Hi..This all seem to go in stages..I went from High Anxiety to a very Weak Stage..Then I went into a No Interest Stage..I was feeling better then just about a week (213 days off dones, adderral, klonipin) I had these Emotions I have never been tuned into before..The Weather here is too long and snowy too..Then I would set things up to do but just could not get motivated..Now the last couple of days the Sun is out and I have been just Happy go Lucky..So each an every day there might be a few changes, but it is for the best..So do Bless each day, as each day will get better...OK
I'm not sure what you're coming off of but I was/still am definitely having motivational problems and low energy issues at 4 mos. (I came off of 20 yrs. of Methadone/almost 30 for Heroin) That said, it's gotten a lot better in the past month. I just went through a really dark period and I found that getting back into my spirituality (Chi Gong/Meditation/Buddhist & Contemplative prayer) has really helped but I have to push myself. This site has proved to be a miracle for me - a real anchor and lifeline. I have a hard time reaching out for help and accepting it but I'm learning. Giving what little I have to offer has definitely helped.
It sounds like when you were at the retreat - a structured environment - things were easier. Is there anyway you could recreate this type of 'framework' for yourself on the outside? I also found that I had to learn to sit w/ and process a lot of uncomfortable stuff that had been previously masked and had been left undigested over the years due to the drugs. It's a whole new ballgame learning to sit in our own skins without mediating our chemistries. It also takes months and months for our neural pathways to really heal.
sounds good to me! lol maybe a push is what i need!
Yes, I just saw your post after submitting mine. I'm not working right now and understand that you are tuckered after a long day/week at work.......but sign me up for motivating each other........would be good to be accountable to someone and float ideas.