Good afternoon all, I'm a day & a couple hrs shy of a week and thought I would post after not being able to for the past two days due to literally school all day with no time to. I've rededicated to focusing on not only my health but my school. Had I not decided to change my life I would without a doubt have failed at what I really want to do with my life.
The past few days have been no walk in the park. I've felt defeated, like I could no longer go on, like I wanted to quit, but I knew that would not be the answer. I now find myself doing ok and content with what is going on in life after completing 2 tests, a paper, attending class on very little sleep and absolutely no energy, and an overall feeling of despair. Although I haven't been able to get to an NA meeting yet, I have thoroughly digressed how I have been feeling to my sister who has helped me tremendously. I finally got 6 hrs of sleep last night, and while I woke up at 4:30am, I'm totally cool w/ that because it allowed me to complete some work before class today.
I vow to keep pushing on, no matter what the circumstances. To everyone who has reached milestones, congrats, stay focused, eat a piece of cake, do a happy dance, you deserve it. To everyone lurking or wanting to quit, bite the bullet man, but make sure its for you and you know that the pain can and will come to an end.
I am by no means out of the woods, cured, or anything like that. But for now, right now, I'm good with where I'm at and will keep going on.
Thanks everyone,
Tim