Back on track today

[AlmostThere99]

I don't know how but I got back on track today and stayed on my taper which was 55MG today. I slipped so bad yesterday I did not think I could hold the pace. I'm going to take two valum and go to bed early and avoid any further temptation tonight.

Tomorrow is 40MG (4 10/325's)wish me luck. By the way today I broke all the pills in half and pretended like I had 11 of them to spread out throught the day. Tomorrow I will do the same and turn the 4 into 8 half's. Even a half is the same a a regular Vicoden. Knock on wood. I feel like a jerk posting I did good, I messed up every other day but it does help me to write it down. Even if no one reads it.

P.S. 4 a day is a big milestone for me. It would be the first time in years I did not take more then the doctor prescribed. That means tomorrow I am not an abuser. Just and addicted user. Right??

[confused373]

Good for you getting back on track.  I am new here so I can't give any good advice but you realized you needed to get back on track and that's what your doing. Just think about tomorrow not yesterday--Best wishes

[grace03]

Your doing great, don't be too hard on yourself, the anger brings back those "f*** it" feelings then it's all downhill :)

Then again if we aren't hard on us, then who will be.  

I felt like the world's biggest hippocrate, posting away on here and yet I can't get my own crapp together.  I did take some time away and OMG sunk so far down the drain.  Came back saw so many new names and felt the love and warmth of the forum that I so missed.  It was Tink and Vicaddict that kicked my asss back into shape and didn't let me fall too far when I strayed.  

I am finding that the lower dose is harder to kick than the higher ones.  Moving down from 80 to 20 seemed so much easier than 20, to 10 and now 10 to 0.  You have kicked asss to get this far and deserve a pat on the back  :)

[AlmostThere99]

Thanks. I can't stress enough how much this is a mental fight for me. Breaking into half's made it so much more easy for me today.

I wish I had someone helping me. I would have them crush up the pills and put smaller and smaller doses into capsuls. Then I could keep taking 10 pills a day except they would be nothing but suger in them towards the end. ( I am being fececious)

[Brittt]

im so happy to hear you did good todayy!! and i want to thank you for last night u helped me a lot and it means a lot to me!! = ) ...ttys..