Almost that time...getting more and more scared

[onedayatatime4]

Hey guys, i posted earlier about stopping oxycodone tomorrow (about 70 mg a day). I just took my last pill and plan on going to bad, very anxious about what tomorrow will bring. I have stocked up on Imodium AD, Gatorade, yogurt and vitamins, hoping and praying this helps a little bit as I still have to get up and be a mom to my two small children. I have never been so scared....I feel so stupid because I put myself here, but I am so ready to be done. No more wasting money, no more pill counting, worrying about not having any. The most I've gone is a day without pills in 3 years and I thought I was going to die that day. I am hoping because I am ready now and excited in a way that it wont be as horrible as I am imagining...God I hope so. Thank for the encouragement I have gotten so far. I just need to get through the physical part....please keep me in your prayers guys, it would be really appreciated. I know I can do this and you all have given me a lot of hope, especially because I am going through this completely alone. ...praying for the best. xoxo

[Pat1956100]

I'm still hanging in.  The Lyrica has really been helping.  Leaves me pretty foggy headed but much better than the bad withdrawals.  I know i couldn't start a new job tomorrow but I am in pretty bad shape physically anyway.
I will be thinking of you and please let me know how you make out.
Tomorrow will be day 5 for us so hopefully the worst will be over.
xoxo

[onedayatatime4]

Hey guys just an update...today has been the worst day, chills, anxiety, depression...i just feel horrible. i start my new job tomorrow so i pray i feel better...Pat i hope you are doing good today :) i will update tomorrow hopefully better. much love to you all!

[ImDONENoMore]

It will be true.  :)

[onedayatatime4]

thank you, that gives me a litte bit of hope. I keep telling myself that in a few days i will feel better, hopefully it will be true. Congrats on Day 8 :)

[Lonely01]

Hi. Ive been reading your posts and you are doing fantastic! Im on day 8 of detox from oxycontin 70mg a day. I feel great today! So much energy, which my 2 year old daughter is happy about. I took cold and flu tabs to help with my withdrawals. I felt like I had a really bad flu for a week. Chills, diarrea, zero energy and anxious. They seemed to help with that. Good luck and remember it DOES get better x

[buddycrunch]

energy?  what's that?
You are doing great, you all are helping me, nearly every hour i check this website and enjoy the longtimers and newbies coming in.  I'm going on 8 weeks now and still no energy (except my addiction to raking leaves) but just in the last few days my mood had really gotten better.  I feel silly and excited, my kids have commented.  starting to laugh again!  maybe energy is in the next phase, when we are counting months instead of weeks being clean.  :-}

[Pat1956100]

The lack of energy part is really hard for me.  It seems to last for so long but again I have abused my body pretty bad.  I am taking lots of vitamins this time so I am hoping that helps.  I haven't been very active for a long time so I know I have to start moving soon.  Just want to get through the next 2 days.

[onedayatatime4]

Thanks guys! i really appreciate all the support. I'm having major cravings today, as many told me the 3rd day is hard and it has been, i just feel very tired and i just keep wanting to take a pill...but i will not. Hopefully I feel a little better tomorrow and hopefully much better on day 5 as i am starting a new job that day :)

[Pat1956100]

Hi hun
Glad to hear from you.
Day 3 has always been the hardest for me so hoping tomorrow is better.  My body has been screaming at me a few times but so far so good.  I agree, I think this Lyrica is a miracle but I don't want to take too much of it either.  Maybe 1 more day and then see what happens.  Glad you are staying strong too.  

[ImGettingClean]

Hey and congrats on day 3 - I refer to Day 3 as the 'hump day'...tomorrow your physicaly symptoms may feel a little better and by day 5, hopefully a whole lot better.

As many have said, just keep moving around and try to keep your mind and body as busy as possible, although it may seem impossible to even get out of bed sometimes =)

Hang in there, u r doing great!

Nick

[HappyDays2Come]

You're doing great and it only gets better from Day 3 so keep looking forward to the next day and before you know it you'll feel great! I'm so proud of you for sticking with it! Keep moving and whatever you do don't lay around...literally move around! Haha! Keep posting I'm loving all the success stories around here! Yay for sobriety for the holidays (first time in a while for me:)!!

[onedayatatime4]

Hi, I still have no energy too, but its Day 3 for me and I'm proud of that :) i just wish the physical part would go away, its not horrible but i just have no energy and im a bit depressed and craving really bad today but trying to keep my mind off of it. Im glad youre doing ok, keep me posted, im right here with you :)

[Pat1956100]

Hey girl
I guess I am doing about the same.  The Lyrica really seems to be taking the edge off but I am still at zero energy and feeling sick.  Nothing I can't handle yet though.  I have my fur babies that I have to take care of lol, so it makes me get up and brightens my day a little.
I am so glad you aren't feeling too bad either.  Keep our fingers crossed that it doesn't get much worse.
xo

[onedayatatime4]

Hi guys, just wanted to update for Day 2. I'm doing ok today, I actually feel a little better than yesterday, I took the gabapentin again this morning, I swear it has been a life saver, I dont really have much withdrawal symptoms, besides low energy and my stomach is a little bit upset. I am going to take it for the next couple days while the opiates get out of my system and then see how i do without it. I have cleaned this morning and played with my babies, something I would never be able to do in full blown w/d because i dont even want to leave the bed. So overall im doing ok, hopefully it stays that way...i just wish i had more energy, but i havent really had any cravings so thats good. Pat1956100 please let me know how you are doing today, you are in my prayers and again thank you all for the support, i keep telling myself i will soon be free and it is helping me alot :)

[Pat1956100]

Hi there
I'm not doing too bad either.  I actually took some Lyrica that I was prescribed for fibromyalgia last night and it helped me sleep.  I'm very groggy but it is definitely helping with the withdrawals.  It even stopped the sweating for awhile.  I'm just going to use it for a few days because you can have withdrawals from it as well but it seems to be taking the edge off and also stopping the cravings so far.  Keep posting and let me know how you are doing.

[ImDONENoMore]

It's great to see you post again.  Keep going.. and hang in there.. don't get ahead of yourself and allow yourself to feel what you're feeling.  The more you fight the withrawal, the worse it becomes.  Sound strange, but it works. :)

[onedayatatime4]

Thank you so much! I'm trying my hardest to get through it. How are you doing??

[onedayatatime4]

Thanks guys...I'm doing ok,...21 hours without any opiates. It's been a hard day, mentally. I did some research and saw some places that said gabapentin helps with withdrawals, I had some, so I took that...I will say it has helped. I don't feel as sick as I normally would without any pills, espesially after 21 hours. Right now I just feel very lethargic and not really myself, and I am craving a pill very bad....but reminding myself I am doing the best thing for me. Thanks everyone for your support...it is helping tremendously  

[ImDONENoMore]

How you doing?

[Pat1956100]

Hi,
Just checking in on you.  Hoping you are staying strong.  I am right there with you.  Please let me know how you are doing as I have been thinking of you.
Big hugs

[buddycrunch]

Epsom salt with spearmint bath soak from walmart every other day.  you'll get more magnesium from the bath than a vitamin supliment.

don't forget the peptobismol.

tell somebody that will jack on you via phone from a long distance away. I even told my grown sons.

I went to a physciatrist this time as well, who prescribed gabapentin that really helps with the cravings and pain.  you don't want to be on that very long either.

do all the diet stuff, exercise whenever you can.

my 3rd day was terrible, still at 55 days wish i had saved just one pill back to feel better right now so i can get stuff done (not the right answer, come here instead, and read other people's horror stories)  recovery is very slow, but there are so many on here who have made it much further than i, keep turning to them.

this time is my 3rd time to quit in the last ten years, (made it about 2 years clean each time then slipped for a year or so).  This time i'm telling and getting help and using this website several hours a day.

[onedayatatime4]

They will be gone tomorrow afternoon for the night, so I will have a little time for myself...ive heard the 2nd and 3rd day are the worst and I wont have any help those days, so hopefully its not too unbearable. And trust me I understand, mine are 6 and 3 and test my patience on a daily basis lol

[weaver71]

Anticipation is a killer. I always share how I would take a bunch of pills and go into withdrawals within hours, because I didn't have any for tomorrow. It's as much mental as it is physical, just try to relax as much as you can. The vitamins will help a lot, and you sound ready. Keep posting and fighting. I can say that my kids where super supportive. They would just sit and hug me, they knew I was sick and where very good for me. They're so glad I'm sober.

[OpenMind24hours]

Keep telling yourself: I am getting better and better and when this is over I will be free. I wish you the best of luck in your journey, and we're always here for your support. Keep posting.