Ahhhhhhhhhh.....

I cannot sleep my legs are so restless its killing me. 40 hours now and I am detoxing in front of my boyfriend who has no clue. Thsi is horrible. Some words to keep me hangin in there please.

[lil_rab2005]

Man, I know that feelin' oh too well.  Just keep thinkin' that that part will be over soon.  The best you can do (and definitely easier said than done but know that I've been there too) is to get up and move around.  You can't sleep so why bother tryin'.  It makes me feel even worse when I try to fall asleep and can't cuz of the restless legs... or if you're like me it's restless body cuz it's in my whole body.  What makes me feel better is to get up and stretch, exercise the most you can then when you sit down, you actually feel a bit better.  When it comes back in a few minutes get up and do it again.  Then you'll see that some time passed as well.  You are in my prayers and I'm here for ya for a while but fixin' to go to bed.  I've been clean for 10 days now and no physical withdrawals... just thinkin' about those damn pills which is almost just as bad sometimes :(  Take care and god bless, hugs, Lil.

[CentralFLA]

thankyou.  I really appreciate it.  I am ready to fight it, and cannot wait for this part to be over.
thanks again.

[lil_rab2005]

You are so very welcome.  Thanx for being on this late at nite.  I can't hardly sleep either anymore.  I'm in central florida also.  Next to cocoa beach... if you don't mind me askin', where abouts are u? Lil.

[grievingwidow]

Hi, hey not much advice, just know that someone else cares.  I remember the restless leg thing so well, maybe one of the worst aspects of withdrawal.  I agree with lil_rab, why stay in bed when you cannot sleep anyway.  I do hope most of your discomfort/agony is over soon, at least every day that passes is just one more day closer to "being normal" again.  I read your earlier post about your prescription problem and I know you must be a nervous wreck.  I have thought about trying something like that many times but thank God I never did.  I have called in prescriptions for myself, but I was working at the doctors office at the time and I lucked out with nothing seeming suspicious as I had called in so many prescriptions in my lifetime that I sounded like a pro at it I guess.  I only did it a couple of times without my doctor's permission but I remember all too well how nervous I was when I got to the pharmacy.  A coworker who worked in the adjoining office to us though forged an RX on her doctor's pad and got caught.  Before they had a chance to inform her employer/doctor, she had checked herself into Rehab, and they did not file charges.  With it being a felony, I would do all I could to avoid having that on your record.  My daughter has a felony from just having an empty baggy in her purse with residue of speed (stupid mistake when she was 18), now she cannot get a decent job or even a decent place to live, it has ruined her life.  I know you are so sick right now and do not feel like all this "reading" but please let us know you are doing tomorrow, and the next day, and the next day, etc.

Good Luck.  So sorry you are having to deal with this, I really am.

Love, Cindy

[Crispy]

I'm in Deltona, FL so im not far from you. let me know if u need a friend close. Ive been through the whole restless body dont let me speak to soon im going to try and sleep right now hopefully i can get to sleep and stay asleep. night and be strong <3

[lil_rab2005]

thanx so much... i wish you restful and wonderful sleep... if you can't I'll prolly still be here if you wanna talk lol. take care, hugs, Lil.  oh and you're right, you're not too far away at all.

[kimmieb]

Wow, my sister-in-law and her family live right in Deltona, FL.  Small world,huh?  Hope you all got some sleep! :-)  ~~~K.

[lil_rab2005]

Wow a very small world lol... no i didn't get any sleep yet but thank you anyways lol.  I hope you had a restful nite though.  How are you?  Take care and hugz, Lil.  :)

[kimmieb]

Hi, Lil.  Sorry to hear about your sleeping struggles :-(  Believe me, I can relate to the utmost degree.  It sucks, doesn't it?  I did sleep for awhile tonight (with the help of some medication I take for sleep -- been taking it for years though)....but have been awake since about 3:00 a.m.  (and it's now 6 a.m. central time -- Chicago area).  Anyway, I had my first appt. with pain mgmt doc yesterday.  I don't know what I was expecting....and I guess part of me was still afraid to be completely honest with him re: the lortabs.  BUT, I feel much more comfortable in his care than in the care of my neurologist (I can't believe I went to that guy for as many years as I did -- I guess it was because he just kept writing out the scripts....)  Anyway, I'm fairly new to the forum (about a month or so), and I'm still learning people's names and stories and trying to keep everyone and everything straight.  I'm sorry I can't remember yours.....although I know I've seen your name a lot....and so I know you must have tons of friends here :-)  Are you struggling with your addiction or are you clean or thinking about quitting?  Where are you in your journey?  If you're up and feel like writing, I'm here until I have to start getting ready for work....   How's the weather in Deltona this morning?  

Blessings for an awesome day, ~~~K.

[kimmieb]

Hey....I just re-read your post above....and see that you're 10 days clean....way to go!!!!  Wow.  That's an accomplishment.  I hear ya on the mental part though.  I quit once for about 12 days.  I didn't experience too many physical w/d's (I've been on lortabs for, I almost hate to say it, 10 years now???), but haven't taken huge amounts.....yet.  I find myself creeping up on my dosage little by little, so now I'm taking about 3x what I had been taking, but anyway.....it's more the mental aspect that I struggle with every single day.  I'm tough and I can handle a lot of physical pain and discomfort....but the mental part is such a struggle for me.....

Well, I just wanted to let you know I got myself up-to-date on where you are in your recovery.  Have you ever taken anything to help you sleep in the past, I mean specifically medication for sleep??

~~~K.

[lil_rab2005]

Thx for the reply and thanx so much for the encouragement.  Yeah, I quit one time for about 12 days and started right back up so I'm not gonna get my hopes up this time, just gonna take it day by day and i hope with gods help and everyone here and my family I can do it this time.  I wish you luck and prayers as well.  Thank you very much.  

Oh and I think it's Crispy who said he is in Deltona but I'm not too far away from there.  I'm in Titusville near Cocoa beach.  Very small world lol.

Yeah, the worst of the physical withdrawals I will say is the restless legs, I CAN"T STAND THAT PART!! lol... but after the physical withdrawals, it's the depression and sleeplessness that get me bad.  I was taking Ativan but after about 4 or 5 nites it stops working.  Even sleeping pills doesn't work after I take Ativan for a few nights.  I've been just tryin' to stay busy.  Been taking nightly walks with the dog and just took the kids to the park yesterday and had a cookout with hubby and kids last nite.  So I'm tryin' my hardest to stay busy.  

Very nice talkin to you, hopefully be seeing u soon.  You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care and god bless, hugs,

Lil.  :)

[Yoda99]

Just wanted to say welcome to the forum.  I live in Florida also (Go Gators).  I keep saying I'm going to do a survey and see how many of us addicts are from Florida.  We'll have to do that some time.
Good luck to you,
Yoda
Hi Kimmie, how are you doing?  I'm busy as a bee right now and someone might have to ground me from the computer!  Computer restriction, haha.
Love,
Yoda