A qustion about quitting percs...

Hello everyone,

Well, I'm back.  I quit posting over a year ago and thought I had everything figured out...nope...far from it.  I'm back on the percs 10/325x300 month...and dilaudid...8mgx120 pills a month.  

I finished everything about a week ago and haven't had anything since.  However, I'm taking tramadol 4-6 pills daily and using neurontin for the restless leg syndrome.

Today is my first day of not taking anything.  No Tramodol, no nothing.  So far feeling ok...hazy for sure, but I've dealt with the sweats, aches and RLS for about 3 days...last night I slept decent.

So with all this in mind, what should I do?  what should I look for or prepare for?  I REALLY am going to quit this time...I have to!!  I'm tired of living a life that is dependent on pills!  If I want to be ANYTHING in life, then I need to get off these things and be normal again!  i look at my children and how they look up to me as the greatest man in the world and it breaks my heart!!!!!!  I love them more than anything in the world and I don;t want to accidently die from taking drugs anymore!!!

Thanks guys for listening....I gotta go...my eyes are tearing up and I'm at work!!

Love to all of you!

[littlebit667]

Welcome back?  I know it is hard to come back and admit a relapse, but that is what the forum is for.  I understand relapse..be there, done that and have the T-Shirt.  I went back and read your last post about chantix, etc.  You sounded really good.  I guess my question is did you do any aftercare??
NA, AA, private therapy??  Could that be the key to your staying clean??
You know the drill??  I hope you are able to get there now.
Take care.

[susanzach]

"NORMAL IS JUST A SETTING ON A WASHING MACHINE"!!!!

OHHHH, how I GET the KID stuff. I quit drinking 15 years ago. Managed to stay sober WITH ALOT OF HELP for about 9 plus years. When I was 81/2 years sober my husband left me for a married woman he worked with. And even with that horrifying knowledge i didn't run right back to the Booze. . . . and that my friend was GOD!!!
Anyways 1 day I had what you would describe as a normal day. nothing great/nothing bad. When i decided to pour myself a drink. now, I was about half way into it when my oldest son walks in unexpectantly and starts bragging to ALL his buddies how wonderful i am for staying sober this long!!! Talk about feeling low. . . . It was like I had to look up to see the bottom.

Anyways. . . . got right back to a meeting and "CAME CLEAN. I was told God would tell me when the right time to tell my son. . . . and Yes that opportunity DID come up about 6 months later. i explained He was "MY angel" cause if he had NOT arrived at that EXACT moment I had No idea where I would be today. He was about 21 then and had crocodile tears running down his face. Looking back on it i can honestly say it was the most intimate moment I ever shared with him.
Kids are absolutely amazing to me. I have no idea how old yours are. . . . but they get Forgiveness better than us so called Adults!!!! I know my kids have completely forgiven me for ALL the destruction i created. yet, at the same time I was also able to prove to them there WAS a WAY OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE!!!!!
So don't beat yourself up too bad over this. . . . and Trust Me when I say i know this is easier said than done. I was a complte professional at beating myself up.
Glad to hear you had the courage to come back. . . . . You will be in my thoughts and prayers!!!
Peace!!

[Ann2497]

See if your dr will give you Clonidine.  It helps with opiate WD.  It helped me alot.

[dominosarah]

First off be very careful with the tramadol, it comes with its own set of problems.  Usually tapering down off them is recommended.  Do you have any plans for aftercare?  I would highly recommend that.  We learn the tools we need to get and stay clean.  

If you are getting the pills from a doctor it is time to fess up and tell him/her what is going on.  The truth will set you free.