Any1 who knew lynnalb on this site

This is her fiancé and she is now in the hospital from a seizure. This was the last site she was on before it happened she's not able to talk right now but I need to know what she is into in order to help her. I've looked thru this site and I read a few posts ? I'm reading she was on methadne? Does anyone know how much. Did she over dose I need help and answers as many as I can get will help us here. Thank u I will keep looking through this site trying 2 find answers!

[gnarly_1]

HI  im so sorry and yes she had gotten off methadone but went back on it because of how lousy you feel for 90 days coming off it she had just bout a new batch look for it it will be in a small bottle im thinking it was tated she was in the beginning stages of trtrating off the stuff so her dose was low
hopefuly she will make a full recovery good luck and Godbless
Gnarly

[dominosarah]

I hope she is going to be okay.  How long will she be in the hospital or havent they said?

[lynnalb15]

Thank you. I knew she was struggling with something I just wish she would have confided in me! I searched thru the bathroom and saw a bottle with yellow stuff in it. I have seen it before but never thought twice about it. She has never shown signs shes been the best mother and I just can't imagine. The bottle is full so I'm guessing it wasn't an over dose? I'll keep everyone updated. Im going to talk to get and try to get her into a rehab.

[lynnalb15]

It just happened. I'm taking our daughter to my mothers right now and I'm going to the hospital I'll keep everyone up to date. Any more info about what she has gotten into would be great.

[dominosarah]

She is such a nice person.  Please keep us posted okay?

Many times addiction is very shameful and embarrassing to us.  Just be there for her and listen to her~~

[dominosarah]

Take that bottle you found with you.

[lynnalb15]

I will always be there for her. She should know that. I'll be back on later to update. If she's stable I'll be giving her phone back. Thank u for helping me.

[lynnalb15]

I should take it with me? Why is this?

[dominosarah]

You are welcome.  We will be waiting for the updates.  If she is stable send her my get well wishes.

[dominosarah]

That usually helps the doctors know exactly what it is.

[lynnalb15]

Alright I wil do that

[aim1023]

God bless her!  Sending prayers! !!

[lynnalb15]

She is stable and wanted everyone to know this was not an over dose. She will have her phone back soon as the drs are finished with her

[lynnalb15]

Hi guys it's Lynn  what a scary night. I want everyone to know this was NOT an over dose. But methadone taper is kickin my *** and my bp got way way too low along with my blood sugar. Thank u for yur support. And I'll be I the hospital for a few more hours. I sent my fiancé home to care for our baby. Anyone up to talk. I'm kinda scared out of my mind right now that this will happen again. I've never been so scared in my life. What an experience. It was like I knew it was happening but couldn't say anything. Thank the lord my baby was no where near me or in my arms. I'm getting professional help to detox. I cannot do this in my own. The dr questioned me as to how much I was taking and took my blood and says it looks like I was consuming a little more than 135 mgs Adayif not more.  Wow I had no idea. :/ and my taper was only 5 mg maybe less a day. I cannot do this onmy own. And I am understand that. I miss my baby. I'm so scared to go thru a program and be with out her. That is my WORST fear  and I dot know if I could handle it. Any up and able to talk ? I hate hospitals. :(

[overopiates]

Hey sweetie.Im glad u got2the hospital.I think Its a GREAT idea2go n2a facility2detox.I dont have experience w/meth BUT of all Ive read&learned here make it clear its1of the most difficult if the MOST difficult drug2get off of.U get put on a really high dose,then they tend2keep it high&when u taper its like extremely slow torture.I cant imagine what ur going through but u r n my prayers.

[Ashley0710]

I'm so sorry that this happened to you. I can't imagine how scary that must have been. It's good that your going to get help with your detox and I wish you the best of luck :)

[overopiates]

I c/t off150mg of hydrocodone,quit soma,tapered off xanax256days ago myself.It takes SO much strength2get off meth.I can imagine ur sadness about being away from ur child but remember its temporary&when u come home u will be sober,ur daughter will get all the best of u.How long r u going2b gone n a program?Ur blessed as am I that u have such a supportive partner.I thank my husband all the time4standing by me

[lynnalb15]

Thank you everyOne. So are we are talking about a month long rehab and also thinking maybe out patient instead. I'm not sure. I've done that before and it only worked for so long. This is hell they are sedum me home with bold pressure stabilizers and something to help me sleep tonight. I just want to curl up in a ball an cry. I hate the thought of leaving her. But I have no choice. I got myself into this and now am suffering the consequences. And yes I'm very lucky he is supportive. He seems upset I never told him but that's understandable. I don't wana go thru this alone. I'll cry all night thinking of leaving my daughter for a month. I can't do it. I'll die. She's the reason I smile every day. Ugh this is so hard.

[selfinduced]

I have been follow your post and admire all your courage. I think it's a hidden blessing that your guy found out. He can now be there for your baby and support for you. You are so right, this is no free kin picnic. Right now this IS all about you and getting off this crap. One month away from your daughter will go by in a flash and give you a lifetime of a settled mom. Hang in there, we are praying for you!

[bama88]

I am glad.you are alright.. I kept up with your posts..even though ibdidnt know how to help with methadone..im.sorry roubwent through that.

Methadone is so so.strong from.what i know. But never used..I've heard the half.life can build up dangerous levels am getting off that stuff issue the worst..and i kicked oxycontin..that kicked.my A@@. I went to rehab and.so did my husband...ibdidnt stay as long because of knee problems they couldn't treat but i loved.it there..i went to a nice one in northern Alabama. You'd thought we were at camp!!  My husband did a 21 day stay to kick morphine..he's doing.good now..don't be scared of.rehab.its a great place.to.detox and.learn about addiction and triggers and everything..you'd be amazed at the people who end up in there.. We had a nurse..and other professional as well as an athlete..so don't be scared...i was at first.. Seems.like.such a long time to be awaybfrom.your family..but they willbhelp you..ask me anything about rehab you'd like..i wanna government you a hug for going thru this

[bama88]

Sorry about my post..im on my phone and sometimes it makes.up words...i meant to say this will ne the best thing for you. The hardest part of going to rehab is feeling like a failure and being apart from your loved ones..totally get that. But if we had cancer and.had theopportunity to.go.to.China to.save our lives we would..and if we had to be the only one who.goes we would...what im trying to say is sometimes we are so sick we need to focus on ourselves...and baby you'll be sick in the beginning and well in the end..and that is worth being apart from your baby..i mean it from the bottom of my heart...take.this time forget to know you. Really find out who you are. What you want and need. Don't let.the fear and shame override the experience...it will.work.itself.out

[vicki595]

Hi Lynn- I'm releived to know you're okay now...

How are they covering you in the hospital?  Did they have any suggestions about tapering? Maybe switching you to something that wasn't a liquid??

I'm sure this is very hard on you. I agree about rehab. You first will need to detox off the Methadone and we'll be here to support you!   The baby is in good hands so now your job is to get well!  xo

[bstrongkk]

Lynn.. u are so strong bc u are trying. sometimes we all need help and time to get ourselves right. that is okay..u Will be okay! better then okay u will be urself again & u seem like a great person.u are helping so many people by sharing ur struggle!
i think this is a blessing that u r getting clean now while ur baby won't remember.sounds like u have a great guy who Will take great care of ur kids!
please go some where that Will help u tapper off instead of straight to out patient. u can do month! start today and take it one breath at a time. you can do it! much love ur way

[lulu747]

Lynn

I am so relieved to hear that you are alright and getting the support and care that you need.  I agree that perhaps, this is a blessing in disguise.  It was too much for you to shoulder alone.  You are a strong lady and part of getting stronger is knowing when to ask for help.  Let yourself be taken care of and take good care of yourself....The rest will take care of itself.  You are worth it.  
Sending support....
Lu

[dominosarah]

I am so relieved right now.  I just about had heart failure when i saw this post!  You have a wonderful fiance who will be there to help you and support you.  Take that and run.  I know you will miss your baby but your baby needs a healthy momma right?  We all want you to get better and start to live, not just exist.  It's time for you Lynn, your worth it~~~hugs, sara

[lynnalb15]

Wow your posts made me teary. Thank u everyone. I have been they rehab before a few years back and I loved it! Just didn't get the hint obviously. So I'm getting into a 30 treatment facility about 45 minutes from where I live so when I'm allowed to have visitors I can see my baby girl. I'm sitting here watching her sleep in my arms as I type and cry my ****!ng eyes out. How can I have to miss a month of her life due to my own selfishness. I hope this detox literally kicks my *** more than it already has. So that way I NEVER wana go back. I'll keep everyone updated. We aren't allowed phones the first week but after best believe I'll be on my phone daily on here and looking at photos of my daughter every second of every day. I leave tomorrow morning. Ugh what a ****** feeling. Yet it's bitter sweet. I just wish I could pack her up on my suit case ha I wish.

[atthebeach]

lynn, you are in my thoughts and prayers. try to be strong. you will be in good hands. your baby will be taken care of. be well.
sending hope,hugs,encouragement
debbie

[dominosarah]

Hopefully your fiance can keep us updated.  Let him know he is very much welcome here/.

[lynnalb15]

I will let him kno Sara. Than u all

[gnarly_1]

HEY girl how you feeling seizures are nothing to mess with.....so where do you go from here we need to get you off this crap did this happen off the new bottle??? I know you dident od but im thinking tainted methadone anyways keep us up to date best you canI will pry for your whole family good luck and God bless........Gnarly

[lynnalb15]

Hey gnarly I'm okay. Just haven't slept. I'm headed to treatment in 3 hours and it's hard to deal with leaving my little one behind. I'll write u all once I leave. Thanks for the prayers.

[snakejones]

My very best wishes for a safe detox and a gateway to a brighter future ahead go with you. Methadone is a real beast to try to shake all alone. I'm so glad you will be inpatient. As hard as it is to leave your little girl, you must do the harder thing and be supremely focused on yourself for awhile, because it's ultimately going to benefit that baby, too. We're all here to help in any way. Hey, tell the staff about this forum--I think they'll be incredibly impressed! Hang in there, and write when you can......

[overopiates]

U r n all of our prayers.This is worth it