I haven't posted in a long time. Had some bad experiences with one person but I'm going to blow it off.
So....on pain meds for maybe 20 years, off and mostly on.
Prayed for Divine intervention. Took a pill last Sunday and had a horrible allergic reaction. The same drug I've been on for 2 years....oxy. Itching, throat closing up....I've been in shock one other time from a drug. ( had an out of body experience, but that's a different story)
So. I'm alone most of the time. Terrified to take even 1 for fear of this happening again and asking oh where is my eppy pin.
I'm sure it happened for 2 reasons. I prayed. And, my cancer is much worse and my immune system crashed.
So, for whatever reason, on day 6 and have no desire to take one.
I wouldn't recommend the cancer approach, but I do believe in Divine intervention. Just my thoughts.
Don't ask me if I threw them away. I gave them to husband. Pain clinic said if I ask to get off of them, I probably wouldn't get them back. (Idiots). I have terminal cancer. I will need them down the road.