Go get some professional help.
carrie
I don't know, are you real? Why do you have bruises everywhere. Rasta, we have tried to give you advice, you have had people worried about you here and by your posts your getting worse. I mean are you actually thinking these things or messing around? There is help out there for you and it's more than the drugs. Even though you say your family does not understand you, they can help you girl. Your too young for this and your thoughts are scary. Please come back and let us know your ok. I don't know what else to tell you:(
There is a life waiting for you, but until you make some sacrafices and accept you need to get some help, I am not sure what else you can do for the time being. Addiction is a viscious cycle and it only gets worse, not better, until treated. Please be strong, we are still here for you.