Am I having a cocaine overdose?

[CKivlan]

I was in this forum a few months ago with questions about cocaine and alcohol.  Well I am back with another question concerning cocaine.  Memorial Day.... Did a few backs of cocaine with a friend and felt great! Went home around 2:30am and layed in bed and thats when it all began.  My eyes were rolling in the sockets... my heart began to race... I began to sweat... I couldnt breathe very well.  I was breathing but it felt like i could not get enough air! I took a hot bath and felt like i was going to faint... took a cold bath...i was freezing.  Anyways, I tryed so many things to feel better up until 6:30 am when i finally began to calm down.  It is now 12:17 and i slept about 4 hours.  My heart was racing so fast I was about to call an ambulance but my mom would kill me before the cocaine would!  I was having these weird convulsions.  My arms were shaking and my fingers haven been shaking for months. I really felt like i was dying.... I can't explain how horrible I felt.  My question: Was I having an overdose??? or was I just going through something that everybody goes through when they do too much cocaine?  Couls I have died??? my EXTREME question... I am a 20 female in Miami, Florida.... I dont have a drug habit but i do tend to use cocaine about once a month and i always over do it... I am leaving into the Navy in October so I hope that will help me alot... if I use cocaine again and i feel my heart racing and etc.etc.etc.... can you PLEASE reccomend something to help when im experiencing this?  Is there a special remedy?  ANYTHING... please name a few things. Thank you so much.  
*MiStiCiLLuSionZ*
***@****

[Wizard]

You are so young with so much ahead of you. How much do you love life? With those symptoms I would care less what my mom thought. Read some of our other posts darling. I for one would like to see you around for a long long time. If you react like that I would waste NO time see an emergency room. I certainly wouldn't make that my drug of choice again. You already stated you over do it. AND YES IT COULD KILL YOU! Get checked out dear and make sure your heart can take it. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. In my opinion this is serious. God be with you,
Also you say you are going into the Navy? I don't think you are ready to serve in a defense position till you sort this out. I tell you this from my heart with nothing but good intentions only.
Magick & Power 2 U,
Peace and Light on U,
Wizard

[cindi]

Ok,,, here's the deal...you were here before with the same symptoms,,,,then you thought it may have been a panic attack,,,,maybe it's time you really seriously thought about you r situation and take our advice in your first post and take wiz's advice this time..it sounds to me like you do have some kind of problem even though you deny having a drug problem...you are so young,,,,and if you think the Navy may help your problem you may want to think again...while I'm sure they do random drugs did you ever hear of the infamous geographical cure?  it doesn't work..if there's a will there's a way...come clean with your mom, go to some support groups  12 step groups  get a handle on this no one can really say if you were od'ing on coke who knows whats going on  maybe siezures,,you need to get checked out by a physician before you my dear check out for good..it does happen to people your age,,,hon, you are not immortal  who's to say next time you go on a binge that it won't be much worse if not fatal....we say this stuff to you out of concern not anger,,,but binging and having the symptoms then posting here will not help you...you have got to help yourself,,as long as you come here with what you are doing we, will continue to say the same thing....please,,,take our advice..do yourself a favor,  you say your mom would kill you...well, my dear you must think about what would kill your mom...to see her child die?  these are the facts...good luck and God bless.....love to all    cin

[niccee]

I don't know much about this except a classmate of my youngest brother died a few years ago in his bed after doing exactly what you did. He was so young and had his whole life ahead of him. I never drank or used drugs until I was 30 years old and I still don't drink. I remember that I had a great time without the drugs. I am now 38 and trying to get off of them for good. I wish I could go back and not start, but I can't. Find out why you need drugs to have fun and feel good. Please don't wind up like me. It is a whole lot easier to start than to stop.

[pinky to rebecca]

i'm going to be blunt:  don't be dumb.

cocaine speeds you up. that's what it does. i don't know where the line is marked for a technical overdose, but the fact that you were scared (and about to call an ambulance) says something, and shouldn't be covered up by 'remedies'.

you did too much that night.  i've experienced the same thing only a few times. but those few times made me realize i was messing with something i didn't want to mess with - my life.  

nobody's perfect, and i'm certainly no angel, but go easy on yourself. a heart can age pretty quickly on that ****.     the cat

[J.B. to Brian and Vicky]

Who knows what is in these street drugs?  Maybe strycnine or something even worse. It's pure insanity to put this poison into your young body. Unless you really have a death wish?  J.B.

[cindi]

I rest my case,,,,,need I or anyone say more?

[cindi]

Listen,,,take a look around.,,,,Thomas  30 year addiction, Jb, Wizard, Me, Jenny,,,look at us...how we either have struggled or are still struggling....you are 20   if I had someone when I was 20 to tell me what a living hell my life would be like in ten years....I probably would have thought twice...I dunno, maybe not,,maybe we have to endure sooo much before we finally come to our senses....you have the ability to quit now while your are ahead but if I remember right you do drink heavily am I correct in saying this  if not, please forgive  me...I am a mom albeit of a 7 and 3 year old...but I still have to look at what may be in store for my kids....I  know from this forum what my mom went through with me.....give it up, think hon, get help....I hate to preach but man, this is what gets to me,,,,God,  I want to just stop one person from going down that path....my goal  just one...please  let it be you....love to all  cin

[Thomas]

You're about to enter the Navy, if I'm not mistaken. How long do you think it's going to take them to catch on to your alcoholism and toss you out? The icing on the cake will be if they test you at the right time and find cocaine and/or methamphetamine in your system. ckivlan, and I mean this with the kindest of intentions, you're an alcoholic. Period. Not a kid who occasionally likes to party. YOU ARE AN ALCOHOLIC. YOU NEED HELP. All this, "am I going to have a heart attack" stuff is just peripheral to the main issue. You're an alcoholic and you need to get help before you enter the navy or you'll just be another washout.

Tell me, what is it that makes you suddenly decide to do cocaine once a month? Is it a friend you only see once in a while? Please believe me when I tell you that coke is death. Coke is death. Coke is death. Get it? It's the most evil, addictive and destructive substance ever made and should be eradicated from the Earth. It addicts from the very first exposure and gradually destroys the part of your brain responsible for allowing you to feel pleasure. It plain burns it out. It is a man-made horror.

I'm convinced that if you get help with your alcoholism, and I would suggest at least an outpatient rehab to go with 90 AA meetings in 90 days, you're coke episodes will end and you just might have a chance at a distinguished career in the Navy. Not too shabby an achievement! Think about what I've said, please.

[jennyfla]

Really, sweetie, listen to these wonderful people, they tell you no lies!
You are far too young to risk loosing the rest of your life for an occasional thrill; it's just not worth it!
When i was 20, ha, i thought i was invincable, it's hard to think that you can actually die at such a young age, but it can and will happen if you don't take steps to help yourself.
I've felt the same thing you experienced, and it scared the **** out of me.  A few times with coke a long time ago, and with crack a few years back!  
Coke is especially dangerous because it stays with you forever in your mind once you do it enough.  It attaches in the brain in some way, and even five-years later, something as little as a 100 dollar bill or something along those lines will trigger a craving.  Please get out before it is too late.  Do you want to get married someday, do you want children, well if you do, think ahead and know that it will all be a dream if you continue this path, believe me, it will only get worse.  You will be surprised at the support your mom will give you if you just fess up and tell her what you are going through.  I live in fear that one day my child or children will end up addicts like their mom and dad.  They have a strong genetic force against them, and believe me, i'm going to watch them like a hawk.  If they were ever to be in the trouble you are in, i would only hope to god that they would confide in me so i could help them get help they need.  It would rip a hole in my mom's soul if ever something were to happen to you.  It's hard realizing this without being a mother yourself, but a mother's love is like no other.  A big part of her would die if you were to die!!!  Do you want this for her?  
You need to find the root of your destructive behavior, it's there or else you wouldn't even be messing with that stuff.  We all have our problems, and as your life continues and you get older, they only become worse.  If you can't deal with life now at your age, then you are going to get into some big messes down the line and destroy others in your path.  I was so different at the age of 20 than i am now.  I know enough to understand the destruction, there's no fun in it!  Quit while you're ahead, don't get to the point where a drug takes ownership of your soul!  Please seek some help somewhere.  I know Miami is full of treatment centers, outpatient, inpatient, counselors, anything and everything is available there for you!  
You can't continue to play around with this, because it will take hold of you quicker than you realize!  Get help before it's too late!!!!  Prayers for you!
Lv Jenny

[Leigh]

If you are on this forum, and asking yourself questions about your habit, then you probably have a drinking/drug problem. One of the clinical screening questions for alcoholism and drug addiction asks if you ever get concerned about partying too much. In recovery, the stages of change begin with awareness. Awareness, acceptance and then action. And lucky for you, you're beginning to question yourself--so you are becomming aware. A third of the battle is done. Congrats! Now it's time to move on to acceptance and action. Acceptance means taking responsibility for your problem. In other words, don't deny what your mind and body are trying to tell you. You are fortunate enough to still be here after having a possible bad reaction or near-fatal overdose...and you're smart enough to be concerned for yourself. Both your body and your mind are trying to tell you something--trust yourself and pay attention to these warning signs, before it's too late. I know that sounds dramatic, but people die everyday from street drugs, prescription drugs and alcohol. And as everyone has mentioned in their posts, addiction is no day at the beach. If you try to do some soul-searching and get to the bottom of this problem now (ie, the action stage), you will save yourself many years of heartache. Not to mention, it's hypothesized that cocaine can permanently alter the pleasure receptors in your brain. In other words, if you use habitually, you could do permanent damage to your brain and never be able to experience pleasure as you once knew it before cocaine. Scary stuff, huh?

Also keep in mind that the Navy is not a solution to a potential addiction. Remember the movie "The Wizard of Oz?" There's no place like home--meaning, the answer to your problems are in your own backyard. You can move away from home, you can join the Navy, you can change your group of friends or switch jobs--but the underlying problems will always be there. Until you get to the root of your unhappiness, and discover what is compelling you to use drugs, then you will always be chasing that high. Even if you're in the Navy, if you really want drugs--you'll find them. I'm not saying that you shouldn't join the Navy or remove some of the triggers in your life, like friends who use or being around a big club scene (ie, Miami). But recovery involves the use of many strategies. You need to look inward and find out what is making you use. Now this is no easy task. As a matter of fact, I wouldn't recommend attempting to do this yourself. Enlist the help of others, both professional and personal. Do you have a family doctor who you could confide in? Maybe get a referral for a counselor or a psychiatrist? And how about your mom, or another family member who could provide some support for you. Not just confessing that you use drugs, but someone who could honestly help you explore the reasons why you feel unhappy sometimes and go on drug binges. Because let's face it--that's what you're doing. You're not using alcohol socially or casually. Something is compelling you to keep going past the normal limit--something is making you drink and snort to the point where your body and your mind freak out and send messages to you that you're in danger. Depression? Anxiety? Who knows...but you can find out.

Remember those three stages--awareness, acceptance and action. You're aware. And as everyone is saying, now is the time to accept and act. Before you get in any deeper, and before something awful happens. Get some help, be brave--and you will get some answers.

And for goodness sake, forget about this remedy to reverse the effects of too much coke. It doesn't exist, unless you're in the emergency room at 2am with a team of doctors desperately trying to revive you. Not to mention, if you mix too many substances, you could wind up dead or a vegetable. It's dangerous enough to mix cocaine and alcohol...if you toss another substance into that mixture, at worst you could be in one hell of a mess. And at best, you'll be dealing with yet another addiction. Ouch.

[Milo]

A friend of mine went through pure hell because her husband did coke (crack). He went through a short treatment program at a facility that's considered one of the best in the country. Yet he returned to the drug because its lure was so strong. Counselors told his wife that it might be years (!) before his brain returned to normal & he was able to feel pleasure again. I say this not to discourage you in any way, but to encourage you as all the others here have to stop, and get whatever treatment is necessary. I agree with Thomas that this is one of, if not the most destructive drug out there. At 20, you're young & strong enough to make a great comeback from this problem. Please let us know how you're doing. Milo

[Fairytale]

I'm 24 and have been in your place before.  Seriously, coke does stay with you.  I haven't done it in about two years and I still will sometimes dream about it.  Good luck, remember always love yourself more than a feeling.

[Milo]

The dangers of coke are very real, something to take seriously, but, please, *don't lose hope!* My best friend's brother reached a personal low point when he went through withdrawal -- on a bus! Can you imagine? Today he is healthy & successful. So take the warnings seriously, but don't feel discouraged. You can & will be OK!
Sincerely, Milo

[jule1]

Someone please help I am new to this site and have wanted to get help but for a couple of days I have not been allowed to post a question so maybe someone will read this and help!  I am addicted to Ultram and want to get help however when I have called rehab centers and addiction specialist they do not know of this medication and they have not been sure how to help me.  Does anyone know of anyone ever being addicted to this and how they got help?  Thank you all!!!

[cindi]

Hi there and welcome to the forum,,,I think there have been a few people here that had problems with ultram including myself and my sister...both of us had difficulty with withdrawals  even after taking only the prescribed doseage   the problem with ultram is that at first it was supposed to be NON addictiong...soon afterward many people  innocent people fell victim to it...DO NOT QUIT TAKING IT ABRUPTLY   a few people I know have done so and suffered seizures....Number 1....taper your doseage very very gradually,,,never worked for me,,,,I got a prescription for darvocet or vicodin..and used those instead of the ultram but you must be very cautious as not to become addicted to the other meds....it really is not too good to substitute one drug for another but obviously no one in your area has any knowledge of ultram so you probably will have to do it yourself..my sister did it cold turkey and it was worse than she ever imagined..lucky for her no seizures...but 2 friends of mine did in fact seize.....how much are you taking and for how long have you been taking it....    Like to hear more from you    good luck   love to all    cin

[Thomas]

how about the doctor that's prescribing the Ultram? Have you told your doc about your predicament? I understand a lot of docs are not the kind of people you really want to confide in. Perhaps you're worried you'll be cut off from all pain relief. (there's always another MD, though, if that happens). I don't know you're situation so I can't say. Taking a substitute like codeine would probably ease the withdrawal symptoms, but you could still, apparently, have a seizure. I simply don't know.

What I can tell you is that I have personally talked to many, many doctors about Ultram and they ARE aware that Ultram is addictive even though it technically is not a narcotic. Some have called it a synthetic codeine. I know there are rehabs out there that are aware of ultram. Remember, rehabs take in people who usually take any kind of high they can get. Believe me, the rehab docs and councelors, etc. are aware of Ultram. If you've been calling rehabs and they don't have a clue about Ultram, you're calling some pretty lame rehabs. Keep trying. In the meantime, don't go off the Ultram cold turkey. That's a very dangerous way to handle this problem.

Hang in there and let us know what happens. I know there is help out there.

[cindi]

To the rescue again my dear wise friend      have a good day   Love ya   cin

[Angelica]

......Hey lady!!! Take a break.  You've been working to hard, haven't ya.  LOL  Talk to yall, later.......lol
angelica

[cindi]

You said it girlfriend.....worked today   I was in charge...so guess what I did?   you got it,,,delegated and left early and went and got my nails done..LOL   then took Jen to the skating party  ran into my husband's ex girlfriend    I met her before, she if really nice...LOL  she really is  they were very very young...anyway I'll email eithr later or tomorrow and tell ya all about it....give you the dish on her...LOL  later tater   love cin

[cindi]

Did you happen to see "testing"?   ROFLMAO

[jule1]

Thank you for your help about Ultram.  Believe it or not I live in the NYC area and didn't find help yet but I will keep calling if you think of anything else that could help please write back!  God bless

[cindi]

Hi jenn,  I lost your e-mail address..would you mind re-sending it to me...mine is ***@**** or ***@**** thanks hon  love cin

[Angelica]

...Do you think that's the Phil from medhelp??? LOL What's up w/ that remark.....

[cindi]

Girlfriend,,,,  your guess is as good as mine....could be phil...but I smell something a little bit spooky.....anything is possible  just ask wizard...sometimes I don't think we're in Kansas anymore  LOL    love ya    cin

[Angelica]

......I feel like I'm on Mars or in the twilight zone.  lmao
How've ya been????  Long time no chat, mate??? lol

[Wizard]

If you feel like you are on Mars or in the Twilight Zone, then you have actually reached the "Emerald City" LOL Welcome to the Wiz's version of "Munchkin Land" ROFLMAO...Just had to throw this little quip in atcha darling! Tell you what....Click your heels 3 times while saying "There's no place like the Forum, There's no place like the Forum, There's no place like the Forum"  Now don't you feel better? Don't pay any attention to the guy behind the curtain! Have a great day Luv! Come on ToTo, we have a long walk ahead of us today! ;-)
Power & Magick 2 U,
luv,
Wizard

[cindi]

Hey  chickie wuzzup?   I have been runnin around like a crazy woman.....and Wizard...i work in Munchkinland...(pre-school)  LOL  I am off to bed...waiting for some serious storms to roll in....talk to everyone tomorrow,  Love you guys   cin

[Angelica]

Your just too much.....and yes I'm feeling much better....quite "at home" now that I'm visiting the forum. lmao
Too funny.......

Cin: quit your day job! lmao  J. J.
"Get out while you still have time......"  lmao
Love you guys (< look, you guys)
Angelica  (:

[Mustique]

hey man, i was never on this site before.  Im a 21 year old in recovery clean for 2 years now. i was cought up in several stupid addictions.  realize what the drug actually does and how it makes you feel after 30 min. you begin to want more and more and more... i have seen 2 of my friends come very close to death, as my own family member did, from 1 night of stupidity.  i went through feeling great and invinsible going clubing out all night and the next day.  i hit several low points in my life, but the onlything one must do is wake up and realize it pointless to live day by day, make plans for yourself.  decide on your future, think about what you want and work to get it.  being young i took advantage, changing from clubing and drinking, to working and taking school serious.  i would suggest you think about it.  i caused those who cared for me the most great pain, and i lost a girl who was the best person on could imagine all over a habbit.  its every easy to not see any of this and think things are great or ok, but that may mean you havent thought about it hard enough.   i have talk to many adults going through recovery, whom wish the could of started there recovery in tthere twenties.  Food for thought.......

[delna]

I just got myself off the white ****...I too was experiencing heart palps. and breathing issues..have kids and thought are you crazy girl???
Went cold turkey 5 days ago.
U are young get help NOW....
My dad just had a heart transplant if that doesn't wake up a coke head what will?
U have a whole life ahead of u.

Get help

D

[sisterbeulah]

i am going thru some stuff tonight as a matter of fact.reading the forum..made me feel so much better.could i visit this site more?  tammy

[sisterbeulah]

i have been up for a while..and dread going to bed...i do not want to be in a funk tommorrow....i would like some positive words to keep in my head all day

[Selph Made]

Just tonight, i had the same reaction but i couldnt move, i freaked out and tried to walk somewhere, where i dont know but before i took 4 steps i collapsed. i then began convulsions, shaking uncontrolably and a heart rate that i could feel racing in my head, i started to black out and hit the ground hard. jared came out and started freaking out and i was for sure i would not get to see precious life again. i used all my strength to pull my self up and in the minst of it i threw up. when i threw up, it was all cocaine 100% from the eightball or 3.5 grams i had purchased earlier. soon after i threw up my heart rate lowered, i had to walk around and i rethought my life over and realized only someone who wants to leave this earth in a horrific way would do this, i forever more dispise cocaine and i am getting the most important tattoo in my life tommoroww to alway let me and my peers know of what happened. it says Live Strong, it means alot to me because those who can say no to cocaine are strong and i have a whole new world of respect for them. i am a 17 year old male and i WAS confused with what i wanted to do in life, now i know i just want to be happy. i love life, the sky, trees, poeple, anything, life is precious pleassse dont put yourself through what i put myself through. this drug is THE stupidest thing i could have ever got my self into, and yes when you are addicted to cocaine, you will do excesive amounts, the overdose will kick in when you finnally stop sniffing it. I am not telling anyone not to do it because actions speak louder than words and most of man kind learns from experience and not words, but if you have never tried cocaine take this into concideration. This is my second week doing it, and ive had enough fun.

-lovelife, live strong, be happy.

[theoneguyinNE]

I am hoping people are still reading this...

i am not in a state of denial, nor addicted although what I have to say is rather contradicting.

I am not familiar with the limits of overdose, nor the substantial amount you can do before.... you get my drift.

I am here today to explain the situation and deeply asking help in support as that is what I need to remain the person I once was. I have been through this process before and it finally pushed me to get help from some good friends... we can go into all of this later as I would like to tell my story and get your deep answer instead of "sounds like your addicted." because that is not what im looking for. I am a good guy to get along with no matter while on it or off...i've never been abusive while on it or even in my system.... the answers im seeking for are the effects im having while being on it, "coming down", etc....

I was rather frightened as I blacked out w/out really realizing it multiple times and woke up I believe hours or minutes later in the same position, but remember waking up for a brief milisecond (as my multi blackout)... I blacked out while going to my second job, at the stop light I accellerated, and almost hit the curb... luckily for me I vowed to quit for 2 days to atleast come down....

to get back on point, my eyes are twiching and lighting in general will dim/brightem etc... makes me think a car is turning and comin down the street.. maybe the light is flickering im not sure? i dont have any heart pain, just lost a lot o weight in which I want to gain again...

im leaving it at this as im not sure whom will see and i will go into more detail and symptoms

[avisg]

Welcome
You are post on a very old post . If you scroll all the way up to the top and look to your left you will see where it says "post a question". Post your info there that way everyone will see it ....
avis

[sprat]

my brother overdosed 2 weeks ago and actually died, luckily he was  ressusated in the ambulance and thank god he is still with us, this has been the biggest shock to all of us ,as he had been clean for a year, this episode seems to have brought reality home to him and scared him so much it seems to be a turning point in his life. He actually felt him self dying but something inside him screamed no, a brush so close with death should be a warning to all,

[Greatgreebo]

This is a very old post (6.5 years). These people are not here anymore. I'm glad your brother is okay. Start a new post (at top of page where it says 'post a question') and get some support from the forum.

Greatgreebo

[everettshari]

cocaine kills.  Zach Erickson of Everett, WA was buried 30 minutes ago - dead from a cocaine overdose.  Age 23, honor student, bright future - due to graduate with psych degree in March now dead.

Please all of you - get off drugs.

[mshell62]

I have the PERFECT REMEDY you were asking for.  First of all, I know that horrible, dreaded feeling after "overdoing it" with the coke.  Your heart beats out of your chest and all you can think is:  "I did this to myself... I have killed mysel, and I am still alive to process this thought".  HORRIBLE.

Here is the perfect remedy:  Dont ever do cocaine again.  Even if you "trust your friend or dealer" you NEVER KNOW what you are getting.  It may be stronger than the time before.  This happened to me before... my "friends" left me for dead.  The coke was ALOT stronger than I had done before. I knew that I could do several lines and be OK.  Not this time.. It was very pure.  

My friends didnt want to get in trouble.  I passed out, and was lucky to be found by someone else.  All my "friends" ran.  

Dont do this again.  Anyone who allows you to do cocaine is no friend.  An you are not a friend to allow someone else to do it.

You WILL die from this stuff.  It happens EVERY DAY.

Get your life together.  There is no such thing as "recreational drug use".  It never ends up that way.

[helpinout]

i am going to be honest, I have a friend, speaking through him via this forum, "cocaine makes you feels like the king of the world, you think and tell yourself over and over again that you are in control and soon enough you aren't it is truly the devils dandruff, all you need to do is change your mentality, everyone who is reading this, just take that ****** feeling you have lying awake at 5:00 in the morning and realize that is all cocaine will ever for for you
If I could change anything in my life I would go back to the first time my friend racked a line and knock it to the floor
I know you and my friend can stop I only hope you look at this post
just stop please, it is a terrifiying thing

[helpinout]

give me another perspective

[mechanic66]

I'm asssuming since the previous post regarding Ultram was like 7 years ago those issues have long since been dealt with. I was recommended this drug as an  atelrnate to Vicodin after a septoplasty while in inpatient recovery, because at that time it was thought to be non-narcotic and non-addictive. This was in '95. I wasn't necessarily trying to stay clean so much as I was trying to stay out of Federal Prison. After failing two drug tests for coke, with the third imminent, I checked myself in to rehab. Much to my pleasant surprise I found that i could get an almost Vicodin like buzz from the ultram, and a really nice one at that with a soma or 2. Neither of these drugs showed up in my drug tests, After several weeks they wouldn't give me a buzz anymore so I would go off them for several months. I never once experienced any withdrawal symptoms.

[denisethornton]

I know what you all are saying is true.. my husband  (use to use) cola... and still does.. i caught him sneaking aorund doing it behind my back. he fianlly came clean with me and told me what was going on. he thought he had licked the habit... 10 years before... once an addict always an addict.. hes slipping again ..going down that beaten path.. i found him one night not a month ago at one of his buddys house.. so messed up he coudlnt speak.he was trying to tell me something but coudlnt get the words out... i was devistated. we have 8 kids..1 grandchild.. htey all know what he does.. now its causing problems with our sex life.. our marriage. ... its so not worth it.. i have my own problem with ultrams.. and believe me .. i want this monkey off my back.. DRUGS KILL!! in every aspect. to the20 year old girl.. god.. RUN.,.. get help.. your only 20 your still a baby with so much in front ofyou.... a whole lifetime.. your all in my prayers

Denise

[marcatj]

hey denise, you posted this on an old thread.. i'm afraid it may not get seen.

please repost it on a new post "Post A Question" and if you want help, alot of folks here have helped each other off the tram's, as well as are dealing with a loved one's addiction.

if you want help... please repost.

good luck sweety,
mj

[Coolio Hernendez]

I had a friend who cut the coke he sold with anything white... ANYTHING... that way he could have more to himself.......

[xxsoph69xx]

my boyfriend is having a ****** up side effect!! ............. hes gone grey and feelin propa hot.... wat should i do???? x

[lunalee]

you need to  take him to hospital stat

[idontcareaboutaname]

your just not use to it(relax, hydrate yourself and do another .5g line). but you should find another hobby. cocaine is somthing the human body would normaly never experience. so people repeat it. every paycheck, to every week. SMACK though you might Not want to do it. you'll find your self Buying it. once you try it it , it'll be stuck in you head for a long time. put your head tward the navy or your other interests. dont think about it. stay postitive. (trust me you dont want brain damage)

whenever i think about it, my heart races, my lungs gasp, i think fast, my brain trys to consume and much more.
and ive recently only been doing it every two weeks, buying 1/8 to 1/4 oz. waste of money. knowing that i still did it anyways. thats not what you want. avoid regretful mistakes. love everything, make the best!

[toxictome]

This is an old thread....start a new thread with a new question if you want others to respond. You may get overlooked on this thread .See you out in the forum.

[BoFocker]

this is my first post.  I'm a 27 year old black man.  Believe me when I say cocaine scares the hell outta me.  My dad died of an overdose when I was 8.  He was nurse practitioner.  He was 38.  Here I am about 1 week from having my first child, 1 month from taking a state exam for my nursing license and I'm high on coke.  I hate it cuz I like it so much.  About a month ago I had a bad experience with the drug.  You guys know when u do entirely too much what its like.  I swore I would not touch it again.  All was well until my best friend came back in town.  He begged me to call my supplier who is a family member of mine.  I did.  I purchased his coke and before I knew it I was in the bathroom snorting a small line.  I dropped the rest off to my friend and called my supplier for another bag.  I'm almost done with it...I didn't over do it this time, but I just don't want it.  I don't want to pass these demons on to my unborn child.  I don't want to die young like my father did.  I graduated from nursing school so I know what its doing to my heart and brain.  I've worked in a psych facility since 2003 and witness drugs destroy people and increase mental illness.  Why do I keep backsliding?  No one knows.  Not even my supplier.  Just my best friend who I score for.  I told him its time for us to quit,  but I have to do it first.  I'm the leader he is more of the follower.  I'm risking my life and my sanity with this drug.  Its 3:00 am and I have to be in class at 8:00.  I'm wired up and don't have a clue how I'm going to make thru 8 hours of class.  Ill b crashing when its time to go to school.  That sucks.  Just in the last 3 months I've quit cigarettes, weed, and drinking.  All that in anticipation of my daughters birth.  Unfortunately I came running back to the coke after 1 month of being clean.  How do I stop this devil from taking me down?  I guess I just wanted to vent with people who know the pleasure and pain that comes with high quality blow.  Pray for me and I would appreciate any feedback and encouragement.  I feel like my dad passed me his lust for drinking and drugs.  It killed him in his prime and I don't want the same thing.

[slk714]

i am here and praying for you, it is still early and you will get more responses shortly, just hang in there. i know the feeling of coming down and having to go to work, school and making excuses to go home early,you know the drill. there are alot of people on here who have successfully kicked coke, and they will be so helpful to you. my DOC is vicodin, and i am still struggling, but i did use coke quite a bit from the age of 13 on, i know what you are saying. when vicodin came into my life i just preferred that high and would only use coke if nothing else was around, but believe me, i know how hard it can be to get off of it. try to remember these bad feelings next time you want to use. my hubby gave it up, CT, he was smoking it for like 5 days at a time. one day he woke up and decided he didnt want to die. it will kill you, and i know you realize that and that is why you are reaching out. Good for you for taking the first step, that had to be huge to come clean to us. on this forum you will find strength and a ton of support, so please stick around and keep posting. you will get responses soon, hopefully before you have to go to class. you might want to start a new post, to ensure people read your story. , any questions i am here and will be here for the rest of the am.....k...stay strong, you will make it!!! God Bless you

[slk714]

you should probably go to post question and write your story, i notcied this thread is from a long time ago, and you are on here, but we want to get your story bumped up to the top. just go to post question and write whatever you need, ok, i just want t omake sure people find you easy enough, i had to scroll down quite a bit to find your story

[confused456]

yes, please make a new post. just go to post question and you can copy and paste what you have here. this is an old thread and many may not read it cuz of that.

[mjb1323]

Your symptoms are very common. You elevate these symptoms when you become nervous and scared of your condition. I can take in about an ounce 1/4 before I start having these feelings (I think you could say it's time for me to quit!) But really, be smart, once you have your desired effect, put it away. You will realize, there's never enough coke-quit chasing the high, you'll never catch up to it. I should take my own advice soon.

[theeagle]

Way old post. Yes, you had too much in your system at that point. After minor shakes and things, you may well fall to floor with more serious convulsions. imagine yourself lying on a merry-go-round while the room spins..... then think about your brain undergoing a temperal lobe siezure that you may or may not survive with you memory and speech intact. Then imagine gasping for breath to try and suck oxygen in. Now the last part. You begin to pant drastically and in uselessly to avoid respiratory arrest. When you lungs lock up all the way, not being controlled by muscles any longer. You will heve only seconds before death.....................................................