Anxiety ?

[SunnysideUP27]

Hey guys, just a quick update and a question or 2. Today is day 134 for me which is almost five months; I am rounding up ! Anyway, I feel really really good and the things that I am accomplishing are amazing. I rarely take the time out to sit and look at what I am getting done and what I have accomplished these past five months, but it is huge. I mean just the wardrobe alone shows that I have a ton more cash to spend on other things. But ya, just saying you save a ton of money by stopping the evil pills. I am working full time at my dream job and things can really only get better.....            Now my question. Around month 3-4 I had the best month emotionally and physically since my detox. For the past lets say 3 weeks I have been getting anxiety again. I refuse to take meds becuase I had no issues before drugs and I know it can vanish like that. It isnt all day it just for a couple of hours a day but I am just a bit confused. I think I know the answer, "in time it will go away", and I hope that is the case, but I am unsure and since I dont attend any aftercare at all (stupid me I know), I cant get these answers from anyone. Last night after foot ball (Gmen baby!!), my anxiety just went away. So strange but it just vanished. I didnt even notice it was gone until I thought about it. And then I start thinking, what did I do to make it go away, yada yada yada.....  I was wondering if anyone had any insight as to if this is normal around 5 months.  I do feel amazing, even when I have anxiety I still feel good, its just that pit in my chest. Any insight would be helpful..... thanks, God Bless

[SunnysideUP27]

Mary, thank you so much, that was very inspiring. And yes that is awesome! I try to realize that life does has its ups and downs and that does work. Sometimes it is just like a switch goes on and off. But I am doing well and the anxiety is subsiding. Hoping this is just a glitch at 135 days and I really think that it is. I went months without it so for it to just pop up, I  cant sit here and believe that it is here to stay. Thanks!!!!

[mary577]

When I have anxiety or depression, I try to remember that such is life....always ups and downs and sometimes life is just depressing or there are things that make me anxious.   I guess this sounds too simplified, but for myself, if I feel like this, I try to tell myself that tomorrow will be better, and if I can, I go to bed early and try to get some rest.   Sometimes it doesn't work very well....but often I am better the next day.  

[SunnysideUP27]

Hey guys thanks for all the replies. I have never taken anxiety meds before as I have never gotten anxiety before my use. So it is just kind of wierd to me. I have done tons and tons of reserch as well on PAWS and know alot about it as well. I just think it may be me still readjusting. I mean, I was on drugs for eight years and I am almost five months clean. I dont think I am going to be 100% yet and that is where I am at. Well after that post yesterday I had no anxiety at all and had a great night as usual. It just kind of creeps up on me from time to time. Well i know therapy or group would help emensely and I need to take that next step. Feel great though. Almost five months and happier than I have ever been. Thank you all.God Bless

[vicki595]

Can you identify what may be causing the anxiety? Sometimes, it's hard to differentiate between anxiety and excitement...

It's really too early in your recovery to be experiencing PAWS. From everything I've studies, PAWS is pretty rare and wouldn't begin this soon.

Is there any vitamin or other drug that your taking? It could be the caffeine, as Dewey said.  Try keeping a daily journal for awhile a and try yoga. That's what worked for me.

[deweyseth]

just my experince! caffine caused alot of mine, had to stop drinking it, can say its alot better, i dont have 5 months clean yet going on 2 months, really made a big difference, or even cut back, just a suggestion, you can look it up for youself! it was hard at first stopping my coffee in the mornings, but figured if i can kick a 25 year drug addiction i can kick caffine, congrats on 5 months awesome job! god bless!!

[waterLilly7]

I think you have PAWS setting in. I do too. i am at day 108 or so. I have read a lot on it, and it seems to be what I am going through, the anxiety shouldn't last more than a few days to a week at a time. Just liek you, mine is not terrible like it was, it is doable, but very uncomfortable, especially when we feel that we have "done our time" and we want it over.

I had it for about 5 days, not terrible, but that low level anxiety, and yesterday and today it is gone, phew! NICE. I have read to expect it,t hen it won't catch us off guard, and we will know it will pass.

Please post and let us know how you are.

hugs,
Lily

[mary577]

Bumping this to the top.   I don't know much about anxiety....the only time I felt anxious was when I was taking the pills and I "needed" to take another one.   I have had depression since quitting....a month of feeling like I couldn't drag myself out of bed, but can't say that I experienced anxiety to any extent.

Anyway, congratulations on your clean time....that is wonderful!!!

[Free2agoodhome]

Hi,,,

Hate to see a post go unanswered....I don't have experience with anxiety,,,,but I'm sure someone does,,,,

Are you saying you were on anxiety medication in the past?