Advice for a year of Oxy

[hiskidd]

I've been on oxy ocs for 13 months. I've never exceeded 60mgs in a day (10 mos of 20s twice a day, then 3 months of 30s twice a day.) I ran out of ocs and didn't care to use the ops. I had some Opana 10s, and when I took my last oxy on Sunday, I used two of the Opana 10s on Monday. Today (Tuesday), I haven't taken anything. In fact, I flushed the Opana and about 8 ox ops I had left down the toiled. I feel horrible. My back. My mind. My stomach. I'm not sure how to cope or how long it will last. I have three kids - 6, 4, and 2 - and don't want to ruin their Christmas being locked in my room sweating. My wife is trying to help, but I keep pushing her away. Any advice?

[hiskidd]

Thank you both. I just did 30 minutes on the treadmill. First time in years. 20 solid minutes then 10 cool down. Now I'm hungry :) I'm posting this for encouragement and mainly so I will REMEMBER!

Love you guys. I mean it.

David

[Dav125]

You will be feeling much better soon. Faith my friend, faith. Laurel has given you excellent advice. I am still in the midst of some confusion but experienced enough to know that one, this site educated me faster than anything possibly could have within a weeks time of finding it, and two, as hopeless as things feel at times, remember one thing..It is the result of medications that were not fully explained as to what they truly can do to a person in time..These swings, these emotions, these days of uncertainty are just byproducts of this process we have to go thru to rid ourselve's of these god aweful feelings that make us question our sanity at times. There's one statement I always use at times I'm not sure.."this will pass"...And it will. Don't drive yourself nuts trying to make it happen, just let it happen. Because its headed your way :)

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[laurel453]

baby steps... we can only ask for baby steps but even if they are small ones, they mean a lot.. for instance, i see you say that "you just want to be better".... four days ago you would have said " i won't never be better", you see ? baby steps, david :)

now, i see you are looking at the treadmill ... ok, stop looking at it and just walk a little, some of the stuff that slow our walking forwards is that we put our expectations too high at first... you don't need walking nor running for miles, just exercising a little your muscles for now , ok? :) Hope your family will feel better soon, make some ponche anti colds for all of you  and drink it together while you relax on the couch after walking a little on this treadmill .. hot milk+honey+cinnamon will help you also with sleep ;)

[hiskidd]

It's very hard - with all of life's responsibilities - to even get your mind in the "right" frame. I don't remember how I did life before oxy. It's weird. Almost surreal.

Got a little sleep last night, but it took sleep aids. I want to try and go away from those. Most of us have at least a little bit of a cold in my house now. It's gray outside and a little rainy, so it makes the gloom worse.

I just want to be better.

[laurel453]

YESSS don't overthink :) Lol ok, i would not worry very much about PAWS in your case, you have been on the pills for 13 months so those PAWS are not for you to worry about now, i would think :) I encourage you again to eat as healthy as you can, a protein rich food, there are foods that help with dopamine and Ltryptophan, a whey protein full of vitamins and aminos  as gnarly said,  would be good. Make a routine every day about taking care of your body and spirit... meditation, acupuncture, stretching, hot baths, walks, a healthy diet, aminos and vitamins will help also healing your spirit, trust me :)  

Problems with sleep are really very common... a hot bath before going to bed, the hylands restful legs, some relaxing tea as a routine will help you too and always some good positive thoughts ... if you are taking the melatonin, make sure you take it on the dark, this is the way it works, btw.

[quitinoxys]

A big congrats on ALL your clean time I know how rough it is. You posted that your body can't absorb calcium, have you tried taking magnesium and vitimin D with it as that helps you body to absord CA. I have been follwing your and Davids (hisskidd) journey through this and you both have shown great courage and should both be VERY proud of yourselves as I am of both of you. I know how hard and frustrating this journey is but the prize at the end is well worth it. So keep on keepin on. God Bless both of you----Rick