down slowly the xanax and I have been experiencing nasty muscle cramps all over my back, shoulders, neck and even chest, besides a daily migraine, go figures. I really don't know from which medication I quit or am quiting are those withdrawal symptoms, so I can't point out at one medication. Just taper slowly and get into the amino acids. Good luck
Bob