Can you not edit once you've posted something?
Thank you for responding. I really do have ADHD, for reasons I'd say relate to bad parenting. I didn't know I was this smart until I got on Adderall; because my parents never told me. They're uneducated, divorced, they never pushed school on me, and although they are good people they never really taught me much of anything. I'm seeing a therapist now who is telling me I was neglected and lived my life in depression. I know it's true, but it's hard to accept because I was able to function and get by. I didn't know how bad I had it, I didn't know how much happier my life could be. Again, parents.
For as far back as I can remember I used to sit in class and not listen. I would daydream because I was so damn bored (and I never understood what was going on). I thought I didn't listen because I was too stupid to understand. This is what led me to have low self-esteem, and to never ask for help, to just fight through and make A's and B's even though I never learned anything. So for this reason I am behind, I am developmentally behind, ADHD is a developmental disorder and it does exist. I think stimulants are becoming increasingly over-prescribed, as does everyone, but in my case they have increased the quality of my life x1000. Now I need to learn how to regulate them, which is why I made an appointment with the college psychiatrist for next week. If I'm going to continue taking these drugs I need to learn how they work otherwise I may do irreparable damage to my brain, and that is a scary thought. Stimulants have been out for 50+ years now, the studies say the damage to neurons is miniscule, or none at all. But I need to learn for myself, to truly understand the risk I am taking.
Perhaps ADHD brains are different; perhaps school was not fit for me, perhaps school was too easy(and it was), perhaps if our society was different ADHD would not need to exist. I'm seeing a therapist now who is telling me I was neglected and lived my life in depression. I know it's true, but it's hard to accept all the same how much I have wasted my life because of a bad upbringing, without having been diagnosed with ADHD. Although, I am grateful my parents didn't put me on these pills at the young ages they do now; that issue, I believe, is truly disturbing.
I took adderol for a brief period when I was about 22 years old. I did not have add or adhd, but I took it for energy and to get things done.
It changed my life too. All of a sudden, I was supermom. Cooking, cleaning, working, exercising, partying, volunteering, whetever I needed to do was done. With energy and time to spare.
I dont know what it does to the brain, but I know it does something.
I would go go go for about 5 days, then crash for 2 or 3.
When I finally realized I had a problem with it, I quit cold turkey. It took 3 days asleep to get off it.
Ill never forget it, and Ill never go back.
I been told its like cocaine in a pill, and Id have to agree.
You need to talk with your dr, and decide if youd be better off without it.