Advice to stop using cocaine please?

Hi everyone. My name is Issam and at the moment i am very worried about my situation where almost every week i go ahead and call my dealer and buy cocaine .I went from buying a 0.7 gram bag to three bags a night. It has become an ongoing habit. Every time I drink i think of it and eveytime theres a party it also comes to mind. I have been using occasionally cocaine for the past 4 years on and off. Im not sure waht makes me wanna do it knowing that what goes up must come down and the feeling after is just horrible. I hate it and it makes me kinda depressed. Anyways this week i noticed that i have been using more cocaine than i useto dealing with loneliness of moving to a new city also having trouble being away from my family and good friends and stuff. im 25 years old and it feels like i have so much to do and i cant keep up and at the moment it makes me think its that stupid powder that makes feel awsome for several hours but its negatives are just so bad . My brother back in Beirut use to be a heroin user and my dad and i helped him through his withdrawal that wasnt easy and took lots of family effort and patience. I remember this one time he was taking a hit of heroin infront of me once and i asked him how does it feel like ? he said im your older brother and i love u so much and would never want u to even try how this feels like. you dont want to know he sais. I took his word and being from a city of extreme freedom and accessable everything i never even got close to it for i saw its symptoms and waht it leads to. Anyways i move to the states and i see myself smoking lots of pot and then used cocaine for the first time out of curiosity and it felt different. i think i liked it for it made me more fun more sociable and very confident not that i am not in real life but its just a boost of power that i kinda liked. last night i did cocaine again and couldnt sleep until 7 in the morning and went to work right away . being a shoe salesperson at a high end retail store i feel super energized for about 24 hours and then crashhh. 2 days later i feel like my body just needs some rest which makes sense since the drug powers your body. Today i have a concern looking at my bank statement and knowing that i work hard for my money and how much i spent on cocaine for only this one week. its crazy 360 dollars and that does not include the tabs that i open at clubs and while high money is just whatever.regret comes the next day.I consider myself a hard working independent american that loves his country and want to do the best for myself and for my country and not do this ****. i always regret it the next day again and again and it makes me feel not right . anyways i know i have a good will and a strong capability of just deleting the guys number and just forget about it .im thinking maybe smoking more pot for i think it calms me down and makes me more interested in watching a movie or hanging out indoors and not going crazy. At the moment my body feels week and my back hurts like after taking ecstacy and i dont like it . i feel like im bringing myself down. please the fact taht i keep this fact away from people that are close to me including friends im here in my bedroom googling a question to good people that can give me good advice on what to do next week. is there a specific activity?sports?game?whatever it is im an open guys and ready to get my life back for excelling and getting things done like finishing school. please whoever is reading this i need advice on waht to do.I think im lost. i have never done this but i think its a gr8 idea to branch out and talk to real people out there that have been through waht im going through now .

thank you all for sharing your ideas
best of luck
issam :)  

[donnamk]

Hi reading your post really hits home , i took up playing guitar well learning i think that helps ..Best of look matey

[marx110]

friend  I myself if fighting to quite cocaine , the first thing you mst know is is what addiction is and from where it origins. Adiction (addiction) is beeing obssesed on something or someone it all starts as a habbit untill it becomes adiction (addiction) or obssesed on it. next time you going to buy coca buy to extra bags of mariwana , the mariwana has a tranquilize effect and the coca has a hyper effect . when those days of craving arrise everyweek I try to avoid it I do anything to control my nerves and if I fail and go buy the coke I buy less but more mariwana ,the mariwana is not as bad as coca. Mariwana wont give you SEX drive ,see coca can make one become adicted to pornography and prostitutes make us waste all our money in this ****. Try to break your habbit with a softer drug ,break the habbit of allways buy coca but never buy a worser drug . after you become adict to mariwana you will handle the cravings better because the cravings become mariwana cravings that are not so heavy like coca. After this period you can switch to cigarret or any other medication and never go back to coca try never to go there again , it kills the soul then breaks your life ....

[atthebeach]

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